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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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Okay, but I hope you guys won't get too overwhelmed by my problems >< So, a couple of years back, our house got flooded. Our entire house was wrecked, and there was propane and cow sh!t everywhere that got brought in with the river. My cousins lent us a small camper trailer for our family to stay in until we could fix the house (which didn't happen because there was black mold all the way up to the roof). I called Schala because she was worried if we were okay (we lived in the same town) and she offered for me to go and stay with her family for as long as I needed. While I was with her, my little Jack Russell dog drank water from the ditch and went into a coma. Not long after, she died. Then, my brother gave his daughter back to her mother. This was very very rough for us. (we are still in the camper) We lived there for a whole summer, then finally another of our friends offered for us to stay in their cabin about fifteen km west of town. We were very greatful, having lived in a camper trailer for two months. After a while, my sister got into a rough crowd and her daughter got taken back to her father. This was horrible, as I had grown up with her. (I was four when my neice was born) Now, we aren't allowed to visit her too often. The only person I could talk to about this stuff (Schala) moved about two hours away from where I live. So, I have been bottling everything up lately. Ru-chan and I started talking before Christmas last year, and have been dating since January 17. But, lately, he is busy with tests and SATs and his trip to China, so we don't get to talk often. (I am 13 btw) This is basically a short version of everything. I hope it isn't too long for yous ><  |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-04-24 21:23:29 (edited 2007-04-24 21:24:03)
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@Eureka: sounds like you have some rough time. And you are at such a young age too. I am sorry to hear all that has happened to you and your family. I have to say my life is a lot easier compared to yours (at the same age). I see why you have to grow up faster than you have to. I know when I feel depressed there is nothing that can turn my mood around except solitude. A good friend and colleage of mine says that once a while we need some "calm water" to sail on. We can't fair the storm too long or we will be drained of our inspiration. A good word to cheer you up: "Expect the best, prepare for the worst, and take what comes."  |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-04-25 15:10:09 |
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Thank you, Without You!! (You are so smart ><) I just... thank you! *bows* I am getting my life back on track now *winks* Thank you for you help and the nice quotes! |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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| To follow up with what Without You said, no storm lasts forever. At some point in the future there will always be an end to the hardships that we all endure. It's also how we fair through those storms that is the most important. We can drop our sail and try to wait out the storm or we can try and sail out of it. Both choices have different gains and losses. While sitting and waiting for the end of the storm we may take less damage from it but it may also take longer and try our fortitude all the more. Trying to sail forth from the storm can be very strenuous both physically and emotionally demanding and we can take a large amount of damage, but it gets us out of the storm that much faster. So, as you can see, you will always get out of the storm, but if you carry the storm with you it will always be there to cause pain and strain. Also remember that no ship sails truly alone, if you ever find yourself taking on water fast remember that you can go to those other ships and tie off to them to keep yourself above the water. |
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on 2007-04-25 18:39:37 |
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@D-ninja: Well said. Life is tough. But it is easier when we stick together. That's what friends(and love ones) are for. |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-04-28 09:37:53 |
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I'm dizzy, I have a headache, I complete lost my sense of balence, anf I have a portfolio due on Monday. No one will leave me alone. My grandma thinks I'm lying about my portfolio because I'm online, since the teacher wants no handwritten assignment, I have to be. Plus I need to information. This portfolio consists of my 4th ninth week grade if I fail she's going to have a fit calling me an idiot. I need a break *sighs*  |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-05-11 00:18:53 |
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It's been a few weeks, hasn't it? I hope all you people are feeling better, heh. So here's a quick bump. Me? Hmm. I'm a generally depressed guy and I'm on medication for it (hoho, riceboks reveals himself). I've just been through a lot (a loooooooot) of things, ranging from exam anxiety to failure, to broken-heartedness and death. Of course, I'm not one to say no one else has had any of the same hardships because I know I'm not alone. Anyway, on to what I wanted to say... I've been in many ruts lately. More recently, I just don't really know what to do with some of these feelings I'm having. What kind of feelings? ... I know it won't help when I say, "I can't really say, yet." It's as if I'm in over my head, but I'm still at a point where I can step across the line or wait for something else to happen. Like what D said, stepping ahead can kick my ass, but it can also propel something else forward. So what to do? I'm a patient guy, I usually wait for things to come ... but it ends up hurting me in the end. So.. what to do? I'm going to try stepping across that line. Heh, I didn't give many details to my situation right now, did I? It just involves another person (...and feelings) and giving any more detail might inadvertently bring them out of the shadows. ;o    |
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Very few things worth having will just fall into your hands. Most of the time it's a struggle just to get what you need. But it's that struggle that makes you realize how much it's worth to you. It's that struggle that makes sure you'll never take it for granted. Everyone ends up asking themselves the same questions. Am I ready? Am I worth a damn? Is this really it? These questions are great but sometimes you have to stop second guessing yourself. Step up and give it everything you have. There is plenty of time to think once it's all said and done. Pass or fail, you left no doubt...and sometimes, that's all that matters. Good luck. |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-05-11 08:49:23 (edited 2009-07-25 23:25:22)
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Whoa, now I believe in the saying that U cant judge someone by their AVATARS xDD Naaa.. I'm just kidding. xDD Hmmm, all of us have probbies, family, friends.. LOVE ONES.. Problems are a part of our life and will always be in that way.. But hey! You'll never be alone, there will always be that SOMEONE that'll always stick by yer side.. There is nothing that we cant do.. YOU, what ever problems yer facing right now, believe in yerself and do whatcha hafta do.. EHMZ will be at yer back ^__^  |
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Life is good for me right now. Everything is going smoothly so far, but I came across something on youtube that caused me to learn about autism. I suddenly thought, "omg I think I have that." I went around to sites searching for stuffs and it seemed like I fit the puzzle. I don't know if it just my personality or what, but it doesn't matter anyways. I don't wanna get it checked or anything, and I don't want any more medications. Anyways, I have all those signs my whole life except for not wanting to kick the ball. I always want to kick the ball, I will kick anything on the ground that looks like it should be kicked. I do stack blocks if they around too. Well if I am not autistic, I at least act like one. Should I just ignore it and get on with life?  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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I've never posted here before so here goes. Recently, I've just been feeling...bad. I don't really know if I'm really all that depressed because sometimes I can be really happy. Some days I'll be looking forward to tommorrow and others I just wish that I could just do nothing. In a broader perspective, I think I have plummeted down in the last sememster. (3-5 months) I'm a sophomore in high school. Last semester, I was getting all A's and B's. Now this semester, because I'm on a block schedule and we have 3 classes a semester, I'm barely or not even passing my classes. Sometimes I feel like it's not even worth going to school anymore. I get frustrated easily and whenever I try to do my homework and I don't get it, I literally go into a temper tantrum and start breaking down. I also cut myself. (It feels kind of weird to admit it) Sometimes I won't go for weeks and sometimes I'll do it several times a day. The truth is, I don't even know why I do it. I'll usually do it when I have a temper tantrum. Once I do it, I usually stop crying. Then I go back to whatever I was doing. Sometimes I want to stop and sometimes I don't. I want to get help but I don't at the same time. I don't want help from my parents but there's no one else to go to. I know they'd freak out if they knew what I was doing. I don't want to be scorned from them from doing this. I just want to be understood. |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-05-13 15:52:27 |
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Jomunga: my mom is a speechpathologist, and she works with all kinds of people, half of them are autistic. She's described them to me, and their symptoms and such, and I know what they're like. It's hard to tell over the internet, so I can't say yes or no to you, but if you're that concerned, you should have yourself analyzed by a psycologist. There's no shame in that. If you truly were autistic, I think someone who is around you every day would have noticed though. If you have difficulties speaking or had issues developing verbal skills when you were young, that could be a sign. Also, if you have trouble socially, like interacting with other people or making friends, that's another sign. I'm not a professional though, so like I said, if you're really concerned, talk to a speechpathologist or psycologist. Jow: I used to cut myself when I was really angry. I'd take a pin and scratch a cross in my skin, and I felt so much better afterwards. But my parents caught me doing it. They didn't freak out, but they were worried about me and talked to me. They told me that there are better ways of releasing anger. I think it's great that you've admitted it, and I have the same advice for you. I know everyone says you should talk to someone, and you may get tired of hearing it, but seriously, it's the best thing you can do. If you talk to someone you trust (it could be but doesn't have to be your parents) they can probably help you out some. I know school is stressful. Hell, my grades rise and drop like ocean waters in a hurricane. But it's not good that you get so upset over homework. Ask your teachers for help with it. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm preaching to anyone or nagging, I just feel bad for people in need.  |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-05-13 20:30:05 |
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Rice, yep, but you also have to weigh in the potential problems associated with waiting for everything to come to you. You can't make the remote on the TV to come to you, and people aren't different. There are forces present that make the remote want to stay on the TV, and you have to overcome not only the forces on that remote but also those present that inhibit your movements. Apply as you will. Jomunga, everyone has symptoms of every disease. If you honestly think you have it though, go get it checked out. The money it costs to go see a doctor is less important than your health. Jow, find the one thing that makes you happy, and focus in on that. It's a useful skill to have, and a tough one to master. When you do, nothing will get you too far down, because you can always get to that happy memory locked up in your head and you can always fall back onto it. That doesn't mean the problems don't go away, it just means you won't hit bottom. You have to work at life to make it what you want, so get out some social-play-dough, and giant slab of fun and get to work on your life. |
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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Heh, yeah, I know. Forgot to post an update. Turned out better than I previously suspected. Stepped up to the plate, took a swing, ... but the ball is still in the air. ;P All day I kept thinking about it, and it took me a while (make it .. 2 hours?) to get it out right. Afterward though, I still felt somewhat apprehensive of things. Ah, won't get into too much detail about that, though. I'm just glad things didn't flop. |
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on 2007-05-15 20:44:45
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Tori, it's easy to feel bad for people. But to be empathetic, that takes skill. |
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on 2007-05-16 09:55:06 |
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worst night of my life... |
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on 2007-05-16 13:42:42 |
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vaizardking, help us help you. first step: tell us what happened. Rice, have confidence in your actions and you can never fail. |
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on 2007-05-18 18:36:29 (edited 2007-05-18 18:37:33)
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Question: what happens when you: 1) are useless 2) won't succeed in anything in the future 3) are an idiot who can't do anything right 4) any other words/sentenses related to the above Answer: I happened. WARNING: the above words does not make sense, read at your own discretion. 
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Re: The Depression Thread V4
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on 2007-05-18 19:47:45 |
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I've said a lot of things.. and you'll just see it all over again. Words are words, don't let things get you down just because other people say them. In the end, it's the thing YOU do that's most important, right? You need to be more confident and step around things that get in your way. Can't step around them? Do something to overcome it. Does it keep coming back? Keep doing the same thing; it won't keep coming back forever. Nothing is impossible under the heat of the sun. No sun? No problem! It will come back the next day. The more you think less of yourself, the more you won't be able to overcome and accomplish things. I know that, I've been through that, and now I'm in a position where I'm just like.. "...what the hell do I do now?" In other words, do something about it. Even if you tell yourself you can't, even if you think you can't, even if things seemingly get in your way, so long as you have the will to, you'll get through it. Aja? Aja! |
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I was thinking that I can't help people. The reason I'm depressed is because I cause more pain than good. I can't help thinking that I hurt people and be proud of it but actually I'm not! I hate that about myself and I kept trying and trying to change for the better but I can't. I kept thinking of negative thoughts about what might happen to me or someone I'm close to. I was always thinking that I could not make anyone around me smile instead I make them frown and angry and I never ever wanted that to happen. But I kept my thoughts to myself never expressing them to anyone it kept me down for so long. Thinking that I might never ever become happy or for that matter make anyone around me happy. I have a great family but I always thought that I'm causing misfortunes and unhappiness around the house. I never told anyone about these thoughts but now at this moment in time it seems these thoughts overwhelmed me. I don't know what to think anymore.  |