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on 2005-10-21 15:53:32 (edited 2005-10-21 15:53:45)
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I would like to know how a parent can be this way. I don't understand it at all. Nightmare, Please keep this thought. If you are ever successful in suicide, they win. I don't think you want them to win. *huggles*  |
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by night_link
on 2005-10-21 19:19:47
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| That's a good way of putting it Lady Rin. It really is another way of looking at it. |
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| Parents sometime are like that because of how their parent raised them. Sometimes it's because of the environment. and sometime parents are just not mature enough to be parents. then again maybe not. Im not yet a father so i still won't really be sure. |
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I think of how I was brought up. I didn't want to raise my children that way. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-22 15:26:40
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When I get married and have a family, I'll be sure to be nice to them, but maintain discipline to make sure they don't get spoiled.  |
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by elite fighter
on 2005-10-22 17:50:10
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my mother is so contradicting so says we can't do this yet she does it. she doesn't make sense. she's kind of scary...she gets mad for a minute and then is happy another minute...i sometimes wonder what her problem is... "A group of three? That's only going to burden me." ~Sasuke (After Naruto,Sasuke accidentally "kiss") |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-23 00:34:35
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Reading all of this makes me feel really grateful for my happy and nice parents... Also, martel combatir, is your name a mix if Presea's and Martel's...? |
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huggle? is that like a hug? i havent been hugged in ages...the only person that ever huged me in the last year was Alyssa, and at the time, she did not even know how much it ment to me...when i see her, i always look forward to her hug. S-a-c-h-i-e-l : trust me on this, my parents would not care in the slightist what "those idiot friends ouf yours on that damn internet" say. im serious, thats what they call you all, they think that you are corrupting me...ironic, huh? of coures, i am thankful for each one of you! I wish you the best on your goal of having a family, because it is my dream as well... and i am glad that you have a family that loves you and cares for you, both physically and emtionally Rin: Good ol' Rin, always coming up with another look on things...but i think one thing is different, if i died, they would LOSE. why? because they love to control my life...you cant control a life if it is dead, can you? but i see the point you are trying to make. Jester: based on the sound of stories, my Father's Father was a real hard ass...he died before i met him...nontheless, dad loved him very much...and mother does NOT like her mother. (i do not see why, grandma is SO nice!) and she is forced to take care of her father, so that gets her irritable and she is split between him and us (me and dad) it is actually quite sad...i feel sorry for her, until she screems at me. as for me, i would love to start a family, and God willing, i just might be blessed enough to be able to...and because of my experiences, i will be sure to hug my children and my wife every single day and tell them how much they mean to me....but that is only if i can find a nice girl to marry, and based on the way things are now, it isn't looking too good...but as may of you have said before, i am indeed only 16  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-23 20:25:20
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T.T /cry /cry I feel soo bad for you, nightmare... If there was something I could do to help, I'd do it, but I don't know of anything... /cry T.T |
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by night_link
on 2005-10-24 10:04:52 (edited 2005-10-24 10:05:52)
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| That's funny... that's what a lot of people I know that don't know gendou.com pretty much say about this site too nightmare. But I'm still here! |
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bad to worse... remember that halloween dance? the one that i was so excited about going to? the one that i finally got Alyssa to come with me to? CANCELED! for a stupid football game! also, i got a C- on something i worked really hard on, i fallowed all the directions and still got a C...that C in english is the ONLY thing that is keeping me off the Gabrial Rechard Honor role...and that C is keeping my grounded. i thank you all for your support. S-a-c-h-i-e-l: Please do not cry for me, i am not really worth it, i appriciate you caring so much...more than you know. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-24 14:12:42
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If you say you're not worth anything, you won't; by saying things, even if you don't mean them, your brain still hears it and registers it. So, please stop saying you're not worth anything... *bows* |
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A huggle is closer than a hug. I don't know how old you are however you won't always be under their control and the future belongs you to make what you want out of it. You'll never be able to show your children any love if you're not here. Nightmare I grew up with hate and mental abuse. I lived through destruction and death all aimed at making me hate like my father did. I never thought I would find happiness and even though we have a lot of problems among ourselves we are in love and I did escape that life. *tears* |
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by night_link
on 2005-10-24 15:34:22
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| What does the footbal game have to do with the dance? |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-24 18:45:40
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If I hugged my friends three times each day, they'd think I'm nuts. |
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you would think that your closest friends would hug you, but in my case, is those who barely know me are the ones the hug me, i love giving out hugs, it make me feel good. but unfortunately most people around me dont really like it. my family does, we hug all the time, but they hate me, cuz im not like they want me to be, i pretend to be something close to what they want, but they are never satified. i draw, but my most of my family doesnt like what i draw, they say im good, but i should choose a different topic, they are insane, i would never give up drawing anime, demons, and what most people consider to be dark. nighmare, lady rin is right, you wont always be under thier control. there will be a point when you can leave and they wont be able to stop you. i could do that, but i stay here cuz i dont have anywhere else to go. at least not yet. if you have a place where you can go, i say get up and leave, and even if you dont, and you think you can make it in your own then do it, most likely they will go out looking for you to come back, either cuz they love you or cuz they are worried about wat society will think of them. i been kicked out, but they came looking for me cuz they wat worried about what society will think of them. But you might not want to listen to me cuz im as screwed up as you are, if not worse. everyone, i know you are all tired of hearing me whine about kitsune, how do i know this, im tired of it too. i have made my mind up completely, i will drown all those feelings i had, i will turn them into a puff of smoke and watch them disapper. havent talked to her since saturday, and didnt see her today, which is a good thing. yay, screw kitsu-chan. just kidding. but i wont care about her anymore. by the way, if you havent noticed before, i ramble alot, so most of the things i say dont make sense, yay for randomness. |
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ketsuke: thats the thing, where will i go? thinking back, i really have nowhere to go if i decided to leave the house once im 18. im glad that you hug people... young Kai: the faculty want the people to got to the game and support the team...and they cannot do that if they are at the dance. but what about all the girls that they invited? what about the people who do not want to go to tha game (or whose parents wont let them.)? Rin: thank you for the huggle, i wish i could have one in real life though....i am glad that things worked out ok for you...see, for me, it does not look so, pleasent. basically, this is the way it looks, i live until im 18, go to collage while living with my parents because i do not have ANY money saved up because i cannot have a job. work while i am going to school...so maybe it might be better after that. and rin, i know it sounds stupid to you, but i still think that it is going to be near impossible for me to find a nice girl to marry, even though it is my dream and it is kinda hard to have children without a wife.... NO ONE REALLY NEEDS TO READ THIS, IF YOU DON'T WANT, JUST SKIP IT i typed this up for myspace, what do you think (i think some of you have seen this before) Im just another severly depressed person... One of thoes people you expect to find one day on the side of the road with a knife in his heart. But before you shrug me of as just another body, Remember that that person was once like you, a person with feelings, a person with needs, a person whose needs were not met. Just pause and think for a second, think of all the things he missed out on...Finishing High School, Colage, All the partys he was never invited to, all the dances he was to embarrased to go to without a date, his first date, his first kiss, the future wife that will now be lonely for the rest of her life, the beautiful children and grandchildren that will never come now... so i ask you, no, i BEG you...when you see someone who holds a special place in your heart, embrase them, tell them just how much you love them. It may sound stupid and they may look at you funny...but there will always be that one person that is just like me...someone who just wants to let go... someone who, because of you, will realise that there is at least one person in this world that DOES care...Then maybe there will be one less person on the side of the road with a knife in his cold, unloved heart... |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-25 10:38:41
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Nightmare, you're not unloved. You have everyone on this thread that like you. I've heard people say 'I'm alone' all the time, but they usually have someone, if not someone then some people, that all care about them. Face it, night: people like you. |
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that is not precisly what i meant...i know that i have people (on this thread in perticular) that care....but what i meant is, i do not have anyone HERE! i mean, sure, when i am online...but what happens when i get my computer taken away? when that happens, i feel so alone... so THAT is what i meant, and besides, i wrote that long before i started this thread. |
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Hmmm... depression... I am very familiar with it. I'm michelle. Everyone says I have a good life. Traveled a lot, no family tradgedies, no sort of abuse, a twin, perfect grades, friends, but I really don't believe I will ever be not depressed. It has been a constant feeling that I'm not good enough, the world isn't good enough, and the o too common "there has to be something more..." But the reason I am depressed is becuase I know there isn't. I am a realist and negative. I don't act that way on the outside, as to save people from the feelings I have, I am very cheerful and happy acting (not to say that it is an act, that is just how I go about my day, I like smiling). But I have no religion, I envy those who do (do not try converting me, I have made my friends mad with my blunt replies when they tried to convince me to go to church or something. I didn't try, it's just how I feel). I believe I am the embodyment of everything I hate. I am not special at anything, I have little courage, I'm lazy... I sound like a horrible person... haha. If it wasn't for my twin sister (who is worst off than me in depression) I would have no friends. I am antisocial... I don't like the human race but I like people... does that make sense? I'm going far too long. So I'll wrap it up. Just needed to get that out, there is so many more reasons why my life is not worth it (but I'm affraid of death.) P.S. Sry sry sry if I spelt anything wrong! I can't spell, hahahaha.
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