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on 2007-02-27 09:00:06 |
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things hav been going a bit rough recently....a rather close relative passed away just last week :( and i'm so far away that I can't even attend the funeral...and not being able to be near the others who need comfort is very hard on me since all i could do is talking to them thru the phone... i know I should be moving on but this is my first time actually experiencing death of a family member..& to think last summer was the very last time I'd ever see him again...  |
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on 2007-02-27 12:07:08 |
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I'm sorry Rea...I hope you feel better soon! |
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on 2007-02-27 12:29:41 |
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ThanX for your concern pame-chan :P i guess this is one of the many things we have to go through in life..itz unavoidable, so i'll try my best to face it head on! |
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on 2007-02-27 15:23:46 |
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Wolf, who doesn't go through that? I went through it for a long time, my entire life up to this point. The thing about a situation like this is that no can can help you, you have to find this out on your own. You could try and find who you are through others but invariably that will leave you weaker for it. Much as the old parable about teaching fishing, if you give a man a fish you feed him for a day, you teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. I know of two ways that you can find yourself, one of which is very painful and lonesome. The first, and harder option, is to complete lock yourself away from society. By that I mean that you literally lock your doors and stay away from human contact for a while. You could also go on an extended trip in the wild and try and figure out who you are, either way is to remove yourself from the human world and live alone. The time you end-up thinking will lead you to answers as to who you are, and with no distractions you can think clearly. That method is effective, but it is very time-consuming and is hard to do fully. The second method, which by comparison is much easier, is to put yourself through trials of character and morality. Seeing how you would respond to certain choices and how you react to the outcomes can teach you a lot about yourself. You can't just think how you would do them, you have to actually do them. It doesn't matter how convicted you are to a belief when it comes down to the event the choices you make at that moment are the ones that you can define yourself by; even if you aren't proud of them. Those choices are the only ones that I know work for certain, but only if done completely and correctly. What that means to you is different than to me or anyone else. Only you will know if you have found yourself and only you will know how far you have to dig to get there. Sometimes it's as easy as taking a day to just think, other's it takes years of solitude and self study. It all depends on the individual, and just how much about themselves they want to know. <-KuSoJo->, judging is what people do, even if they don't want to. No one can say that they don't judge to some extent. I try to hold back my opinions on others until I can know as much about them as I can, but I still do. A good approach to a situation like this is to simply get things out in the open. Keeping things in a dark corner only adds to the stories about it. If you think about it the things that most mis-understood are the things that hide in the dark. Things that are out in the open are better able to be examined and the truth may become known. mp4c, I agree with your beginning but disagree as I move towards the end. The world is classless. Nature knows of no artists or greedy individuals, it knows of life. That's what we all seek, but the means vary. The greedy do not seek greed, they seek to live. The artist does not seek expression; the artist seeks to find life in what he or she does. A lion does not care if the tree it sits under is beautiful or that the shadows it sees stand in contrast to the golden grass. A lion cares only for it's life and how it can live it to the best of it's ability. To say that a tree is beautiful is what separates us from nature, however we are still a part of it. Routine is a human creation and much as useful as a potato-peeler on a ship full of oranges. It simplifies aspects of life, yes, but to what end? Simplifying a complex equation may make it easier to solve but you have to manipulate it to certain degrees to get it that far. Simplifying on it's own is pointless without first understanding how you got there in the first place. As the artist does not create without first being inspired, one cannot be happy without first finding something to be happy about. I'll let you take it from there as you will. |
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@ esther...thanks..^^ i feel better..XDD 
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good day everyone, i was depressed and i am scared of tomorrow's TOEFL test................i just had this feeling that i wont do well .. >,< i just want to scream. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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on 2007-03-01 10:39:58 |
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Honey'ko don't get nervous! You have to be in a postitive state of mind...and I know you'll do great...come on...cheer up! |
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on 2007-03-01 10:40:06 (edited 2007-03-01 10:40:40)
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HUAAA! Don't be afraid, I shall scream with you. Because it wont take anymore longer, than ONE WEEK untill I have my EXAM @.@ (im reaaaally scared) AAAAAA!! But now. Let's start the real depression. That incoming exam is stressing me all the time, because even right now I know I should be reading, not computing. But I am computing not reading (AEAA!!) And then I have had this stange sickness for few weeks. Days. Months. I don't know when it started or when will it end, or will it? I can't stay awake. Im sooo sleepy. I sleep 12, 10, 9, 6 hours. I trie to sleep less or longer to see how will it effect. And it does not. Im still sleepy all the time. And I get so dizzy after being awake for while. That is new. I have been just sleepy earlier, but now I also get dizzy. I can't think too clearly, and I can't read anything. That is because I just don't understand what the text says. After I read the first sentence I can't get grasp from anything So the incoming exam and this state of mine, both together, are making me super stressed. And then I got this fight with my mother. Oh, it is so good to fight with your mother when you are stressed and she can take your selfconfidense down with few words. The main cause of this arguement was idiotic, and the result was bad. We were fighting over my promdance pictures. They were in digital form (you know) and she wanted to have paper pictures of them. So we decided to send them in a photograph store. But she wanted all those horrible blurry pictures (and the ones with meh, looking like an octopuss or something) as well. And I didn't. And that is why we started fighting. YAYY! And because I didn't obey her command she started telling me how horrible child I am. That I am like a maniac, crazy, twisted girl, who should be taken in nuthouse or somewhere. That I am only thinking myself and that there is something horribly worng with me. That nobody is similiar to me, and that she does not even dare to talk about me to her friends at work, because Im so horrible. (Which is lie btw. that hag can has to talk about everything to everybody) And oh, I can't remember all the things she told to me. Or shouted at me that time, because I was just sitting there and crying. I hate shouting, I fear it, and she really did make me feel bad. So that is the happy family life of mine right now. And yesh, all those things together make me feel totally the WORST! I am worh of nothing little piece of shit (I just remembered! That was what my mother called me as well!) So noe noe, im not that happy always :s   |
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on 2007-03-01 10:47:10 |
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@ Nekomimi: a few things... 1) DON'T DIE!!! 2) we've all had our share of parental disownage...mostly me and I'm used to it....which, by the way, is a bad thing. XD 3) we know that you can do well on the test...just...make sure you write down your name. XD I know I Forgot until the last minute. :P 4) we all wish you well, don't fall asleep too long, drink lots of fluids, a bit of movement and exercise would do and work up that immune system. XP 5) I'm rootin' for ya!! ROOT ROOT KABOOYAH!!  |
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on 2007-03-01 13:10:34 |
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@Nekomimi: OMG!! poor Neko... I wish i could say somethinbg to cheer you up, but I'm not good doing that T_T But I'm good giving hugs ^^ *huuugs* and as Dark said... DON'T DIE!!!   |
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I miss Renady *cries* I miss her ALOT *cries even more and louder*  |
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Well it figures that my internet gets axed for a little more than a day and this thread explodes with posts. DNinja I get what you're trying to say but life goes on whether I'm there or not. I'll never be able to completely shut myself off from the world. I'm just going to keep doin' what I'm doin' because the questions I ask of myself are always returned with an honest response...whether I like it or not. What would life be if it didn't throw a change-up every once in awhile? From reading the past couple of posts I can see everyone is getting stressed over mid-terms, big tests, and the whole shabang. You know you the best so you know how you have to study. I would say not to let all this stuff stress you out but y'all wouldn't listen anyway. So instead I'm just going to say, when you're ready you'll know it. I leave you with one word of wisdom that you should cherish for the rest of your days: Caffeine. Use it for it is the mightiest of weapons in the fight against the educational system. Nekomimi that goes double for you. Caffeine will help atleast a little bit. I think you're tired because of the compounding elements of stress in your life. You are tiring yourself out just by trying to take it all in. Prioritize you schedule and act accordingly. Focus on one thing at a time and don't stop until you're done. And really because I think you need this above all else, chill out. Put your feet up, throw on so music, get your favorite drink, and take a load off. Nothing will clear your mind better. Things said in the heat of the moment can be either the truest or most false statements heard from ones mouth. Don't dwell on the things that were said. For the future, point the childish things out to your mother. Like raising her voice when you kept your even, insults that have no support, the idiocy of the topic you are arguing about and the like. That will hurt her the most. *sly look* But really you should let your mother choose what pictures she wants because....well it's her choice. You can suggest other pictures but you should not deny her of her choice. As long as you can communicate in a civil manner, most fights will be avoided. |
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on 2007-03-01 14:17:01 |
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Hello. Just wanna express how bad my day is. It hard to describe, it just....haaa...in the end I need to find a new job. Kinda sad when you think about it but in some point I'm relief too.   |
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on 2007-03-01 15:03:14 (edited 2007-03-01 15:36:31)
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Nekomimi-chan: Hey.Don't worry about it,your not the only one wearing those shoes.I've been through that with my mom. Things for me are rough,she's difficult as well. She denies ever harming me,and well...she can take down your dreams and hopes with words,and my dad isn't any better.Much worse. My mom once got mad at me because I wouldn't help with her hair,and I talked to someone about my hopes and dreams of becoming a singer.And she said "Your dreams are a piece of shit." And My dad was a bastard to me when I was just 6 years old. I wasn't any good at math,and I asked him for help.All he did was make me cry. but you know what? I'd much rather do something rather than complain. Go out,do something that makes you happy.During exam study days,if you take a walk,and study with soothing music,it might help. Take a few breaks,but at the same time know,you need to get down to buisness. I'm sure you'll do fine,you don't seem like someone who isn't smart... ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Night: Look for a new beginning! Maybe you'll get a job doing something cooler than before.Look at it this way,the glass is never half empty.  |
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Nekomimi,don't worry,you're not the only one with mom problems.My mom will probably kill me when I give her my report card. I got a 50 and 54 on two of my classes.I've never gotten those kind of grades before,so i'm sure that i'll die before I finish school.I'm so sad and she is on to me.She was looking through my backpack last night and found a faliure notice that I forgot to throw away.Now I have to give her the report card.Not only that,but I have a progress report that isn't so great.I'm in a huge mess.I'm so depressed.Don't be sad though Nekomimi,just eat lots of pocky.Pocky cures everything. 
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everything is not going my way. my friend doesn't talk to me in the usual way. i don't know what happened. when i talk to her, she replies with cold answers or something. i don't know what's my fault. maybe she's not in the mood or something... tomorrow will be our semi-finals in accounting (the major subject) and i haven't studied yet... T-T sheeezzzz.... talk about exams that have long chapters...  |
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OMG T_T *E huggles everybody with lots of random pocky sticks* I know I understand what a lot of you are going through. Especially about the mom situations <_>. Just try to find something positive that you love and are good at, and keep up with it. It might bring a lot of good out of it in the end. Nowadays, there is a specialist for everything XD. Leona - Don't worry too much, or you'll end up worrying more than studying. Turn off as many things as you can, and focus on what you read. It's better to grasp what you can, than trying to learn "everything" at this late stage. Don't forget to take study breaks. Stretch, turn on some happy tunes for ten minutes, or do anything that can refresh your mind and boday ~_^. It's a god idea to snack, but not something that takes too much effort or time. Finally, I hope you do as well as you can, and don't beat yourself up too much if you don't. Make up for it on the next test by doing 3 times as great ^_^. Good luck! Lone Wolf- Don't be afraid to let your mom know about what is going on. That might make you worry more and not focus on what you need to. Like, your grades! ^_^ If you say you've never gotten those kinds of grades before, then there must be a reason. Track back in your mind and try to figure out what the reason(s) is. Then, all that's left is to do a little changing of your routine, and put things back on the right track! Let your mom know that you made some mistakes and you've made some changes to fix the problem. Finally show her the proof later on! This is gonna make you look responsible and show your mom that you care about your grades. Level up!! XD I know you can do it. Just give it a try! ^_^   
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on 2007-03-02 03:54:14 (edited 2007-03-02 03:54:37)
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Dark&DN: Oo ^^' Don't worry, I won't die (yet). And it's a good thing you reminded me about that name thing. I have forgotten it so many times in so many exams xD (im too eager to answer the questions) I already regret bursting all that out, but it does feel good that people got similiar experiences and that they do care. But ah, I can't help but being sick. Or something. I don't know if I really am that sick. Maybe I should just go out and shovel some snow untill im totally exhausted. Work is the cure for everything. They say here :´D Im told to eat pocky. It cures everything. The miracle medicine. Woah. *eats some pocky* I can feel my head getting clear~! But oh wait! What did I just put in my mouth o.O noidea. Why do those evil people maintaining the school system make us go trough this hell, few times a year -.- nuu.. I hope ALL you people with exams can relax a bit! I know I can not ^^' And NO! No coffeine for me-! Oh I hate that stuff so much =P *thumbs up* for some reason you make me always happy : ) No idea why it comes so easy from you. But it does work. With just few words. Hahah, sob sob. I cry and laugh at the same time. Hysterical. Brr.. but happii~! No my head is not clear. But it is better. |
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@ Nekomimi: well, if it's too cold, don't go out!! XD you'll get even MORE sick!! curse bacteria and it's immuninties to intense nature!! Grrr...:P and pocky? wow...I drink herbal tea to heal meh. some tastes like honey...the rest...well...doesn't taste like candy, but it DOES heal ya. XD if ya find any korean stores, go and check out some healthy drinks that contain antler horn. those work WONDERS!! XD though...it doesn't cure stomach sickness...my family and I found out da hard way. BEWARE!! XD *huggles Nekomimi* no cries!! then again...maybe it's a good idea to. :P get as much bad water out and some good ones in!! ehh.....now I forgot what I was gonna say...O_o ; curse my short attention span...TT__TT |
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on 2007-03-02 11:38:13 |
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Poor Neko T_T I want to do something for her... *Thinking* Maybe see me dance can sheer her up :P * dances dances dances turn dances Spin dances hop hop (Rabbit ®) dances dances dances dances turn spin dances * uff uff... Are you feeling better? |