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lonely life
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i dont know why but every single day of my life, i feel so alone. i have so many friend that stand by me but, it doesn't feel enough ..... something is missing.every single day of my life was planned, like: -you will do this at this time and do that there evrywhere! man, it was crazy they are treating me like i don't have my own mind and can't make any choices I HATE THIS LIFE! i just don't know why no one understands me! is that hard to know me, before they judge me?! why are people so........ nevermind. before, i had a friend ,we were really close but as the years pass by i notice that she didn't want to be my friend. she just wants to get money out of me. then i realized, HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID!! after that, i stopped being her friend because lots of people care about me more than her and still would like even if i'm rich or poor. and wouldn't let make a fool out of myself.... after graduation i met my kristin.... she became my friend, a true friend... i was so happy because she accepted me (in these time, she didn't know that i was filthy rich. i know i should keep a secret with my friend but i was afraid she would judge me.) but then i still feel lonely, today i have so many friend like kristin but i still feel that something is missing i just don't know what?
^v^ "Kawaii!!!!"
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Re: lonely life
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I'm in no position to say this but I will still say it: I think you should take your time off and consult a priest or a guidance counselor in order for you to have an idea what is in you and what are the things you need. Hope I helped you... |
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on 2006-01-20 18:55:04 (edited 2006-01-20 19:06:25)
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Judging from the voice in your post you are taking this very rigidly. Consisder a pasta noodle, your hidding of the truth to your friends has placed stress on you. If not remidied you will always break into three pieces(spagetti noddles always do this). These three piecs are your social life, your perception of yourself, your physical health. These pieces are weaker appart than together, so you can see you need to keep yourself together. As for the reason you still feel alone, my guess would be that you feel conflicted as to what to tell your friends. As you said you think that they will judge you when you tell them the truth. To quote an old cliche, if they are truly your friends then they truly won't care. You said it yourself, "lots of people care about me more than her and still would like even if i'm rich or poor." The best advice I can give you is to laugh. It relives stress, makes you feel better, is healthy, and is classifeid as an aerobic exorcise. Read some jokes, watch something funny, laugh at something. If worst comes to worst look at any three of Sero's posts. Those'll make your day. Just remember there are those out there who have it worse than you do.  Try not laughing at that. Also if you ever get a headache I just found the best non-drug cure. 1)have a headache. 2)hold out left hand(or opposite side of dominante) 3)place thumb of other hand under thumb of othet and index finger over the tendon of the left thumb. 4)statr by squeezing under the seccond knukle and work way towards palm. 5)there will be a slight pain but the headache will disapate rather quickly might I add This works on the priciple of the pressure point at that point on your hand. |
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on 2006-01-20 19:08:21 (edited 2006-01-20 22:04:51)
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for me your feeling lonely because no one really knows you...like you've said kristin does not know that your freakin' filthy rich right?lol you have to be true to yourself as well with your friends?[its all my opinion im not telling its the right thing to do]if she will be the same after you told her the truth then you've found a true friend! about that first friend of yours, the one that befriended you because of youe money, dont let what happen between you two make you sad or lonely...i guess thats just how life goes on...there are lots of people out there that are so called "hypocrite" you know what i mean eh? i have lots of experience about friends that are hypocrite but from time to time i got used to it and now i have real friends...so dont let this things turn you down!kk? -kino- 
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-01-20 21:31:20
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Yeah, I think that your problem is largely that no one really knows you... Also you should try laughing and smiling. Try going to homestarrunner.com too, that place is good for laughs ^_^ You should also try the depression thread, because people there are trying to get out of sadness and such. And don't bother reading all 10,000 posts, just make a post stating your problem ^_^ If you need someone to talk to, just click on my avatar and IM or email me ^_^  |
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| If I had to sugest other things beside a cousoler ot a preist it would be a change a simple change. Usualy that something that you are longing for is something you havnt done. You have a friend that cares about you even thought you are rich, if it hard to find tru friends when it comes to them knowing your welthy but trust is the first step to tru friendship so I would tell her if you see a definent change in her then I would test her and if she douse badly move on. Anywho back to the emptyness you ned to try something new soemthing you havnt done. Or ist somethign you feel guilty about and unresolved issue those eat away at you badly even worst when its a personal issue. |
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by overlordsero
on 2006-01-20 22:36:11 (edited 2006-01-20 22:36:33)
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Kimmy, hmmmm something still missing? well hmmmm.... I am sure you will find it soon ^_^ Oh and you can add me if you so desire ^_^ MSN or AIM(id have to tell you this one) email me if you want. read my sig. hehe ^_^ 
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by zparticus27
on 2006-01-21 02:09:25 (edited 2006-01-21 02:11:52)
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yeah...i agree with kino chan...i think i have the same problem my life is quite normal,im not rich nor poor,just your average shmuck...i have a good family,great friends but i feel as if im still alone...like no one knows who exactly is zparticus...my parents think they do so does my friends...but i feel as if there a void inside of me...so i got depressed and my grades fell and everything that was perfect became worse...thats til i met HER...the first time i gazed in her eyes was magical...it like an explosion inside of me...so i tried to get close to her, but i feel as if im not worthy enough for her,but one day early in class it was just the two of us in the room,a conversation took place and next thing you know we were great friends...i dont know why but she so comfortable to talk to, like i can share what i feel to her...she the only person that ive truly express what i feel...since i usually go with the flow,follow my friends advice do what im told by my parents, but with her i feel as that what i say or do is ok,it like its ok with her if i screw up,which is my biggest fear with my parents and friends....too bad she already taken.........i couldnt ask her to be more than just friends... anyway just be more expressive and share your feelings with people especially your parents and talk with the woderful people at gendou!hehehehe...smile!wahooooooooooooooo!have a nice day! |
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Thank you Zparticus for that example. It is love you need. About the being rich part. Here is how it works, every one pays for their own. Occationaly I will treat my friends, yet they don't expect me too. Just because they are friends doesn't mean you have to go spend your cash on them. I even if I am a bit richer than my friends, I don't see what they had to gain from me. Its not like I was throwing money at them. If a friend is your friend because you are rich, make sure they don't profit off you. I'm sure thats not the problem though, it is deffinatly love you need. Everybody wants love, except Kotuso.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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on 2006-01-21 06:15:35 |
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Everyone has that emptyness. That's where God comes in, but that's your choice and I'm not goign any further with this right now. My advice to you about you being rich is; don't try to hide it, be yourself, but you don't have to go and tell people that you are rich, just don't bring it up. If people find out and ask you why you didn't tell them, simply tell them they didn't ask. If you've lied to hide the fact that you're rich, I would admit the truth. And there's my two cents.  |
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also guys..... i have a bad girl image in school a person only sees me smile when i was with this guy.... he was the brother of my first love and he's 5 years older than me. he knows every single part of my life.( he talked me out of telling the truth) and i know every part of his life too. in march, he will be graduating.... ( he a senior and i'm a sophomore) and i don't know what to do. i mean this gut means everything to me. and his ex-gf is a close friend of mine and she still have feeling for him. i dont know what to do. --------------------------------- @dirtyninja, the eggs was kinda cute...... it made me smile but i feel sorry for the broken egg in the middle. @ sero, i did tried to email you once, but i don't know what i thought of ... and made me change my mind. @ zparticus, well my family always thought of me as a problem child. i don't get into trouble but we usually don't get along like other families. you see i only get to see my dad twice in a year. @jomunga, i always treat my friends, they didn't asked me to, i just want to because...... nevermind. @ s-a-c-h-i-e-l, a lot of people tried to make me laugh but i just don't find it funny. maybe i'm a rock, you know, a rock can't feel anything. @ kino kristin also shares my problem the only difference is that both of her parents are away. and i did told her eventually that i'm filthy rich therefore she is also filthy rich. "birds of the same feather. flock together"
^v^ "Kawaii!!!!"
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by overlordsero
on 2006-01-21 08:11:48
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Kimmy, really? well you can email me anytime im here to help ^_^ I would say tell him how you feel, if your friend is a friend then she should understand. I had to make a choice like that kinda. I met this girl at work and this guy at work we became friends you could say,but he liked her too. I didnt want to hurt him at all, but I finally asked her out, and he got jealous I think, I kinda lost contact with him. And it didnt work out between me and the girl so....yeah. But I dont regret anything I did. Im glad I did what I did. I can learn from it. So I say go for it! I dont even KNOW my dad. I laugh because I am crazy ^_^ but I dont really show emotions that well either. It is hard for me to do so, I dont know why, it just is. And I dont usually tell people things about me unless the ask first. So about you being rich and all....you dont have to tell people. If they ask then you can tell them if you want. Well I gata go do laundry, hope to hear from ya!! ^_^
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Re: lonely life
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hey gurl fren or(boy frenz) just tink of some cute, hot anime guys maybe u would feel much betta 4 boyz i dun care since i dun even noe wat do boyz like...Juz find someting u lik.. or try mak new frenz... maybe u cn prank call pple n dun feel lonely... just find somebody fun if u wan 2 tlk u cn alwayz tlk 2 mi ~haha~ im da 1 hu alwayz mak ma frenz happy anywayz if theyre down juz e-mail me at nat_pard_anya@hotmail.com
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on 2006-01-21 09:40:19 (edited 2006-01-21 10:01:12)
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oh my! if you're having terrible problems at your age, what more on your later years? you're still studying and you're a teenager, you still have lots of concerns (to deal with) ahead of you: after college grad, finding a job that you would enjoy doing, even if you're FILTHY RICH you would feel that desire; plus there's the marrying stage, a lot of problems occur at this time especially after giving birth; and don't forget the old age, do you like to have so many regrets when you're already incapable of doing a lot of things you can do before but failed to do? you need a lot of self-motivation, kiddo! no one could really be of help if you're not helping yourself. remember to learn the rules, then occasionally break some of 'em. rules are different from laws, so you don't have to be an outlaw. and, find your way out of the norms - these are cultural, they are standards but they are not always right. know yourself first, what really makes you happy, what you really want. tip: there are so many people on earth and it's impossible that none of them feels the same as you do. think of them, those who have similar problems, YOU'RE NEVER ALONE. i'm not happy too because i'm always dissatisfied with my job. a year and a half after graduation, i've had two employers from different industries, one's outsourcing, the other retail. damn, i'm into social research, i don't like anything to do with f***ing business/es. where have all the non-profit oriented organizations in the philippines gone? see, don't worry too much, BEING LONELY IS A CHOICE, NOT A FATE.  |
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Re: lonely life
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on 2006-01-23 07:04:39 |
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there's so many people on earth and i know it's impossible that none of them feels the same as i do,but it's not that easy to meet with people like that,i have friends but all we talk is about games or anime,kinda lonely sometimes. Kimmy!why bad girl image?Did you told that guy how u felt for him? 
'Que sera, sera, Whatever will be, will be The future's not ours to see,Que sera, sera' |
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on 2006-01-23 19:56:05 (edited 2006-01-23 19:59:49)
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Gij is right. Being alone is a choice. As for me, being an anti-social person doesn't mean that I have no friends. Only a few I guess. I am anti-social, so what the hell do others care about it? Being alone makes me feel better. At least I know that no one will worry about me, or bothering to ask "Hey, where's [Censored Name]?" Getting along with others is quite troublesome, much more for me who doesn't know how to talk to other people... no proper PR, as you may. But it doesn't mean I'm bad. So much for other people who think the other way around. I'm much better alone. Than with a group of people who are more stranger than me. Fact is, the real reason why I want to be alone, is to avoid getting other people involved with my "controversial" life. *blip*  *blip* |
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Kimmy what you need is somebody who doesn't judge you by who you are or how much money have. Luckily for you, everybody here can be that person. Feel free to talk even if it is through e-mails P.S.: I won't ask you for any money. 
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by zparticus27
on 2006-01-26 04:09:55
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bad girl image...hmmm maybe you can show the real kimmy inside... i dont know...if you feel gud with it so be it...be as bad as you want as long as you dont hurt others or yourself in the process... and about your dad...well i guess both of you should try to communicate with each other...its kinda like those situations in t.v were parents kinda neglect their child cause they're busy with there work...kinda like that situation in GTO that episode where onizuka broke a wall...hehehehe anyway just hang on your still young...and to better understand what im saying, listen to the song ANAK by Freddie aguilar!that should summarize what im trying to say... and about that guy you liked...try to tell your feeling cuz you'll regret it if you dont...i did... |
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1) my dad is in another country. 2) the guy is GRADUATING! 3) MY BAD GIRL REP started when i still in grade 3, when i could take their insults anymore, that i made a guy cry.(i made his arms BLEED!) i just can't take it anymore! 4) despite my bad girl rep, every girl consider as thier best friend( i don't know why?), my best friend teases me as her "personal secretary and bodyguard" since last year. e.g. my other friend right now is having problems, because other girls called her a slut and the weird part is she calls me her advice girl but instead of a breakdown, i kinda taught her how to stay strong about the situation. people who say bad things about a person is just bored with their own LAME lives. 5) i'm a straight-a student except in foreign language. we're learning chinese. i met alvin (the guy i've told you before) in this class. he was a junior (now a senior) and i'm a freshman (currently sophomore) and we were seatmates. we do all kind of crazy stuff together. BUT...... his younger brother, kelvin (he's my classmate) have a huge crush on kristine ( he love her since grade 2 and were now in 2nd year hs)- and kristine hates i when talk to kelvin, how can i avoid that? i'm in love with his brother. 6) today, we (alvin, kelvin and i ) barely talks to each other. i don't know what happenned to our "friendship"
^v^ "Kawaii!!!!"
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Get Kelvin and Christine together, how you do it is up to you. And Alvin, I recommend confessing early before he graduates so he can make plans to still be with you on days off. (is he going to far away college or something, what are his plans after graduating.) Don't expect friendship to repair its self. Makes some calls, see if you can get everyone together for a funtime at a themepark or something. Just think, think of ways and how they could turn out. Think of possible solutions and go with wahtever you think is the best. Jomunga eats your avatars. |