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by zparticus27
on 2008-08-20 01:33:34
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@doraemon wow, we kind have the same predicament!hahaha awesome..you followed your heart and got yourself a wife!sweet! i hope fate would be as kind to me!Hahaha but yeah,frm your example, the benefits outweights the costs..specially in my field...in accounting a lot of revisions are being made..so i guess i cant complain...but i still feel down at times especially when im having a hard time at a subject i already took..i guess im thinking things too much...thanks for the advice dude! @kitty why not talk to the guy and explain it to him..tell him he's a valuable friend and explain your side..if he's really your friend,he'll understand @engel but at least you have a new job!hahaha congrats! |
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Kitty, If your best friend can not get over the fact that you are never going to love him you may have to cut him out of your life for bit. Your feelings are already known by him and he is trying to wear you down because you tolerate his behaviour and he really believes he has a shot with you. You have to kill that shot in his mind and sorry to say he probably will not be able to be your friend afterwards. If you don't cut him loose now you will just become more irritated over time and he will become bitter because you will not return his feelings. Engel, can you take a makeup test?  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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Kitty, I agree with Doraemon on this one. Just make it clear you aren't going to talk to him until he is ready to give up and find someone else. I wouldnt want some obsessed guy stalking after my girlfriend, so mute him for awhile. Doraemon, Hows the baby???????? Hopefully not too smelly? Hey Zparticus... this is madness...  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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Jomunga, The baby is very happy and far from smelly. He likes to take off his diaper and tell us when he went poopey then he runs to the changing area most of the time. It's a good habit. I hope he doesn't stop doing it. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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by zparticus27
on 2008-08-28 00:54:19
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@jomunga...no THIS IS ZPAAARTA! hahahaha sorry i cant help it hahaha @doraemon you have a baby? cool! boy or a girl? plus the baby is poopy trained!hahaha nice~ |
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Zparticus, I have a two year old son. I think he enjoys being changed because I always play with him after changing his diaper and we sing together. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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I'm feeling so depressed right now I want to take my heart away and won't be able to feel nothjing never again... I thought I have managed to be a cold person who doesn't feel... but that person nmelt my heart and now it hurts just to much   |
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Ugh, being single for so long has finally gotten to me. I wonder if there really is just nobody out there for me. No matter how fit I am, how I dress, what I do, what I say. I can't catch a break. Excuse my language, but I think that being alone for this long(6 years)gives me the right to say I want to fucking kill myself so much right now.) I'm worthless, I wouldn't really be missed by many, and hell my insurance money could help my family out(more than I can anyway)well that's all I have to say. I usually manage to cut off all of my emotions, but somehow it seems that they are winning now. I hate myself. |
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You seem like you're in a predicament, Matt. Well, I'm in a bit of a fix as well. You see, things have sooooo f***** up right now that I'm falling into depression now. You see, someone spread a rumor about about me in class, which damaged me a lot. It not only implicated me, it implicated my best friend also. So I texted the person who'd told me this rumor, and told him to please get them to stop doing this, and to apologize to both of us (me and my best friend). But he wasn't a spectator; he was a participant. He called my friend up, and hurt her with a lot of barbed comments and insinuations, which led her to call me up and say a lot of...objectionable things. Now, what am I to do? I've become the villain in this sordid circus.  --> |
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DN, sometimes feelings like that come over us and leave. You probably already feel better before I even post this. If not tell us more. Matt, I was in your situation before. I thought I'd kill myself alone. Usually someone comes along you find attractive, if so just make a move for it. I myself found someone on gendou I liked and pursued her. Now shes right next to me. You can find someone anywhere, just keep an open eye out. Don't wait for someone to come to you. If you do find someone, wooing them is the easy part. Just show your feelings, be genuine, and make sure you are both willing to love each other. Gant, sort out your allies and enemies. If you have friends that you care about, just explain things and hopefully they will understand. As for others, distance yourself, retaliate, or whatever your style is. I'm not quite sure how girls handle situations like this. If it were guys a simple beating would solve it. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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-.- I feel kind of bad for reviving this thread just to b*tch about my life but I kind of need to vent. So I'm feeling really low right now. I'm a senior in high school and I was looking optimistic towards college. I live in California so over winter I applied to 5 of the UCs. Four "good ones" and one "bad" one. Because let's face it. We all know the hierarchy exists. In my mind, I ranked them in order of the ones I wanted to go to from lowest to highest. Irvine, Davis, Santa Barbara, San Diego and LA. Apparently, people have this perception that I'm smart. I wouldn't say I'm dumb but I'm not really that smart book wise. At first, I wasn't really sure if I would get into Davis or up. My grades were fine, I had around a 3.9 GPA or something but my SAT I scores were kind of lame. I mean to sound cruel, but I had seen a lot of people who didn't have such good grades as me and around the same scores get into Davis so I thought I'd get in. People kept telling me that I was going to get into it for sure but now I really wish they hadn't. Davis was the first one to tell me I hadn't gotten in. Right then and there I knew it was over for any prospect of getting into any of the higher ones because Davis was one of the easier ones to get into. It was kind of like a domino effect because at that point, the rejection letters just kept coming. The only one I got into was Irvine and I really do not want to go there. But I also really do not want to go to a state university or a community college. I'll go to Irvine even though I don't want to. To me, as selfish as it sounds, it's better than choosing the alternative. All my friends are really smart and I don't want to appear any "dumber" than I already do. That's another thing that gets me. All my friends got into almost every UC they applied to, including Cal and UCLA which are nearly impossible for any normal person. Not only that but almost all of them got some kind of scholarship, some partial and some even complete tuitions with benefits like class registration priorities and library privileges. So I feel pretty inferior because not only did none of the schools want me, but the only one that does was probably obligated to let me in because they have some thing where the top whatever percent of your high school is granted at least admittance to one UC. I just don't feel good. If there were at least 45,000 applicants per university for around 4,600 spots per school, how come everyone I know got in? I feel as though I'm breaking down or something. I got over cutting before but when I learned I didn't get into Davis,it seemed as if all hell broke loose and I just needed to bleed. I don't know how gendou.com is towards drug use but I feel that this is an important part of the point I'm trying to get across. I started smoking weed a couple of months before any of this happened. I was happy and positive and sure I was on the road to change. My highs were great. I just loved the world and everything about it and that feeling even carried over to when I was sober. I didn't smoke regularly so it wasn't like I was stoned all day. No, I still cared about school and getting good grades. But after all this sh*t happened, I feel like what's the point of staying off of it and cutting? I couldn't accomplish anything when I wasn't stoned or cutting so what difference does it make now? I feel as if I'm lying under a kind of haze. Nowadays, everything just seems gray and boring. Wherever I am, I just don't want to be there. I'll go from place to place but then I'll just want to be somewhere else. I was excited for college but I'm not anymore. I had a bout with depression when I was 15 and I feel like that is what screwed me over. During that time, I didn't care about school. I did the school work but I wasn't looking forward to college and studying for the SATs. Hence why my GPA was relatively high but my test scores sucked. By the time I reached 16 I felt things were getting better. I kept my GPA up, took the SAT IIs and did relatively well on those. The prospect of college and a change of somewhere I wanted to go got me out of the hole. But it didn't matter. I wrote my college essay on how I changed, how I got over it, but I feel as if the UC board just pissed on me and pushed me back to where I used to be. But now it just feels like I'm stuck here and I'm going to be stuck at Irvine because I don't want to be there. I don't really have anything to look forward to. It's not like I have a major I intend to choose right away. I figured I'd work it out over time and it'd be okay because I'd be somewhere I wanted to be. I haven't got a dream to work towards. Sometimes I feel like I want to die. I feel like what's the point of living a life I don't want? Yeah, I'm fortunate enough to attend college but I have some kind of weird complex. I don't like being second rate. At all. And I know that if I keep going with the flow, that's what's going to happen. It's almost as if I know I'm going to live a boring life because I don't have any sort of special talent. I don't want to be nobody when I grow up. I don't have any friends I trust enough to talk to about this so it's not as if I can count on companionship to get me out of here. This thing has only been going on for two weeks but it feels like months and months. -.- Yeah, so thanks if you actually read that whole thing and listening to me being bratty... |
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on 2009-03-31 19:49:06 |
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Jow, you just need a hug dude. Go find someone you love/like and hug that person, hug him/her really tight. Feel happy you got accepted somewhere, many people usually don't get accepted anywhere due to the hard economical times where in. Also who cares if you look dumb in front of anyone those people usually end up living life less than oneself. so cheer up have fun and go to college. if that doesn't work wich i know it should, try xanax! life is fun with xanax!! |
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on 2009-03-31 20:30:40 |
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WELCOME TO REAL LIFE! ಠ_ಠNo seriously. |
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Jen :c I know life feels really crap lately and you just wanna die, but please don't do that. Well, I just came from a similar experience from the last few weeks so I know how you feel. But you're such an awesome person, you've always been there for me no matter what, you always make me smile, and you just always amaze me. It sucks so bad that we're in completely different hemispheres coz I'd so love to meet you one day xD and i PROMISE ON MY LIFE i will, I swear. But anyway back to the point. You feel so bleh, like your life has no purpose lately, but I mean you mean a lot to other people! I know you mean a lot to your family, even if they don't always show it. and you mean a lot to me, of course. and probably anyone who's ever had the honour of being in your presence. I think you'll definitely feel better about yourself once you find something to do that makes you feel worthwhile, and GET YOU OUT THE FREAKING HOUSE. like well i already said something about a job but like, have you considered going to uni? even though you probably dont feel like doing any school work atm, it might be a really good thing for you emotionally. or if you don't really want to do something that big, maybe umm are there like community college type things in your country? where you could just be a part time student maybe. i dont know really, i suck at helping people :c but i know that i love you a lot and i never want you to feel like you wanna die T__T maybe just eat some pancakes and icecream while watching trailers for wolverine might help i think :c |
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@Latino: Thanks for the advice. I'll try to look on the brighter side of things. @Miko: =.= Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence. Just because it's an occurrence that happens in actual society doesn't exactly make it any better. |
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@Jow : Hey. Its not really the end of everything if you can't get yourself in your favourite college right? I mean, I'm almost on the same shoe; almost. I'm currently waiting for any offers for college and none of them had been very promising so far . . . XD My grades are bad than usual, and all my friends who scored hecka higher than me turned to me and pour me their sorrow and depression on how their 'almost straight As' results can't get them into their desired college. Heck that was annoying, I barely even get an A, but I'm still being positive about college offers. So all my friends are fully qualified for college; while I'm still waiting for qualifications cause I didn't attend school for more than a year. I've looked through the possible worst case scenario, and if that I can't get myself in college (Tho i really really want to), I'll just get myself a job, in the meantime while I take some simple courses. I so know how it feels like to live a life you're forced to. I'm a coward tho; I ran away from that forced life and blame everyone around me cause they were somewhat forcing me to live like that. I was a straight A student at that time, but I didn't enjoy it because, I scored high in things I don't like and people were cheering about it, but when I scored high in things I like they didn't really give a dam*, so it's kinda sad, really. XD So my point is, if you really don't want to do this, then don't do it. Life is not limited to that one particular way only. If you feel like being forced and this makes you think of vanishing out from life, please, I beg you, by any means, get yourself out of that drowning flow! XD If you're okay with taking risk then maybe you should try: for once?: doing something that you really wanna do, and not because thats the only chance you get. I don't know how to help you get in your desired college tho . . . sorry. XD But if things really got stuck on that college and you're left with no choice, maybe you should try to get a short vacation to an unfamilliar place, and maybe try to see the positive chances in your new environment? Like putting aside reality away for a while and let imagination takes place; I've always imagined my school as Hogwarts. XD  |
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@Jow Always aim high but don't expect things to always go your way. well that's I see things any way. so many obstacles always gets in your way. but boy its just so sweet once you have reached your goal, after going through all those problems. give it a try any way. who know what will happen. |
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@Jow This may sound presumptuous, but just wait until you get real problems. What college you get into makes little effect on how you succeed. And one thing I find when people get bunch on rejection letters is not because they had bad grades or sat scores. Its actually they aren't very good with their applications. Some colleges are looking for certain characteristics in applicants. If you are a minority that helps and having already chosen a specific major helps. Saying undecided at the UC level is not going to get you far. Basically this is a small setback in the whole prospect of life and won't mean anything down the road. At your age, which was only a few years ago, I felt the unwarranted angst too. Basically once you look at life negatively, it becomes negative. As long as you have your health, your needs filled, and the ability to strive for something you desire then there is no reason not to be positive. I have nothing against weed and I promote legalizing it, but I also recommend staying away from it. Not because of the drug but because the people you hang around with to get it and use it will mess up your life more than the drugs you get from them. I went the community college to CSU route, nothing wrong with it. Honeyko loves community college and doesn't want to leave. But she doesn't realize its probably same at university level. You can always just spend a year or two at whatever university and transfer to a different college. I have problems too and they are telling me to end this post, hope you get your spirits back up and are well. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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lol sammerz.. that sounds so You |