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Maybe the thread will pick up in a month when school starts again. Bah! 2 months of summer have gone by so fast. Ou ya, I remember something depressing. One of my cats died this summer. RIP Furball. We got her a nice cute kitty coffin and buried her in the backyard under the tree house.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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on 2008-08-04 07:46:13 |
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aww... poor Furball we'll remeber it always in our hearts... well, your heart jomunga casue I nevet met it. are you planing in get a new cat?   |
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on 2008-08-04 08:30:20 |
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Yeah, you said it. Two months have passed by like nothing. It sucks cause usually August is like the loser~ish month for Summer, cause school is just at the end of it, lol. Some car crash, eh? Sorry to hear about your cat. Pets dying are always sad, especially if they're a dog or a cat, or anything really. ...cept fish. My dad keeps buying more pet fish, but I don't wanna take car of these anymore, haha. I want those larger asian fish you mostly see in Chinese Restaurants or something, but you need a little money and that's a bit in the future, ha. ^_~` 
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I still got 3 cats in reserve hehe. Now its Fudges turn to rule the house. Those fish in the chinese food eateries are cool. I think you are thinking of dragonfish. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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on 2008-08-04 17:22:50 |
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lol, "where the fudge did Fudges go, fudge it." XD Yeah, I think those are it. There might be some cat fish, perhaps, but they're kinda pretty. Plus I always love checking out the different fountains in every other restaurant. If I had one of those Photography Cameras, I'd surely take pics of the fountains and fishes.
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on 2008-08-04 19:39:53 |
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omg!! 3 spare cats XD Good for you Jomunga, take care of that one now ;D no need to be depressed =P |
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ya. Fudge is a good kitty. Her biggest talent is to WHINE!
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on 2008-08-05 13:24:28 |
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Worthlessness Guys, dun procrastinate. Wait, its not my place to say.
Dream ends when we wake up and life ends when we die.
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on 2008-08-06 21:10:32
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am i heartless if i say that i killed a cat by stepping on it and just threw it in the trash? either way seeing pets die is sad but i barely feel sad..i dunno.. (why the heck am i talking about pets?) anyway its nice to see this thread get BUMPED...this is one of the first threads that ive posted on and this thread really gives decent to awesome advices!hahaha and its nice to see some familiar faces/avatars (welcome back jomunga and honey'ko!haaha) well im partly depressed right now... nothing is going "just as planned" in my life even my studies suck..i have to repeat a few major subjects because of creditation issues..and the down side is im failing at those retake subjects..it feels humilating inside..i once got a high grade on this subject and now im getting shitty grades?!what!ahahahaa im more pissed off than depressed...as if i lost my mojo or something hahaha |
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K guys, I can't remember if I've ever posted here or not, but it doesn't really matter... This summer I was supposed to study for the SAT since I didn't do as well as I hoped I would back in May. I got like a 1600 without too much studying but the only reason I didn't study was because every time I do, I get really mad and frustrated. And now my mom is putting a lot of pressure on me and telling me to decide which colleges to send my scores to and to start looking at the UC essay prompt. So today when I tried to study, it just all broke out. I was trying to study in math, my worst subject and I just got so frustrated that I started having a temper tantrum. It was...bad. I used to have a problem with self mutilation/cutting but I didn't really want to have a full on relapse so instead I started to scratch and tear at my skin. (I know, I sound emo. But I'm not cause I don't WANT to be depressed. :P) I have a scissor and an xacto knife that I hid so instead of cutting myself, I started to tear up my brother's old SAT book. The next thing just broke me. On one page of the book, it said to list 3 things that you would consider success. My brother listed winning a piano competition, getting a high score on the SAT and getting into a good college. And I hated him for that because he was able to do every single one of those things and I haven't done any of them them and I don't think get into a college that I consider good by my standards. I don't know, I can't really explain it well. It's just that I thought I had more time before I had to prepare for college applications but I only have a few more months. I just dread it every time someone asks me where I'm considering where I'm going to go to college because I have absolutely no idea. And I can't stand it when people compare me to my brother. He's one of my favorite people but I hate that he's the perfect 4.0 GPA, multiple scholarship winner, well mannered, musically gifted person that he. Sometimes it seems like I've got nothing compared to him. So yeah, thanks for letting me ramble, it feels kind of good to get it out. If I'm missing something or being blind to some detail, go ahead and slap some sense into me. Like stop comparing myself to him or just accepting what I have or whatever. It never makes much impact when you go the round about way for me. |
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on 2008-08-06 23:25:28 (edited 2008-08-06 23:34:53)
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Yeah, I'm sort of depressed too... I had this very good friend. We hung out and talked a lot and such like that. I guess you could say I liked her. Then, recently, she all of a sudden went all emo because all this stuff was happening to her, and she was also forced to give her dog (which she loved a lot) away to some.. indecent pet owners. I don't even know what happened next. She just spontaneously disappeared. I don't know where she even went. Anybody she knew either doesn't know where she is or won't just tell me. There's practically nobody at her house, so I know she didn't just run off randomly. I've never actually talked to her really since then. I've tried msging her, but no replys. Til today I still don't know much about it. We used to be so close, but it's apparently all gone now. So yeah... I just basically can't get over the fact that someone I cared about so much is just gone like that... It's even got me all agro all of a sudden..  |
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Zparticus, its only heartless if it was on purpose. Still watch your step D:< I have to retake lots of subjects due to me dropping out of highschool. I know how you feel. Even if you got good grades in a subject before it really doesnt matter. The to me the grade I get depends entirely on my teacher. I will do exactly the same thing for every class. Some classes I get As and some Fs. Now I learned to just not take classes I know I will fail. Luckily in college one chooses their classes. If you can choose your classes trying seeing which ones have good teacher. In the US we have a website called ratemyprofessor.com which is very useful. Jow, I am sure you can get into a decent college. I doesnt really matter what college you get into, most can give the same education and degrees. Getting into a well named college is something only useful for bragging rights for parents and to let people judge you more. Even with average scores there are plenty of good colleges around. Do you have an idea for a major? Oh no, emo, the eighth sin. Well Komaro, I would just wait for her to show her face again or reply since there isnt really anything else you can do. Just leave her messages letting her know you worry now and then. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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"On one page of the book, it said to list 3 things that you would consider success. My brother listed winning a piano competition, getting a high score on the SAT and getting into a good college." Zparticus, The only thing I can recommend is maybe spacing out the classes so that you only have to take one course you hate at a time. That way you can focus and get at least a passing grade as opposed to failing multiple classes at once. Komaro, There is nothing you can really do about people disappearing. I'm a military brat so I guess I am used to people coming in and out of my life so I can only say that time will ease the pain of having someone pop out of your life like that. Jow, Really sucks when everyone has you in the shadow of a sibling. Success is not measured by a test or special talents. Success is about doing something you feel good about and taking pride in it. As far as school is concerned, you might be better off just letting your parents know that you may not be ready for school. You have time so you can choose a school that is good for you based on what you want to do as opposed to ending up some place because you feel rushed.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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on 2008-08-16 08:34:39 (edited 2008-08-16 08:35:41)
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@jomunga yeah i guess so XD but to my defense it was dark and i could see a thing!hahaha well its more than just grades..I get this feeling of stupidity every time i fail a test at that subject since back then i was passing them >.< its like all those lessons i learned a few semesters ago vanished and im back to square one, having no progress whatsoever...its like my first two years in college was a big waste..but i get your point...sometimes the teacher becomes a factor to the grades..but its more than just grades, at times it feels like i havent learned a thing after all these years...i just hope I'm having an off start with school @doraemon true,spacing it out would make it easier, but that would mean prolonging my stay in college and that is not an option im willing to take...my recent school transfers makes it seem that i've been held back by 3 years already...most of my batchmates and friends in high school and college have already graduated and started working, and i feel that i've been left behind by everyone i know...but then again, maybe im rushing things too much.. |
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Can you believe how many people suffer everyday? I can make a fortune by counselling them.XD I'm not being mean btw, it's my nature to joke about everything. ^ ^ Does anyone find life already pre-ordained?(meant in a non-religious way) Like going to school, and working your a$$ off to get the highest score, go to college, trying to impress the girl/boy you have a crush on, and keep working till you drop?..(sighs)..Why aren't you thinking about taking a different route? It's not like everyone's enjoying it! Some get nothing even after using up all their efforts and making terrible sacrifices! A certain someone (-_-) will be angry if I say we should quit on what we can't achieve, but things don't work out for all of us. We can switch our future with something that we never had in mind before. I can't give an example now because 'a different route' would be something we still don't know yet. But I won't call that route a dream either. It can be something that helps you relax or be cheerful. The kind of happiness you wouldn't find anywhere else, not even in a manga!XD Ofcourse you're confused by now, but I believe, you'll understand when you really attain such happiness. ^ ^  |
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@Jomunga: Yeah, I probably can get into a decent school and most of the time I believe that. Only when I start to study and realize how much better my brother is is when I get frustrated and believe that I'm all the way on the bottom. -__- But I guess if I can keep the mentality that I usually have, I can make it through this last year of high school without too much turmoil. @Emphy: About the preordained thing. -___- Yep, that's how I feel a lot. I think this video can explain it better than I can. (>.> Random I thing I found while surfing around.) |
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Oh my Jowqi!! o_O You must be under a faze right now with your exams and your brother and stuff. Well you do what you can do. I say good luck! ^ ^ One of my cousins got all A's except in one subject. She actually failed in that one subject. Seems it hurt her pride more than the disappointment she received from her parents and now she won't sit for that exam again. She ignores her classmates who know about her poor grade. And since the failed subject is Mathematics, she can't get into a good college unless she re-sits it. Some of her friends, who were no better than her in class, are now applying for colleges and doing all that moving forward stuffs. Huh....I guess her life's going to turn now. I hope she finds the kind of success she longs for! ^_^ |
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zparticus, You may have to weigh the benefits and drawbacks of spreading out the courses versus trying to finish quickly. Finishing school later is not always a bad thing. One of the benefits of finishing school later is having eduation and skills that are up to date. When most of my friends and classmates finished school in 1999 I felt the same way you did. I felt like I was being left behind because I made the choice to follow my heart and leave school behind to be with the lady that is my wife. A few of my friends graduated right before the internet caught on and were left behind because they had no interest in computers. When I graduated this year I was surprised to learn that many of them went back to school to pursue other subjects and find other occupations that either brought their skills up to date or simply made them happier. My former room mate went back to school to become a video game designer because his art degree simply wasn't working out for him. Now he works for a company in San Francisco and is doing what he loves. He wasn't alone though. Many of my classmates at the time were just going to school back then because their parents wanted them to or because they were taking courses they thought would help them make money but didn't make them happy. Because I waited I was able to find the educational courses and jobs that made me happy and marketable as an employee. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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| Okay... Um... Well I mind as well reply to this post sence Im emo alot of the time... I have both problems at home and with my love life... Im not all that sure if I want to tell people alot of my inside life though... Um... I'll explain about my best friend though... *sighs* well my best friend, who just so happeneds to be a guy, slowly started to fall in love with me... I dont like him any more then a friend but... that doesn't change the way he feels about me... I want to keep our friendship But I dont know if I can if we can continue to be friends with him like this... Not to mention he is pissing my boyfriend off, and my boyfriend gets mad at me for it, when its not even my fault... Im trying not to let him get the wrong idea about me, because I do tell him all the time that we can never be anything other than friends, but he still continues... he recently started this thing where every night before one of us goes to sleep he says that he loves me to me... I dont like it and I told him that be he doesnt stop... it just pisses me off... I dont know what to do about him anymore... This isn't really the main problem that gets me depressed, but it does get me depressed when I think about having to give up a good friend just because of a crush... |
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Me ish depressed... coz I flunk the 2 papers (exams) I sat on June.... Gyaboooooo!!! *runs away wildly*  |