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I seem to be pretty depress lately. One of my closet friend is ignoring me and basically she is the only person I can talk without any hesitations. It beats me when I can't talk with her. Well things seem to be working fine when i was back in my homeland but since i went abroad things changed allot. We seldom talk as much as we did and suddely things became weird. She said that I've been acting weird lately and I'm not telling her what going on. Well actually i didn't want to tell her mostly she been pretty stress lately and she have enough on her plate to worry then me giving her more worries. Making things worse i have exams coming in the next week and i can't seem to concentrate. Argh life's a real B***h. Sometimes i also agree with Mako as we are binded with loneliness but i don't think its our destiny cause we make our destiny in life |
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by overlordsero
on 2006-01-24 10:19:05
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Yes I agree, Lonliness seems to be destiny more than choice for me. I couldnt seem to keep in touch with friends. I do have one REALLY good friend, but he is at boot camp right now....so I am alone again. However I think we can choose our own destinys and I have made alot of friends on here. Mako, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! havnt seen you on MSN for a bit.....I have college classes again....so I cant get on like I used to....and guess what!? I CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ feimau, Tell your friend how you feel, how you dont want to stress her out. And if you ever need anything....email me I will try to help. You dont have to tell me everything...or anything....I am just here to help....like my sig says ^_^ 
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happy birthday, mako! speeking of which Alyssa's bitthday is comming up very soon.....  |
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Thanks all of you. I get what you're saying but it's just that every year I feel worse. (This is actually the first year that I recieve happy birthdays) What bothers me the most is that I know that my classmates make a big fuss about birtdays and to be honest I really expected at least one person to remeber. I figured if one knew, then he/she would pass on the word and I wouldn't feel as crappy as I do know. And think about this: how much do your parents dislike you when they don't even remember you. I went my parents house only to find out they left...a week ago. See, to make the story short, my life sucks. 
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by Nanaya Enix
on 2006-01-24 13:51:39
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Gendou just gives me the chills, though. But I'll try to ease up and be honored. *shiver*  Laharl, the Overlord of all. I rule Netherworld Restaurant as well.
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Well, happy birthday Mako-san. On my brother's 16 birthday he got to go to a "who's Line is it Anyway" show, and on my 13 birthday which was my golden birthday, I didn't get anything special, it was a let down kinda, I wasn't even aloowed to have a party, but I got my parents to let me. I feel bad now that I expected soemthing. So Happy Birthday, I am an Aquarius as well ^_^
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by overlordsero
on 2006-01-24 16:47:38
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Mako, really? that is too bad....but look at it this way.... THEY ARE THE ONES MISSING OUT NOT YOU. Think that is all I have to say....yup...believe so...
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on 2006-01-24 17:21:45 (edited 2006-01-24 17:26:14)
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Mako, Your life doesn't suck, you're still alive arn't you. Don't fret over people not remembering your birthday, I forgot about mine last year. They just sort of creep up on you and the day after you realize that you missed it. Oh yea Alles gut zum Geburtstag! That's German if you want to look it up. Feimau, If your friend asks you about, you, it may be prudent to tell them. Generaly if someone asks they want to know, or if you feel uncomfortable don't deluge all of your story. Just tell a summary of your life since you last met, no one says that you have to say every little detail. Just say what your comfortable with, start small end as needed. Espi, Gendou is cool. He the master of, well anything we can do here. If I met him in a dark ally, I might be affriad. For the sheer fact that he can be very "protective" of things that belong to him. Just don't poke him with sticks and you should be fine. Or threaten him, this site, or anything he likes and you might stay on his good side. Observe the golden rule, "who ever has the gold makes the rule," or "do to others as you would have them do to you." forgot the joke! (doh) There's a Motorway and a Dual Carriageway in a really rough pub enjoying a burly pint of cloudy scrumpy to demonstrate just how HARD they are. The Dual Carriageway is impressing these pretty little A-roads with his central reservation and the Motorway is showing off about his hard shoulder and they're getting on really well. They are just about to take the A-Roads "back to their place" when a pink piece of tarmac walks in through the door. The Motorway and the Dual Carriageway turn white with fear and they dive for cover beneath the table. Well, the A-Roads are not impressed at all as you may imagine. The pink tarmac downs a triple vodka and walks out of the bar. The Motorway and Dual Carriageway get out from under the table realising that they've blown it with the A-Roads. The first A-road asks the Motorway "Why did you go white and dive for cover when that pink piece of tarmac walked in -- you're supposed to be the king of the roads?". The Motorway replies, "WHY? That guy's a Cycle Path!!" |
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If you are American a dual carriageway is a divided highway and an 'A' road is a main surface street. If you are British you already know.  |
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The book store was Barns and Noble, I'll try Borders next time. The donkey I was talking about was the one from DirtyNinja's picture. Inuyasha's ending is as bad as any of the endings for any other episode of the series, because it ends it just like any other episode. Basically, they ended nothing. I played Halo and didn't get hooked, I don't know if I should be proud or not. The games that hook me all have swords in them. Ok Mako I know the feeling, everyone at the age of 18 usually doesn't get a birthday anything. So they wouldn't think it unusual for anybody else to be the same. As you get older birthdays become just memories of childhood, because that is the only time you ever seriously celebrated them. But since I love birthday parties here is my present. Its a cell phone! Use it to call me. If you don't get any reception use my email, I can talk to help reduce lonliness. If anybody else has a birthday, just say so to get a free gif! (pun of gift, get it gif/gift, I make myself laugh at least.)   Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2006-01-24 20:15:26
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*plays happy music, because for some strange reason I'm happy ^_^* Ike ike!! Hee hee, so clever Jomunga. I usually shop online for stuff, like froogle.com, amazon.com, and ebay.com. Unless it's food, of course ^_^ I don't think I've ever been close to the front door of a Barns and Noble before... And don't forget Jomunga, Halo 2 has Sci-Fi swords ^_^ Feimau, you can always talk to us here. It's not like we're gonna spread your secrets to your closest friends and such. Unless they come here... ^_^; I had a birthday recently, wasn't all that special at all. I don't like being the center of attention that much, but for some reason I want to be it >_< Birthdays aren't too special, I don't think... Sure, it's nice to say "Happy birthday!" and give you a small present, but if you want that more than anything than it seems kinda selfish...  |
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Thank you everyone for your advice. Well I did told her partial of it but she seem to be acting weird to me instead. I wanted to call her and talk about it but now I'm sort of afraid of making things worse. Maybe its my fault to begin with as time drift by things changes and sometime things goes for the better good and some vice versa. Maybe I'll take things slow for now. Need to get myself up and ready for my exams :S sometimes i wonder if I didnt leave my homeland things might turn out to be better. But I will never know that. Happy Birthday Mako!!! I'm an Aquarius as well we seem to be in the same down fall i guess. Hopefully things might get better for you |
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@ To Sachiel: Ohhh i see now why u dont want me to finish Inuyasha.....heh Well i might go `n kill my self any minute now......i failed programing and tomorrow i hv math`s....*sign* Today is just not my day. *Thinking to either wait for good days to come or go and die right now....lol* I think I`ll stick around for a while, afterall i wanna see us(Gendounains) take over the world first.....hurry up Gendou :D 
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by overlordsero
on 2006-01-25 11:15:35
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(3rd time writing this >_<) Moonstone, question: so you failed programming.....can you retake it? is it the end of the world? feimau, well I hope all goes well ^_^ and post here if you need any help, we at gendou will give our advice/thoughts and try to help. I think that is all I have....for now...yup
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mako's post remindes me of an old question i had when i was still suicidal... if i died, right here, right now would anyone really care? in 10 yearts, would anyone still care? in 100 years, would anyone STILL care? the answers, of corse is yes, no, no....that second and third answer alwayse bugged me..... ninja...being alive is not nessesarally a good thing....trust me, given the choise, id rather die than live. but then again, thats just me. my birthday was nice. (see the "Happy Birthday Nightmare" thread....thanks sachiel!) all of you guys made it bearable...thanknyou all/.../.,/././ |
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by Nanaya Enix
on 2006-01-25 13:14:38
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To DirtyNinja: You're not getting what I mean! I just have this scary feeling every time Gendou shows up. I know I didn't break the rules or "poke him", but I just get this feeling and can't shake it off every time he's there. Laharl, the Overlord of all. I rule Netherworld Restaurant as well.
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Emily just messeged me....Lucidia died this morning after a failed kidney transplant. as a last wish, she married Alex in the hospital...just incase she did not make it....and she....she...died this morning....i cant even talk im so shocked and saddened... Alex said she even said goodbye to me right before she died.... |
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Wow, I'm very sorry Nightmare...how depressing... You have my most heartfelt condolences...it's very touching that she would want to get married before dying...I feel sorry for Alex as well, having been married for such a short time before becoming a widower...such a sorrowful time for all of you, please know that everyone is here for you no matter what. As you yourself said, "being alive is not nessesarally a good thing"...At least be somewhat mollified that she is out of her pain and free, instead of being trapped in a hospital...I mean, how do we know that what awaits us in death is worse than what we endured in life? I'll pray for her soul, that's all that's left to do. |
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thanks dude....if you could...tell whoeve at U of D to mention her in the morning prayer....thats what i am going to do when i get to CC tomorrow... yes, this is actually the first perosn that was close to me that i ever lost....but she no longer suffers now...now she can be happy...and soon, Alex and all of us will be able to join her...but for now, i think she will have a really good time with all the other goths in heaven... but thanks, ROQ, it means alot... |
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I'll be sure to tell the main office tomorrow. They'll be sure to pray with the entire school for her. I don't think you should say "soon". You know what they say about saving something desireable for as long as possible to increase how enjoyable it is later. That's basically any religion in a nutshell. If she's truly your friend, she would want you to live for as long as possible before joining her, to share all the stories and experiences you would have had from life....to be honest, even 100 years compared to the complete lifespan of humanity is "soon"...so yeah, soon I guess. I'm sure she's having fun... Get some rest, that helps...stress and depression come hand in hand with death, trust me, I've been that way since Christmas. I wish you the best. |