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on 2005-10-12 00:36:31 (edited 2005-10-12 00:37:21)
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when a thread-starting-post is deleted, the thread dies with it. since this thread is already many pages long, lets break it into two. you have my express permission to make a depression thread 2 or whatever :P 
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| Yeah I'm defending no one in that thread, lol. It's good to hear that CCSnumber1FAN person got banned. He started to say things about me also. That's uncalled for.. Let me see depression, what can I say. It is a useless emotion we have, lol. It never helps us in situations and always kills the mood yah. I can't be too much of a hypocrite as I do find myself sad every once in a while. |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 22:10:47 (edited 2005-10-11 22:21:21)
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*Reads Luc's post & goes throw the thread agian* That really funny!!! I feel sorry for any new comers to this thread b/c they are going to think we are nuts talking to ourselves. Luc is right only all of his are gone. What really is funny is that b/c of those posts gone it makes us look like a bunch of huge baka(s). But what ever Gendou does, goes. B/c Gendou word is law on this site... Unfortunate for a few of us, it looks very funny having them have three replies back to back talking to nobody...Not nameing anyone. Maby those posts will come back in 30months & it wont look so odd. Atleast the thread wasn't delete. That is what happen last time Gendou did alot of Banning in the off topic. Atleast I think this thread should still be active in 30months...A little less enjoyable, but still active. & if gendou reads this... Here is a question. If the person being banned started a thread & it is well like would you delete the thread along w/ the rest of that person's posts? You just might want to forget what I said tonight. I just watch "Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants" (seen it on the big screne). I cryed like all three times again! & still a little unstable w/ my emotions. Then again I cryed watch the anime "Grave of The Fireflies" too. I just love SOTTP it is such a tear-jerker. Great for people like me who get very emotional during a movie or series (anime or non)
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Holy crap that is a long post. I think it's the longest post I've EVER seen. Poor Luc... But at least the other guy got banned for 30 years :)  |
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oh. so you are 19 too. awesome.  |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 19:28:23 (edited 2005-10-11 19:30:22)
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Marry was a cow... So she is give marry the cow barries So marry is mooing to the moon at night as normal people sleep. Which I should be doing, but I'm going to watch that movie now; then play online some more... & I was like 9 years old when I wrought this...that's ten years ago. So ofcourse it's kind of off.
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*jumps and screams with chick-yasha* yay, i gots it write. i feel special. and i likes this one too. but got lost after the barries. |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 18:46:16 (edited 2005-10-11 19:29:13)
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*Starts jumping up & down & screaming like a baka* ketsuki!!! You are the very first person to see how she died. The very first!!! I have asked sooo many & they all had no idea. & the reason is right too. All three peoms are depressing, so I'm asked if I am. Which I'm not. & I have has one poem from 5th grade that wasn't...I now that i think about it, it's not that good. the anime the poem was inspired from "Kare Kano" the girl was the top student of her middle school & she was like the perfect person, but at home she was totally different. She did it to get praised. There was a boy that came from another middle school & he too was the top student & did b/c of something, a different reason. But still a fraud, like her. So my girl in the poem was doig b/c of smething. I just never said what for, & I really didn't think of why she wanted to be the best either... As for the thrid it can go a couple of ways. So if you didn't want to know don't read the next paragraph... She either didn't lock her house/bedroom/dormroom door & her boyfriend came in & saw she wasn't who she said/look to be. So she wasn't this perfect girl he knew & he didn't want to be with someone who lied to him & everyone else. & she killed herself b/c she had the life she wanted, even if it wasn't who she is & she know had nothing. No one would trust her or listen to her anymore. & the guy she truely loved deeply couldn't forgive her b/c he too was deeply in love & would have understand her if she didn't lie. But b/c she did, he can turst her & w/out trust he couldn't stay w/ her. So if she had everything one day & nothing at all the next, she figure there was nothing to live for. Even thow she could have worked it out, but in a state of depression she killed herself after writing him one more time for forgiveness... & so she jump of a bridge or some how killed herslef w/ the river... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Little star where are you" (not good, but from 5th grade) little star where are you, will you give me a clue? because your so far away, it's hard to say. but I don't blame you, it's cloudy to night. will you light so bright, so you wont sink, into the darkness of the night. so I can carry barries, to marry. as marry moo's to the moon, as we sleep with our thoughts beside us. thinking that we will be well in the morning. so good night. By Chick-yasha I know it's bad, but that is the last of my poems. I can't believe I still remember this peom from like nine years ago...& I haven't thought of it for like five years now.
Never date a guy stranger than you. If so, make sure he's loaded.
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mi-cha, I’m glad that you are doing better. Living does take more of you than if you are dead, cuz if you live, you suffer. And yes unfortunately im not completely alone. That can be a good thing cuz if I was I would have already ended my life. Because even though I hate living, i am glad I can still see some of the things I like. If my life is seen from the outside, it isn’t ass bad. But most of the problems come from me, my way of thinking, my depression, just who I am. Young Kai, I know I can die at any momemt. I have escaped death twice. I live for the moment most of the time. I dont care if I die right now, tomorrow, of in a thousand years. But even if I enjoy life a little the pain grows more every second that passes. Just knowing that I will end up alone, that I will be alone through out life, not having someone to make the pain go away. That is wat hurts the most. I know I will always be sourounded by people, but none of them will know who I am. Because the are all superficial. They all go by looks, status and so on. They don’t take the time to see who is in that body. Chink yasha, your poems are great. You should write more. Unfortunately you think that I am better and its not true. I have written poems before and all of them where depressing. But if I have witten 5 poems that is a lot. And I lost most of them. When you moved over 7 times you lose a lot of your stuff. You lose friends, you lose the will to try to make them cuz you know you will move again, you lose hope and dreams, and you become numb to things that are around you, you become nothing but an empty shell. Anyways, with you poems, the mask, I think that she drowns herself in the river, why she did it? Im not sure if you are asking why she hide behind the mask or why she killed herself. If it was why she hide behind the mask I would say it was to live up to some expectation, to be who they wanted her to be so she could be accepted. How he found out, had to do something with the door. I haven’t figured it out. Anyways like I said before, you are good at it. Nighmare, I’m starting to believe that we are alike. I know you said it before, but I didn’t really think much about it. But it seems that we have some of the same points of view. Im gonna try to talk to kitsu today, if she logs on. She seem upset this morning, im gonna try to see if she will open up to me. I am afraid that she will walk out of my life without me knowing when or how it happened. My last statement of this long post. LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!! |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-11 18:00:27
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Dang Chick-Yasha... You're good (gives a thumbs-up). I always thought I was depressed and stuff.... but now that I think I about, I'm pretty well off. So I might be able to help someone if they need it... Also, if you end up being bored (which I can personally tell you helps with depression), a really REALLY funny site is homestarrunner.com. Not the greatest for 56k, but still workable. ...What isn't bad for 56k...? Anyway, hope this helps some.  |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 16:50:21 (edited 2005-10-11 16:55:46)
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Here you go Nightmare, I didn't change it thow... This was a combine of the anime "Karo Keno" & a poem I read in school about a guy who people wanted to be like, they thought his life was good & then he shot hisself. There where some people who wanted me to change the ending & make it happy; but I wouldn't. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Mask If I take off my mask, Will you still trust me? If I show you my true feelings, Will you still love me? If I be myself, Will you still have me? I hind myself, Because that's what they expect. I hind my emotions, Becuase I wanted to be the best. I hind me, Because I did not want to disapiont you. Now I look down the river, Wishing I told you before. Now you know I'm a fake Because I forgot to lock my door. Now you can't trust me, Because you never knew my true self. But now I'm lonely, Because no one trust me. I'm sorry I disapoint you, I meet to tell you the truth. I love you very much, But I'm going to disapoint you one last time. I lived behind the mask, Now I am going to kill myself because of it. Please forgive me, I never meet to hurt you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If you re-read the lines, & a little inbetween them, you can figure out these things: how she killed her self? how he found out? why she did it? Heres the link to the AMV that got me in that mood(One's Heart)...But you have to be a member. http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?vid_id=49056
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you know, that sounds like a good idea *pops in REANIMATION by linkin park, track 15 "My December" i LOVE this song! i have said it before and i will say it again, i love your poetry, you should post that one about the masks...that was an excelent one! i think poetry is beautiful. i know i am lucky to have all of you to help me out...times at tough, for all of us. i am 100% behind you ketsuki...it is like i have always said...life is meaningless, so why bother? life is stupid to the point of lafability when you stop and think about it...life sucks and then you die...oh well |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 15:49:36 (edited 2005-10-11 15:51:19)
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I rarely can do poems, just when I'm in the mood. & I didn't put gender on them so both guy or girl can fit in either of the poems' shoes. The first poem I was trying to show her/him self feelings of the world & about the person of the second poem. The second poem I was trying to show how that people feels about his/her place in life. So I was kind of going for "I wish I was you" & the other "I wish I wasn't me" kind of thing. I don't know... I guest I shouldn't listen to "My Demember" by Linkin Park for over an hour. Well that mixed with the GW movie scene voices playing in the background(off an AMV); when Heero & Wafei where fighting in space about & talking about the war...When Heero was trying to get to earth. Oh well, I'll probable still be listening to the same song for the rest of today...Then watch "Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants" once or more. Which will make me cry & laught & over again, Alot. And ketsuki is alot better than me at poems... Atleast I think so.
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by night_link
on 2005-10-11 15:13:46
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One word Chick-yasha: Amazing. I love poetry but can't get the knack of it. Are the poems supposed different versions of each other or supposed to be said with two people? |
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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-10-11 15:09:44 (edited 2005-10-11 15:13:23)
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I'm not depression! I just get in there moods where I just have to draw or wirte something very sad or depressing. And it didn't help listening to "My December" by Linkin Park. I discovered the song will watching AMVs (Anime Music Videos) from www.animemusicvideos.org the AMV is of Heero & Wufei from Gundam Wing, Endless Walts. It was the first time that I like a AMV that only showed one part. Anyways here the two poems, I want to know what you think of it. It is about one person feels for another; than that person's feels towds the world. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ One’s heart Why do I do this? I love you, But you will never know that. What is the purpose? To love, But not the heart to seek it out. Why most I go throw this? You know I’m here, But you don’t think anything of it. Why would you? You have everything, And I… I have nothing. Why are we so different? You do nothing, And everyone loves you… And know you exist. I have to work hard, And no one notices. I have no friends, I can’t join clubs, I’m too busy trying to get by in life… To live it. What if I tell you? That I love you? Would you treat me will, Or would I be a big joke to you? You have the looks, They all hit on you, You have a life, So what do I have… What do I have for you? … I have nothing. No hope, no one to love, Just a meaningless existence. So why do I keep on living? If nothing is going to change, And life will always be the same… Because I promise someone special, Someone I never meant, That I will live on… And be strong, for them… If no for myself. By, Chick-Yasha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ One’s Heart Everyone wants something. Everyone see only what I am, No one see me… For who I am. I spend all night working hard, Because I can’t slack infrount of them. Everyone expects perfection from me, But I’m only human. They think I want to party all the time, They expect me to be the best at everything. They think my life is perfect, But is it really? … Everyone wants me to be with me, Because ‘they’ will become important. They think if they dating me, That they can get what they want. Is it worth it? To live a life without love? Without hope? Hope of meeting someone… Who would love me, For me? Is there really someone? Would could want me without… Without… wanting something in return? I don’t think so… So what is the point? Why live a life without faith? Faith in people… People who wont betray you. So why do I still live? Because I made a promised… A promise to myself; That I would never end my own life… By Chick-yasha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I just finished them so, there probably a ton of things I could do to make it better. But Oh Well... You can leave a comment if you want... nightmare: I found that song you want, you just got to want until my computer final decides to send you the message.
Never date a guy stranger than you. If so, make sure he's loaded.
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by night_link
on 2005-10-11 14:15:45
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Young kai You sound philosophical. Or you act like it at least
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by night_link
on 2005-10-11 10:57:02 (edited 2005-10-11 10:57:40)
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We are not alone even though we might not like it sometimes. There is the quote "When you know how to die, you know how to live" from Tuesdays with Morrie. What it means is that once you can accept that you can die at any moment, you let go of all the things that aren't so important and focus on the essentials. Spending time with family and friends instead of fearing life. But not ditching everything either! Another idea from the same book is to learn to forgive yourself. I have trouble on this part actually... There are so many things that I hold in regret inside myself ever since many people I've known passed away. I regret that there were things I should have done and shouldn't have. But I have to stop this. A new tomorrow is what people have to hope for... not imagine a yesterday to come back so you can have a second chance or whatever. Because my fear of screwing up shouldn't mean that I stay in my past and ignore what is coming. The last quote I remember from Tuesdays with Morrie is "Love another or die". It means just as it sounds. |
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by åƒé³¥ãŠãƒãƒ“
on 2005-10-11 04:52:16 (edited 2005-10-11 04:52:55)
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Yes getting better. There no way that we cannot control over emotions. I've alwz believe that you'll need more courage to live than to be dead. To me hurting myself means hurting someone who cares for me. I really thank Kai-san to send me a mail, encouraging me to take good care of myself. Failing to do so means, I'll fail everyone's worries and advises, blessings they've given me. So when first saw this thread, I said: Wow, Nightmare, you are so lucky since many kind people in this forum had tried their best to cheer you up. Eventhough we know that we can't do anything much to ease anyone's depression or change them, but at least by posting a message here, we are showing our concern,care and respect to each other. And to Ketsuki-san: Ketsuki-san is alwz ketsuki and mi-chan is alwz mi-chan, though we are the same age. Maybe there's no reason at all, why stress yourself to find one, but the main point is how to fill your daily life with colors. Don't ever bother to ask yourself 'why am I here, why do I have to live? What's the purpose of living' Try to ask yourself, did someone threatened you that you must answer all this? My lifespan has been shorten not that becoz I want to and yet some people even want to take away their precious life just becoz they couldn't find a reason to live. It really a sad thing to know, isn't it? And to others who feels sad, depressed or even wanted to end your life, I'll be praying for your good health and happiness ^_^. Please alwz remember this: YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Ara...my mum's pestering me to take a rest now :P Ja mata ne, mi-chan
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"Would you go for someone who loves you but for you she's only a friend or would you rather go for someone you love but for her you're only a friend? can anyone answer this." Been on both ends and I can honestly say I'd go for neither. If I were in your situation I think I would rather try to find someone that I could love that would love me back. It's not right for you to string along someone that really loves you just as it isn't fair for you to not have your loving feelings shared by the person you like.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |