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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-30 20:15:26
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Ketsuki, you should bring along Kitsu-chan to the movies, too. If you and your other girl went alone, that might make Kitsu-chan jealous :P And also, it'll give you a chance to maybe clear something up with her, too. Nightmare... I want to help you so bad, but I can't do anything. I feel like Ketsuki over here, all helpless. If there's anything at all I can possibly do, just let me know. I want to make your life better, for you and your parents. Heheh, Lady Rin can unlock her doors now ^_^ I'll bet she loves it when Ranger's around, even when totally ignoring her. ...Still can't find a gooood signature... I like this one, though  |
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i will let you know if there is anything you can do. and to everyone, have a great all hallows eve! personally, i think that this sacred day has been too comertialised. we should all go back to the old Celtic traditions!  |
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S-a-c-h-i-e-l Ranger has never ignored me. I find that even when I cross a room he looks up and watches me. Ketsuki Waht is amber you were vcomforting. You shouldn't feel useless, you were there to listen and that in it;self is very importantm sometimes it's the most important thing you can do for someone, just neing there. Next time you might try holding and hugging her, nothing else. You would be surprized at how often that helps. I don't know why I'm so insecure when Rangers not here. It's silly for a grown woman to be frightened like this and there is no real reason for it. I was very glad to have him next to me last night. I dressed up in my Tinkerbell lingere set for him. Halloween, yes that's today. We don't have trick or treat because himes are too far apart so we have community party. Tonight from 4-9. I'n going to wear a seifuku all day today and tonight. Tonight I am going to be a gothic lolita princess. I have this dress and I'll wear white and baby bue thigh highs, ribbons and black clunky boots. the only thing is I'm not sure how to wear my hair. Probably down with ribbons. I want to look very cute and sexy tonight because Laura's going to be there and she usually manages to ruin everything. Ta  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-31 07:45:13
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Dangit Lady Rin, you and Ranger have got something awesome there. *sniffs* Although your last post was a little confusing ^_^; Umm, what ARE the celtic tradtions? |
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by night_link
on 2005-10-31 11:03:21
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| ketsuki, I hope it was a good horror or comedy movie and that you enjoyed your time. |
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by kazuki_kawaii
on 2005-10-31 18:07:26
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Wow... you guys must've been really sad with all those things that happened to you. But, all the pains you've endured will pay off when you've realized how much stronger and tougher they've made you. ^_^  |
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Rin: i would absolutly love to see you in that costume (impossible, but it would be cool) i love the way gothic girls dress (not the low cut stuff, the REAL ones..you know, long frilly dresses.) but i do not think it is silly at all that you are insecure when Ranger is not around...you love him deeply, you care about him, being a military man, he can protect you from harm and you feel uncomfortible not having that protection around...it does not sound silly to me. You need and support each other, and that is what true love is all about! as i said a while ago, it gives me a little bit of hope, hearing about you two...not much, just a little. sachiel: the Old Celtic traditions involved complex rituals...the celtics believe that on oct 31st, the faries would come out and play tricks on people... (so you must alwayse leave places for them to dance, right Rin?) as they evolved, they developed complex ritualls to communicate with the dead and stuff like that... there is ALOT more to it, but i have to go to bed, i am sure you can find it on the internet! kisuki: i agree with rin, sometimes the only thing you can do is listen to them and let them know that you are there for them...kinda like all of you are to me! and a good, kind, loving hug can do wonders. today, Grandmother came over!!!! so i got a hug! it was short, but it felt soo good...i wish i didn't have to wait so long between them...oh well kazuki kawaii: yes the do make us a little stronger...but sometimes we can only take so much... |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-31 21:34:41
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If Rin has a digital camera, then it's entirely possible. I'm just not sure I wanna see the underwear O_o Yes, listening can do wonders. If someone talks to you, they'll have a stronger relationship with you, and they'll talk more, and you can listen more. And when you need to, you'll talk and your friend will listen as well. If something's hard, and it doesn't kill us, it'll make us stronger. And now I know you guys are thinking "What if we've fallen down so far we can't get out?" My answer is, your curiosity and boredom will get you out of your hole. Eventually, we'll climb out little by little, and when we're free, we'll be stronger then when we went in. Even better, we'll be able to share our ways of climbing out with others that are in the pit. So, I say, be glad that you're depressed. When you've fought it out, you'll be stronger then you'd ever think. |
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i wholheartedly agree. oh my GOD i feel so stupid! last night, 4 girls (about 16years old) came over trick or treating. i said "gee, you girls are lucky, you get to go trick or treating and i am stuck here giving out candy." there was a short pause...and then... "do you want to come with us?" the worst part is...i said no. ten minutes later, i finally realised what they asked and i cried, right in fromt of my grandma. she understood why i was crying too, i love her! |
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by desertranger
on 2005-11-01 08:07:48 (edited 2005-11-01 08:12:12)
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I'm sorry to hear that Nightmare. That's a good analogy S-a-c-h-i-e-l. I have never let Rin put her photo on the net. Only drawings and portraits. Call it paranoia only I've seen what someone with photoshop and do, I have a great picture of Rin I created with paintshop it's not hard and nobody could ever tell it isn't Rin except for the 'D' size boobs. there was also an incident with some local high school girls whose nude pictures turned upon the internet. As open as Milady is at Gendou she is still a very private person. On the other hand I'd hate to disappoint you so I can show you the dress from the catalog, It was a birthday present I got it for her special order from J-list.com, Karin the doll she carried and a pencil portrait of Lady Rin. The original of that hangs above my office desk.    Â Â |
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by night_link
on 2005-11-01 08:35:24
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Ahh the feeling of regret. What where they dressed as nightmare? As for me I only got one trick o treater and the kid was to lazy to even wear a costume. So much worthless left over candy. I even cut my arm and painted my face with blood to greet the trick or treaters with. But I was to lazy to decorate my house so I guess this is what happens. Last year was bad too. I think all the kids in my neighborhood go else where to trick or treat since everyone in my neighborhood is a stingy bastard. Ranger. The portrait on the far right looks almost exactly like Hoshina Tomoko from To Heart.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-01 11:28:05
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Hey, there's no such thing as worthless candy as long as it's still in the wrapper. Lessons of the optimist, #1: It's not "I have so much useless candy",it's "Holy cow! Look at how much candy I have!" Kinda like how I bought some candy with my mom's money because I didn't want to go to this little kid's church thing that she was going to with my two little sisters. But I realized that almost all of my candy is fruity stuff and I'm almost out of chocolate already. But then I thought"I have tons of skittles and like everyone likes those! I can trade with my friends, and I can get chocolate and they can get skittles!" I'm running out of room in my trash tin that I have in my little banshee... I don't want to empty it... Nightmare, I thought of a plan while I was sweeping the kitchen a few minutes ago. Start cleaning up the kitchen after dinner, do laundry that your mom would have to do, ask your mom if there's anything you can do for her, etc. Build up trust in your parents by telling them that you love them, and doing things for them as further proof. Eventually, they'll see that you aren't the worthless blob they thought you were, but actually a trustworthy son. It's not the greatest plan, but I'm trying to help in whatever way I can. I'll let you know if there's anything else that I think of. Also Nightmare... Why'd you say no? Was it just a reflex, or did you think and then say no? I really want to know the details.... It seems strange that you'd say no... |
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no, it was a compleat reflex...a very stupid reflex that cost me a really cool time!!! no, i did not know them... Ranger, thanks a bunch! i really do not like white very much...but cool nuntheless! is that the real Rin? because isnt that a japanises school uniform? oh well... |
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Togther we Ranger and Rin Ranger she only looks like her becasue she wears glasses and has her hair in a braid. th euniform is called a seifuku or fuku and Rin has a bunch of em in different styles. I'm pretty sure she's posted pics of 'em before. the portrait is in this fuku.  Â Â she has a couple of friends hwo have the same fuku and they dress up and go out together. I wasn't really going to post tonight Someone said some very mean and cruel thing tome today and that left me depressed because what they said is true an dI can't do anything about it. He told took great trouble to point out the differences in our ages then said I could at least look forward to spending half my life alone and congratulated me on my good decision to marry someone almost twice my age. I know people can be cruel only there was o reson or call for him to say that, to remind me of something I am already to aware of. I have to stay up for at least another 2 hours or I won't sleep tonight. Ranger I'm here and not leaving her tonight. I'm trying to keep her busy. |
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where to beging? im feel all shitty. lets see, kitsu-chan said she couldnt go cuz she had to stay home, and today she told me that she when out, and she is always talking about her "long lost brother" (thats what she used to say i was) which is some guy she met on myotaku.com, its sad that im acctually happy that things havent gone anywhere with her. rin and ranger's love is a rare case cuz most people who fall in love have always ended up being hurt by the one they love or at least thats what i have always seen. me and amber went alone to the movies, we went to see the legend of zorro which wasnt as that good, and while there during every romantic scene she cried, i kept looking over at her and i could see the tears rolling down her cheeks. she was hopping that the break up and the cheating was nothing but some sick cruel joke, which i knew it wasnt but i didnt want to burst her bubble, and every other thing she said had to do with him, after the movies we went to hang with one of her friends, and there we all talked and stuff until by the time we were about to leave she found out it wasnt a joke, that he had cheated on her two nights ago and that the night before he was serious about the break up. it broke my heart to see her cry. so i just grabbed her and hugged her for a bit. and she cried on the car on the way to drop me off, so i hugged her there too, the whole way home. and told her that i would be there for her if she ever need anything. that no matter what time she could call me. and they dropped me off. i was sad and pissed, i whent inside but only took two steps in the house and walked back out cuz i knew i was gonna cry, i just felt like a horrible person cuz i couldnt do anything to make her feel better. and today i was talking to her and she was crying, i was so affraid she might do something. she said she was dying, that she would do anything to have him back. and all this other stuff that only made me cry. i felt sad for her, and i couldnt do anything, i made her swear that if anything were to happen to her that someone would at her house would know. i almost walked to her house i dont know why i though i could help by phisycaly being there, but that was stupid it wouldnt have made a difference. she is in so much pain. and being the emotional person i am i felt her pain. she is suffering so much cuz of an asshole. she asked me to pray for her, like that would help cuz if there is a god, which i believe there is not and if there is he isnt the god of love that my family says he is cuz if he did love he wouldnt let innocent people suffer so much, and since i havent prayed in years cuz i dont believe in anything anymore i asked kitsu-chan to do it. all of this has made me realize a few things things. 1) to love is to die in the cruelest, most painful and slowest way there could possibly be. 2) that im a worthless, useless piece of shit that cant help his friend when they need it, 3) that no matter what i do or say me and kitsu-chan will eventually will go our different ways in opposite directions (she is becoming more involved in church while i lost all faith). i cant keep on typing cuz im about to cry and i dont want to cry, not at my house while everyone is here. |
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by night_link
on 2005-11-01 22:05:08
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ketsuki, don't you see? You already helped her when she needed it. You were there when, from what I read, no one else could make it either. What you did may not have seemed enough or hardly anything to you, but not to her. I'm sorry to hear about what happened though at the movies though. I'm not old enough to understand the world. But there are somethings I understand like life is what you make of it. Love can hurt yes, but what hurts worst is NOT being loved. I believe that goes back to philosophy that love is the best thing. In the end, love always wins. The hell with that asshole and people like him, but Amber has you and kitsu-chan and her family for her. You are NEVER a person who cannot help a friend when he or she needs it ketsuki or anyone on this thread. Every time I read what's bothering you or anyone else on this thread, I always feel that all of you guys care to help others when they need help more than helping yourselves. Isn't understanding and being there instead of just sympathizing already helping some? Don't give up being there for Amber for what hardships she goes through. kitsu-chan will decide for herself how she will continue to live life and you will too for yourself. I don't want to sound mean saying that but we're just humans here. There's somethings that we can handle and some not. You two still won't forget each other but don't let memories hurt you. Hope I helped. Tears are okay, but don't let them get in the way of what you want to get done. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-01 22:12:02 (edited 2005-11-01 22:13:49)
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No, Ketsuki! You're all wrong! Imagine what it would've been like for Amber to go through all of that stuff alone. And Kitsu, screw her. If she's gonna hurt you, then don't bother with her. Would you buy a game if you knew it was gonna be stupid? No! You'd buy a game that you'd know you would like! Think of Kitsu, then think of that stupid game that you were gonna buy. Now picture some other girl that you like, and her holding the cool game. Has 2 and 2 put together yet? If you know Kitsu is gonna go on without you, then let her! Don't leave a needle in your skin, take it out! Now, you could do to things in cases like this one. 1: Work out your differences. This works in marriages usually. 2: Forget about the person you like. Yes, it's cruel, but it must be done if you two aren't married, and your differences are too great. And look at Lady Rin and Ranger. They are a happy couple. And my parents, and the parents of my neighbors, and the parents of my neighbors across the street. ...Now that I think about it, you and Amber could end up being together. You've both been hurt by ones you love, and you two seem to get along well. I say go for it! Well, not yet, she'll probably be on the rebound. But soon! And Lady Rin, don't feel bad about it. Ranger will always be alive in your memory. Never forget him. He'll be the one you'll live with and die with. YOU TWO STAY WITH EACH OTHER!! And Nightmare, don't think that you missed out on a cool time. Think of the happiness of those few kids you gave candy to! It may not be much, but it still matters! |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Oh, Kai replied while I was typing... He beat me to it X_X |
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Here is my unhelpful advice that probaly wont apply to you, go beat up the asshole who cheated on your friend. It is really all his fault. I hate people like him, why does he try getting a girlfriend if he has no intention of being a boyfriend. Make him pay in some way. Right now my body is shaking out of desire to kick this guys ass. If not for yourself, or for Amber, at least get revenge for me. As for Lady Rin its better to marry someone you love thats twice your age, than to marry someone who you dont and is your age. Id take half my life alone rather than all my life with a shallow relationship that would probaly end in divorce and end up alone anyways. Jomunga eats your avatars. |