|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by
on 2006-02-06 06:02:36 |
|
Nightmare, Ranger would like me to tell you that he once failed a survival class because he had only one knife. That's the reason you carry at least two knives, because you can lose or break one. A new Monday. Let's see what tbis week brings after the stress and strain of the weekend.  |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 08:47:10
|
|
yeah my Monday is a typical Monday.... didnt get up on time and missed my ride.... I need a car >_< "before he starts to breath fire at us" LOLZ at least you said "he" And Mei, PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ PLZ!!!!!!!!! 
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by AnimeAngel27
on 2006-02-06 09:07:12
|
|
Hey everyone, it's been a while, I've been a little busy lately. I just got a part time job b/c my parents kept telling me I need to do something with my sorry life and get my lazy ass out of the house, so I did. I now work at Bob Evan's resturant, Im a hostess, but I don't care all that much for it. It's hard to be so happy and perky all the time, they expect you to always smile and I can't cause I'm not always a happy person and I hate being fake about everything. But it's money which is something I sadly need. Today is no typical monday for me, we got lucky enough to have a snow day from school which is a very rare occurence b/c we havent had a lot of snow almost all winter and then last night we got dumped on. It was kind of nice but at the same time it completely sucks because school was something that kept my thoughts a little further away from depression. Speaking of which I've been feeling really down lately for seemingly no reason. Maybe it's this whole college thing. My counceler keeps telling me I need to take ACT's and SAT's and start looking at colleges and figuring out what I want to do with my life but I really don't know. It's not like I have a passion for anything, besides anime of course, and I'm not a very good artist so I couldn't become an animator or anything like that. I'm also not a computer genious, I mean I can work on them and do a little bit with them so I can't go into computer animation either. So I don't know what I'm going to do, and there are so many colleges to chose from and what not... I'm not even sure I want to go to college, I'm not sure if I'm ready... so yea, I'm starting to ramble again, gonna stop that before it get's to far. Rin and Ranger were fighting? Wow I misssed a lot, but I see things are settled? I hope so! Rin and Ranger are a big symbol of hope for me, as selfish as that sounds, and I think if they ever fell out of love or ever couldn't resolve a fight I think I'd cry and all hope for any sort of love in my life would be lost... okay now I'm being completely and utterly selfish... Im such a bad person. Alright I hope Rin and Ranger continue to love each other for themselves and b/c they need one another in their lives, not for anything but that... not so selfish now, I hope... Ketsuki you would be leaving a lot of important things behind if you decided to take your own life... you'd be leaving all sorts of ppl here on gendou who care for you. You may think you don't have much but you have more then that, you have a loving family here on gendou and we don't want to see you go if at all possible. But if your in pain we dont want to see you in pain either... just feel better soon! Well I think that last thing I almost forgot to share was the status on my failing the 11th grade. I now have a tutor whose helping me catch up on everything and trying to help me go for the grades I need to pass but things are starting to look grim and I'm starting to get sick again. I got hit in my temple really hard the other day in gym (and I've had several concussions prior) only thing I remember after that was voices saying things like oh shit, and is she dead. Then I woke up in what must be my reserved hospital bed or something. Almost all the doctors in the ER know me by name now which is kind of sad... so I missed so more school last week which is something I couldn't afford to do. But my tutor is coming over today to catch up with me... he's really nice but kind of creeps me out, I just don't feel comfortable being alone with him. Although he says he is gay he still irks me. Well that is all I have for now I think. Im gonig to try and get on more often, I miss coming here like every day, and I'm missing a lot of what's going on in everyone's lives. So I'm hoping things will slow down some time soon so I can start coming more often again. Ta ta for now!
"Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have any film..." "Friends are the people who know everything about you and still put up with you!" "Nothing in life is free, even death costs us."
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 09:14:29 (edited 2006-02-06 09:14:44)
|
|
You might not see this...but.... AnimeAngel, now you know how hard it is to smile. That is how I am sometimes, I dont want to but I have to. I just HAVE to. For everyone else, I have to.
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-02-06 09:21:26 (edited 2006-02-06 11:50:33)
|
|
AnimeAngel! Thou ist backeth! Kind of ironic that someone made a comment about you being gone quite recently... And I was thinking... So many look at Ranger and Rin for hope that if they got divorced or something, not only would it be unhappy for them but everyone that rests on them. So, just kind of my way of saying not to give up, Rin and Ranger~ And Angel, maybe there's some sort of hidden reason for all of this hospital stuff. Maybe you'll meet your boyfriend that you'll marry there, and you both will be continually hurting yourself on accident so much you'll be able to visit each other all the time ^_^  |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by AnimeAngel27
on 2006-02-06 09:22:58 (edited 2006-02-06 09:25:47)
|
|
Sero- I've always known how hard it is to smile. Its a part of my life really putting up this mask, this facade just so people won't bother with you, pretending that everything is okay when really nothing is alright anymore... It's just harder now that I can't just go home and be me anymore I've got one more place I have to put on my mask and become a great actress or something like that... I'm just sorry Sero that you have to do the same. I wish you didn't have to hide Sero, I wish the world were kinder to good people like you. Sachiel- I could only hope that one day I'll meet prince charming in the ER... that would be all but too ironic... Although stranger things have happened, so it's not completely impossible...lol *starts humming the song some day my prince will come* I will await the day that happens!
"Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have any film..." "Friends are the people who know everything about you and still put up with you!" "Nothing in life is free, even death costs us."
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 09:34:53
|
|
AnimeAngel, I keep a "fake" smile so that others dont need to worry about me. and So that others can be happy also. I just cant seem to show my true feelings anywhere..... ...to almost anyone..... anyways....good luck with school stuff and other things!! ^_^-real smile oh and a question.... Do you agree? "Sero as always comes up with the simple answer every one can enjoy."-Jomunga
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by AnimeAngel27
on 2006-02-06 10:14:20
|
|
Hmm Sero I'd say I would agree to an extent you do always come up with good answers and most of the time everyone can agree. But there not always simple. A lot of them seem to take time and thought. But you are definately very helpful. I hope you don't take that quote or anything i said offensively b/c it was all a compliment, you are truly a big help!
"Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have any film..." "Friends are the people who know everything about you and still put up with you!" "Nothing in life is free, even death costs us."
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 10:21:26
|
|
AnimeAngel Are you saying that my answers take time and thought? Or understanding them? cause if it is the first one...hehehe...not really ^_^; I just post what I think and it doesnt take that much time....I THINK...lol " quote or anything i said offensively " uh....what quote? something was offensive? Oh and that would be kinda cool if you met the guy of your dreams in the hospital huh? ^_^ People keep me comming back to gendou....cause I hardly download anymore, if at all....I cant remember my last download....
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by AnimeAngel27
on 2006-02-06 11:15:10
|
|
Well the quote i was talking about was what jomunga said, and I didn't know if you'd take what i said offensive, I didn't want to offend you, and I meant what you said takes time, although sometimes it takes time to understand somethings too..lol and it would be very ironic if i were to meet my prince in the hospital that it would!
"Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have any film..." "Friends are the people who know everything about you and still put up with you!" "Nothing in life is free, even death costs us."
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
|
|
Immediately smashes hand with hammer. Woops, time to go to the hospital. Nah I am pretty sure my hospital is far away from yours. But you know what I will do for you? I will go around beating up anybody who fits the profile of a prince and send them to your hospital. That should help you find your prince faster. Just once you get your prince please tell him to drop all charges agaist me. You got a day of school canceled. They never canceled school for us, not even when we were swimming to classes in flooding rain. If you don't know what your want for a college, just choose a college that has a lot of different class selction so you can go at your own pace. Me? I am starting spring quarter today. I have karate, music apprecitation, and ceramics. Such a lazy student schedule. What kind of idiot can miss throwing a ball so badly. It may have been a mistake but I would stick smack him up. If only the ball that hit you in the head somehow magically cured your sickness then I would forgive him. I wouldn't worry about Rin and Ranger breaking up ever. I would bet everything on it. I am also very distrustful of this tutor. Make sure he knows his life is on the line if he tries anything. He better stay gay if he knows whats good for him. And fake smiling is hard, I can't just fake a smile. Masks however are the coolest. I managed to dupe a phychiatrist with mine. He said he was 100% sure I had severe depression LOL. Sero, how many people have you asked that now? I remember you asking everybody on msn. Oh, I also have MSN messenger if anybody wants to talk online. I even have a mic.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 12:05:29
|
|
Jomunga, heheheheh...only like....7 or so people.... I just cant comprehend it....thats all... I just dont see my self like that....so it is kinda hard to accept it...lolz AnimeAngel, well it is kinda hard to offend me so dont worry ^_^
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by desertranger
on 2006-02-06 12:39:45 (edited 2006-02-06 12:46:02)
|
|
Angel you don'thave to go to college you know. Not everyone is cut out to have a degree. A couple of suggestions. Go to work at Denny's if you have them. my daughter works there and in an area with a lot of touristy restaraunts she gets the best tips there. Think about a trade school, or even the air force ro navy. Both of those will not only provide you with training and they'll pay for yur education if you want. All you gotta do is work hard, pass your skill levels a couple of times a year and stay away from drugs and alcohol. Rin's not here and I'm just kickin it sorta. I've done my outside chores and I'm now looking for sumthin else to do. I found a nice opiece of fish in the reefer and maybe I'll make that and some of those red potatos and a veggie. She likes when I cook and iot helps her when she works. GThe only thing happening right now is tomorrow nght class and that's the last one in the current series. No more for at least a month and sign-uop are always slow until spring. Finished writing my latest book on off roading in the desert. Now to get it into print and sell it. If I could just do that it might work, then all I have to do is play in the desert. A friend said I should try the lecture circuit. That might work. OK nuff said for now.  |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
|
|
well ranger, i did have a second knife on me. my usual boy scout knife and it is a good thing i had it too. i think your advice is always excelent! i woke up with such a huge headach today...i could barly see and i wanted to throw up...so mom told me to stay in bed for a bit and i whent to school late...but im fine now. Angle, i hopw you get your grades up and feel better very soon! smiling is hard... hey guys, i have a question(ROQ in particular, sience you live closest)...you all know that i have no faith in me having a girlfriend even though it is the one thing that i really want right now...but you all say it is going to happen eventually, i just have to wait. well, what do you think the chances are of me meeting a girl that likes the stuff that i like...like video games, and romance, and is kinda sadistic and fun and caring and nice and strong willed but still cries to me when she is sad but still dark and mysterious and gothic? like seriously, what are the chances that i will ever find someone like that? |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by overlordsero
on 2006-02-06 13:32:59
|
|
better than you think Nightmare.
|
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-02-06 13:44:53
|
|
The chances of you getting the girl of your dreams that's just like you is not hopeful at all. However, jsut some girl, regardless of her type, developing a thing for you is extremely high. Just wait it out, and don't expect much. And don't say "But my life will be worthless without the girl of my dreams..." or something like that, because if you expect everything you'll get nothing. Expect little, and you'll get what you want. |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by
on 2006-02-06 14:50:38 |
|
Hey Nightmare-san, there's as good a chance of finding any girl who loves you as there is a girl who shares your interests or persona. Lots of girls like videogames and anime and the goth lifestyle as well. If no two people are the same, then you will never find someone exactly like you, but that's what love really is...a compromise between differences and a union of common intersts. Consider this, if you meet someone exactly like yourself, you'll get annoyed after a while, trust me...imagine spending the rest of your life with yourself in female form. There's no interest because you already know what each is prone to do. It's far more interesting to find someone who is similar to you, but never EXACTLY the same...In this case, trust me you have a VERY good chance of finding someone. There's no rush though, the sooner you become attached, there's no telling how long...A girlfriend is a great person to have in your life, but also a huge responsibility, as well as a drain on your time and wallet...however, as a friend, a person who cares for you, a girlfriend is invaluable. There is a girl to match every type of person, if there wasn't then there would be far more single people and far less happiness. Don't sweat it my friend, just wait and be patient, it'll happen when you least expect it. Just keep an open mind around girls and don't judge them prematurely(some girls act different around other people). A woman's heart is a tough thing to win, but also very wonderful to have... Hope this helps...^_^ Sorry about your knife... I wish everyone the best! |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
|
|
heh well put, my friends...but im not really looking for the "girl of my dreams" im just looking for a girl who is a little darker in mindset, but is still loving and isn't sex crazy. But their arent many goths around here...and if their are, i cant meet them because im stuck here...the LAST think i want is a girl EXACLTLY like me...as you said, that would just suck....but ill take your word for it...i just hope you are right about it...ill just keep waiting sachiel, i never said that....and i dont really expect anything at all... "a thing for me?" btw, my drivers test is Saturday at 11:45am at Ladywood |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-02-06 15:15:06 (edited 2006-02-06 17:44:22)
|
|
I didn't mean to say that that's exactly what you were gonna say and I knew it beforehand; I simply meant that as a maxim of life. Use it as future reference ^_^ Although, I think your personality might be a little too... secluded. If you try being more outgoing, you just might have a higher chance of getting a girlfriend ^_^ *cool fact of light and darkness for the day* Crimes, deaths (suicide and old people mainly), and drug use occur more often in places where it's less sunny or during times when there's perpetual foul weather. |
|
Re: The Depression Thread Continued
Link |
by
on 2006-02-06 18:24:15 |
|
Angel, wow good timing as sachiel said I used you as an example of people who haddn't been on in a while and lokk at tahat within 12 hours you posted. Hmm, power of suggestion, oh well, little odd that. From a pseudo-pychologists perspective your fear of your tutor is based on a deep rooted fear and distrust for male teachers, regarless of sexual preferance. It's pretty obvious the reason why, didn't really have to think much there did I. You should consider working at a Denney's ther one of the top jobs for people under 21, or a wegman's if you have them. I get survivor benifits so I can't work till I'm 18 or lose the benifits, they're about 3.15 an hour if I were to work rgularly so it's less than minimum wage. If were to work though I would work in those places. Ranger's right you don't need to go to college. have you thought about writting any type a literary works. It may not pay alot but it might get you buy until you find your calling, I'm saying this based off your posts they are long and well-written. Almost as good as some of ranger's posts. Sero, YOU FAKE SMILE! I didn't think that was possible for you. Then again, everyone does it, just some do it better than others. Like me I'm no good even at normal smiling, just under special conditions. I belive it's due to the fact that for the longest time I had no reason to, literaly I went without smiling in public for over a year. Oh well in the past now, I have lots to smile about now. Some of which invole a very special discovery that I'm not sure about yet, but I'll inform you guys later. Jomunga, maasks are not always that good, usually the eyes give a person away. i'd like to see onew of these "masks" you're so adept at, I bet I could get your true emotion 74.2534% of the time. Helps being able to accurately read emotions, especially when you people don't talk to you. It also helps with the reading of lips. Ranger, if no, when you get your book published I'll cheak B&N for it. Could be ineresting, more interesting than field manuals 21-76 or more commonly known to the public as the military's survival book. That book is extreamly boring, factual, bit boring. I've had more fun sorting laundry than reading that book. Nightmare, if I can find love then you have no excuse. It's all a matter of time and perservierance.Then again so is just about everything, funny how that works isn't it. Ever hear the expression a watched pot never boils, well the moment you stop looking for something you find it, like sitting on a remote after giving up looking for it. Good luck at your driver's test, try not to kill anyone. just kidding Sachiel, the more road construction there is the more babies have diaper rash. Also the more road construction the more ice cream is sold. So you can say that every time ice cream is sold a baby gets diaper rash. What you said is like what I said above riddiculous but true. Just so you know; there is more road constuction in summer, more ice cream is sold in(guess what)summer, and babies get more diaper rash in(you know it's comming)summer. To think businesses make decissions based off things like that. It's also like saying the less people go swimming the more people fall on ice, true but riddiculous. |