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*Feels slightly regected and slinks off into the corner with a bottle of jack daniels*
Lifes a grave.......Dig it!
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~goes in the corner then pats the drinker~ Hey, you're not rejected! It's just that not many people are on at this time, so yae gotta wait. Either way, why don't yae look into other threads, search for Inuyasha stuff because I'm sure there are lots. (I've only seen some episodes because our local TV station had to temporarily stop airing it.) And please avoid double-posts; modify them as much as possible. It's already 8pm here, and dinner's ready. Bye bye and take care! ~leaves afterwards~ Minna! Ranyuu, ranyuu! "To be forgotten, is worse than death." |
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by overlordsero
on 2006-02-13 06:45:33 (edited 2006-02-13 07:00:16)
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Oblivion, hey dont feel bad!! SMILE ^_^ Sometimes it takes a bit for people to respond. I should know ^_^ Well you have any problems or need help post here ^_^ Oh and read...my.....sig ^_^ It is TRUE hehe ^_^ OH and Nice to meet you! ^_^ OH OH OH and and I am friends with Moonstone ^_^ 
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whoa...sero is EXTRA smiley today...which is good^^ it's 11pm rite now,and i just got back from school.i'm really starving rite now and there's nothing to eat at home and the shops are closed rite now.and i dun have enough money to order pizza for takeout... |
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by night_link
on 2006-02-13 09:22:48
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ok, i dont remember when was the last time i was here. yeah, i been a little busy, i leave tomorrow to go to my dads, its not the best thing but i have to talk to him, basicaly im gonna tell him off, tell him i dont want him in my life anymore, that im tired of his lies and bullshit. know him and me, i really dont know how long its gonna take to get it out, but im gonna try to finish it as soon as possible, although im gonna see on of my old friends when im in north carolina, that is basicaly my only reason for going, everytime im there we go out and catch up on each others life, i havent been there in over a year or two, i dont really remember, we talk every once in a while, but its not really much cuz our schedules are completely oposites. life sucks. i been calling kitsu everynight(dont really know why), but tonight im gonna go see her, i hope. i havent been sleeping well for the last week or so, one or two hourst at the most at night, and last friday i just completely pass out in the living room aroung noon and woke up at eight that night, and i was up since then till last night around 1:30 am and i been up today since 5. my body feel so heavy and im tired but i cant sleep,my mom has told me many time already that if i dont want to go see my dad that is shouldnt, i guess i've been overwhelmed by my depression that i didnt hide it very well, but im not depressed just cuz of my dad, there are other things, a part of my past has come back to haunt me, a girl from my past appeared to me, and reminded me of things, things i had forgoten. im not really gonna see her anymore, but i would like to talk to her about other people we knew, but i cant ask her, cuz i lied to her, saying that i dont remember about that part of my past, i know its wrong but i was i just wasnt ready. im not a very innocent person as most like to think. im just a wothless piece of shit, not even that. 13, i dont know if you made her the cd, or not, but if you want her to get a hint that you like her put this song in there, the song is called "beautiful" and its by H.I.M. also, you remember my problem with kitsu right? well, she is better, unless she lied to, which she does often, but she sounds ok to me, i can normaly tell if something is wrong by her voice. my ex still likes me, and want me to go back to her, even after i told her it was over, even if i wanted to be with her, im not good enough, im not good enough for kitsu either, kitsu deserves so much more than what i could ever offer her, and then there is my past, i dont regret anything i done, i had done terrible things, i have hurt lots of people, but i dont regret doing it, you might think thats mean and evil, and it is, but i dont regret it cuz its made me into who i am today, as fucked up of a person that i am, i still like who i am. its all just confusing,and then i still dont know what im doing, or what im supposed to do, im still looking for the reason of me being her, being alive. right now i just wish i had wings so i could fly away from everything and to never have to dealy with it ever again, but i havent got any wings.  |
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by overlordsero
on 2006-02-13 11:42:42
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ketsuki, "life sucks"-true "basicaly im gonna tell him off, tell him i dont want him in my life anymore, that im tired of his lies and bullshit"-I have a dad like that... He is back AGAIN and wants to do things....says he is TRYING....I dont give a damn, but I do worry about my brother. "im not a very innocent person as most like to think"- ^_^ neither am I "im just a wothless piece of shit, not even that."-NOT TRUE "its all just confusing"-EVERYTHING is confusing " right now i just wish i had wings so i could fly away from everything and to never have to dealy with it ever again, but i havent got any wings."- I know how that is. here is a video hope you like it ^_^
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hey guys...i just got back form the secritary of state to get my actual liscence. the drive at CC started...the first day's total is $76,512.13...the drive is a fund razer to get us days off of school...firdays...no days off yet, but we are about 6000 away form the first one... i was really depressed last night...my parents were yelling alot and i wanted to just go away and die again...but i talked to some friends and they helped me through the night....come to think about it, i shouldve posted...oh well |
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by night_link
on 2006-02-13 14:28:11 (edited 2006-02-13 14:37:57)
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And it's Monday the 13th (if anyone reads Garfield...). Hope any problems anyone will have doesn't make it tomorrow. ketsuki, I got cut off when we were still talking about it. Some power shortage stopped the whole college campus where I was and the power didn't come back on until the place I was had to close. I'm really sorry that. If you think you're a piece of shit, then I'm the same. But there are still people who've done worse. Worse that I can't even begin where to say they've done wrong. She reminded you of things that you've forgotten, this girl who came back. She meant to hurt you with them? When you're talking about Kitsu, you say she deserves better. I can agree what you're saying, but doesn't that mean you can be better for her too? Hell, people do terrible things every day. Should life end because of such mistakes? There's no human life that does not experience pain and suffering. Life is so precious that there shouldn't be regret to ruin it. From Batman Begins: "And why did we fall Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up." Birds can break their wings. But it's not sawed off (God forbid). In time, wings will repair themselves (from Batman Forever I believe, Alfred said that to Robin). Just because man and woman don't have wings, that didn't stop them from trying to fly. I said in my profile that I will fly many places. I will fly like I've always wanted to. To see things many people hope to see. nightmare, hang in there buddy. You're right to have friends talk to you through the night. But all of us still have more days to see. P.S. ketsuki, I'll try to find the song as soon as possible. I'm not sure as to make a CD or sketch a Honey and Clover pic I found. I'll see what I have to go throught first. Hope this reaches you in time. |
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Yo Nightmare, you guys are having your drive now? Cool, we had ours in November, the Walkathon. 10 miles and a debt of 150 dollars in the pouring rain, what fun! If in November this year, you see a cold line of kids walking trudgingly along, that would be us. Hope you feel better, anything I can do to help, just ask! Hmmm...life doesn't suck, it sucks temporarily. Well, have a nice day! |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-02-13 15:54:09
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Ah, Ketsuki, sounds like you're between a rock and a hard place. I'm not entirely as to what you're talking about. I can't read this thread too much anymore, it takes too long to read it and my network has been crashing recently... Soo... I'll see if I can help ^_^ "life sucks" ...Well, it does, but only if you make it out like that. "im just a wothless piece of shit, not even that." What have you done to make yourself worthless? "right now i just wish i had wings so i could fly away from everything and to never have to dealy with it ever again, but i havent got any wings." Uh-huh, and so does everyone at some time. But instead of running, which won't solve much, go on the offensive. Fight for life, because the grass is greener on the un-depressed side of depression XD "im not good enough for kitsu either, kitsu deserves so much more than what i could ever offer her" If you want Kitsu, and what you say right there is true, then do something about it! Gain worth! There are things you can do, but simply being pulled along in life won't do you any good. You must step forward of your own will, and keep on walking ahead without being pushed and pulled by the events of life. Just walk, take charge, and get out and do something! PS: My computer has a knack for killing my internet, so this may have been said earlier. Last I knew, Sero responded right after Ketsuki's post T.T  |
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"Life sucks" That is the first Noble Truth, er well in an easier way to understnad, I can't remember the way it is really explained ^_^ That is the first because it is the msot important. Life can suck, most of the time we are trying to protect us from that "Bad" and ignore the "Good" Maybe try seeing someone who makes you happy?
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Welcome Oblivion. Enjoy your stay. Yes I know your life sucks Ketsuki, sucks more than most. But all of our lives suck. But even though I know my life sucks, that I will never get a girlfriend, be alone my entire life, and kill myself; I can still enjoy the present moment. Ketsuki, I do believe your brain releases excess chemical depression. I don't think you need to look on the bright side of things or gain hope for the future. You need something that can actually affect your brain directly to get less depression chemicals flowing and more happiness chemicals going. You seem to be having trouble sleeping, I would try to fix that first. Also eat correctly if you aren't. But really if you are not already then exercise alot. Exercise will produce alot of endorphines so you will at least feel happy even when you are not. Try other ways to release endorphines, meditate, stretch, etc. Don't take in deppresants like booze, caffiene should help maybe. I am not really an expert on how to release endorphines, I just exercise that is usually enough. I believe this is the undepressed side of depression. Your problem would still be there, just you wouldn't care that much. And you say you aren't good enough for Kitsu. Who the hell is? You love her, that is enough to put you above everyone else. And as 13 says you can always be better. We all have a past, I have a past that maybe worst than yours. Just get over the shit you did in the past and try not to repeat it in the future. I bet it is only you who feel you are a worthless piece of shit. You ex still wants to be with you, so she obviously doesn't think so. Kitsu still talks to you, so she doesn't think so. I don't think so. So sorry to disappoint you but you aren't shit. So go get so good chemicals in your brain and enjoy your stay at you friends house. I don't usually participate in school drives, or school anythings for that matter. But if you get days of school then good luck. With Valentines Day tommarow I am feeling pretty cynical. I just get into the mood of saying well tommarrow is just like any other day. And every other day will be just like tommarow. Because every day nothing will change, I will never get a girlfriend, and I will repeat this cycle until I die. At least I am happy typing this, I came back from karate and endorphines are running so I feel pretty good despite everything.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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"life sucks...and then you die" a priest at my school's favorite motto |
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it's already valentine's day at where i live...and it's pretty chilly over here @jomunga,get a grip.if you kept on being this negative...it's bad for yer health >.< |
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Sero, what did I tell you about hose videos, oh well at least it doesn't start to to load compleatly instantly. That kind of stuff brings my PC to a crawl, any more than 4 tabs/ 1 song+2tabs/ 1 video+1 tab(if I'm lucky) and I have a tendency to bog down and crash. i know there's something eating my memory all 128MB of it. target="blank" use it, love it, embrace it, just don't marry it. Ketsuki, I'm not going to say anything uplifting or inspirational. Life sucks, get over it and move on. If you get hung up at one point someones gonna ram up your ass from behind, don't stop, epecially if your driving a pinto. Welcome all new members. In three days if your lucky and prove yourself worthy you can drop the noobie title and adopt the title of inexpirienced member. After that no one cares, stay active post on threads just not twice(or in some cases 6 times) in a row. You'll get banned, no frills, banned. Sory if my posts are a little blunt but I'm doing this between my homework and swiching to mellow songs. |
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this valentines day is going to be another lonely one for me... that reminds me of something form the simpsons... "But Marge, its Valentines day, God wants us to do it!" ---Homer Simpson |
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by night_link
on 2006-02-13 20:56:00 (edited 2006-02-13 20:56:21)
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Dunno if Valentine's Day is really celebrated in Japan like how it is in anime or mangas. Girls give chocolates to guys and stuff. But that part in Love Hina mighta been going overboard with Valentine's Day... Keitaro's even quite the maker of chocolate. Another day... bring it on. |
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by overlordsero
on 2006-02-13 20:56:19
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DNinja, *looks at YouTube again* O_O OOOOOP...hehehe...^_^; Well they say third times the charm ^_^ Oh and I like using "_blank"....so COOL...hehe Sorry I have been out of it lately...school work, home...payments... not to mention I lost a check in my room...I need to send a copy to the state...by end of month...>_< Ketsuki, I was not able to add more to the "life sucks" part before cuase I was in a hurry. Well here it is: LIFE SUCKS-So what? Do you think that is gana get me down? nope ^_^ I dont know how many times I have been screwed over or life just seemed to not like me at times. However someone somewhere probly has it worse than me and I dont like feeling this way so I do something about it. By 1.Not giving a damn(mostly) 2.Trying to cheer others up(people shouldnt feel bad.....its....bad) 3.life doesnt suck ALL the time...hehe Life can be good too, it is just sometimes it sucks more than it is good. Like right now I need 12 drawings done by tommorrow at 10am, it is 10:46pm right now for me and I dont have a single one done. Nightmare, Lonely day huh? Dont you have offline friends? I dont...hehe...^_^; Hey you could just walk up to some random, lonely looking girl, and say "HI, Happy valentines day." and give her like a flower or something and then walk away or something like a "hit and run' hehehe, make her day ^_^ well that is my thought.....just POOFed into my head....oh and jomunga you should do it too ^_^
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by night_link
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Holy crap Sero, I didn't think there'd be a post right after I edited mine... Anyways, I just remembered. In elementary school, kids would always spend time giving Valentine's cards to other kids. Rule was, everyone gets one. Yeah, even the butt hole on the other side of class... I tried them once. I remember it was Batman and Robin cards or the Pagemaster I think... Anyways, I didn't get used to writing all the names or attaching a candy to it... Oh well. Middle school they "evolved" that idea I think. Send lollipops to other classmates and dances (pure waste of time, they were... utterly ridiculous). Okay okay, so I didn't like anyone else at school to care... They started it by calling me names!! Kids are probably making some right now as I type for their elementary class. Was that really that long ago?? |