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you could be right, SACHEL...but i alwayse thought that my guardian angle was a guy. you could be very right...its entirly possible. but i talk to my Guardian Angle almsot every night. sometimes i have dreams about him...he has this really awesome sword and his wings are so gorgious. so yea, i dont think it was Marlen (Marlen was the name of my imaginary freind when i was 3...so i figured that Marlen was actually my Guardian and the name stuck) but there is alot of different possibilities. all i know, it made me feel better. it almsot had to be a female angle too..because her touch felt so motherly and full of love and care. of course, i could be compleatly wrong and your compleatly correct and i just dont pay very good attention to my Angle's gender and the TV was alwayse on, that was what dad told me to do was to tell him when it came on, so its not like i had a choise...maybe she will return tonight before i go to bed...i hope she does. because im just really sad for no real reason...i hope i feel better, ill let you know and ROQ, i love to talk to myself all the time...it helps me think when i hear the words too.  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Did I say that your angel is a girl...? Sorry if I did, I have no clue as to your angel's gender... I just like anime girls, and sometimes it slips through ^_^; Personally, I think that someone being a boy or a girl is largely irrelevent in most ways that people think... Why do kids always freak out if a person of the opposite sex gets near them? Without one or the other, everything would go extinct... I don't think I've ever felt someone that I couldn't see touch me... I would think it be cool though ^_^  |
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no sachel, you didn't specify...i just assumed. sorry for that...i guess your right, its possible. i like anime girls too, there cute, like Sakura from CCS. anyway maybe it was my Guardian, i dont really know...but i didn't feel it last night, so maybe it was a one time thing.....bu ti really miss it, it felt so nice to be loved.. got to go to school now. see ya! |
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Nightmare I got some really good pics of a nightmare you want me to email them to you? Being alone together. Makes a good paradox. All this spirit talk reminds me of my childhood misconception. Whenever dust or somethings got into my eye I would think its a ghost, so I always used to chase the image of the thing in my eyes around the house. It was until middle school that I figured out what it was. I hadn't been so dissapointed since the discovery of Santa Claus. I wish I could see what my gaurdian spirit looks like, if there is one actually gaurding me. If its a girl spirit I want her to sing me a song like in Ah My Goddess, if its a guy spirit he better have the biggest most flashy sword ever. I say if you ever feel a presense take advantage of the situation, it doesn't happen often. Its not you hear cases of ghost attacks. They are probaly harmless. This photobucket nonsense, how long would it take to learn it and set it up?  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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i think this might be a bit off topic but someone gave me this advice before:being in solitude for a ling time teaches ppl to be kind to one another.i'm not sure why he said that though... |
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i can understand it though...if your alone, you long for other people's company, so you are nice to the people that DO talk to you...thats how i am alot. Jomunga...of course you have a Guardian angle...everyone does....read Sachels signature! and PLEASE send me ever picture of my beloved nightmare that you can find! i love them! and dont worry about the photobucket thing...i found a brifcase on SBCYAHOO! so that is where im keeping them...and dont worry rin, im not making the same mistake...im taking certen...um...precautions...*winks at ROQ* well its almost lunch, see you all later! |
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Hiya everybody! I see what you're gonna do nightmare...very cool...you're gonna use "that", aren't you...Good luck! The weird experience is pretty interesting! Reminds me of a time when my family and I were driving somewhere. It was snowing and all of a sudden, a car in front of us spun out of controland nearly crashed into us...fortunately, it missed us. The funny thing was that although my parents were screaming the entire time...I was quiet, I didn't even panic...I just felt strangely safe, not sure why... BTW, nightmare, you said you were from Michigan? I am too! |
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really? your from michigan...you should tell me where exactly in an e-mail well, maybe my parents are right, i am stupid and worthless...i got a 69 on that math test....so that means that i will not have Christmass this year. no presents, no good dinner, no one coming over...just a normal sunday. i feel like deing again.. i feel so worthless, its a good thing i didnt have my knife in school....when i got home, i told my parents...they didn't yell, but they sounded happy that i was going to get a C in math...maybe they are happy because they do not have to buy me anything. i really wanted to do something to make up for it, so i decided to shovel the snow off the driveway...i didn't want to put on anything warmer because i was thinking "hey, i might die doing this!" so i was freezing out there shoveling a very long driveway. mom was yelling at me to come inside...but i didn't want to...while i was doing it, i kept telling myself "Damn jason, your such a worthless piece of shit, why dont you just kill yourself? then you can go to hell where you belong and suffer forever." then i started crying and the tears froze on my face. i really dont know why i beat myself up like that..... EDIT: my dad came home and he redid the driveway. when i told him about my bad grade, he said that he will be cutting my power again..."to prevent you from talking to those "friends" of yours on that internet!" he thinks that you all are destracting me from my studies and corrupting my mind...when in fact, you all are the only thing keeping me alive and sane. i really do not want to perminatly say goodbye to you all...i will try to do good on my finals...maybe then they will reconsider.... |
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| Don't feel too bad about about getting bad grades. I beat myself up whenever i get a 80-84 in any subject. I don't know what i'd do if a got a C though..........i've never gotten one before. I mean there was this one time I got one on a progress report(It was only a 79) but those don't count for real but I still got grounded. Anyways i've banged myself up pretty good before and while it does make you sleep better during the night it usually isn't good to have mysterious brusies when your parents see you. |
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Wow...it's sad when something as simple as a letter can completely affect every aspect of our emotion...don't worry about it though! It can be frustrating, but it should not influence how you feel about yourself. It's demented that your parents might deny you Christmas...because of a grade. I don't think that there is a parent alive that would do that...I don't necessarily think they were happy you got a C, but rather that you were bold enough to tell them. Maybe they'll surprise you Christmas day! It serves well to be slightly optimistic...otherwise life would kill you with depression. Just today, I was walking down a hallway and suddenly, my friend hits me in the stomach with a lucnch box filled with something ridiculously heavy. It hurt like help and as I knelt in pain, he started laughing...a couple minutes later, I doscover that the headphones for my MP3 player(my favorite possession) were broken...and I had no replacements...Now all of this pissed my off, but all I did was think of how close the weekend was, and it didn't seem too bad... |
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also Dad "forbade" me from ever seing Mike again...hes like my best friends at school....no internet friends? no real friends? how am i going to survive this? |
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| -by the way nightmare-----------if you truly dislike your parents or you think they mistreat you don't kill yourself. Just wait to move out and wait and have an existence better than they would allow you. Have kids who say that they are proud to have such a good parent and that way you can be better than them and say that although times where tough you managed through it and triumphed even though at some point you felt like giving up. Whatever you do dont kill yourself or your parents. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Killing his parents sounds good >:-) Nightmare, what's your address? I must know, so I can give you what your parents will deny you. And before someone says "Parents know what's best", this is NOT good for Nightmare at all. And maybe a biiig list of stuff you want, so I can give you a little bit of it. |
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I agree with Sachiel! We'll send you something AWESOME for Christmas...parents or not! |
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christmas present for nightmare?lessee...can't think of anything unique to give hime rite now...still have more than a week before it's christmas |
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Today was not very good. This morning one of our neighbors who was a long time resident here, I did not know her, was driving down the mountain road we all use when her car went over the edge an plunged 200ft to the bottom of the mountain. She did not survive. I drive that almost road everyday and have never really liked driving it especailly after dark since there ae no lights and few guard rails. It is a known dangerous highway, one of the most dangerous in the state. That's it. I had to say that.  |
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Wow, Lady Rin, my condolences go out to you and the family of the neighbor. There's nothing like realizing your mortality, especially when a fatality happens to someone you know... |
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No one I know has died except for my grandfather, but at the time I was so deep in this depression-like "I-don't-care" state, I never felt one bit sad or happy about it. It was just another fact... I feel bad now... There's nothing like realizing your mortality, especially when a fatality happens to someone you know... True. Very true. |
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Hey Sachiel, don't feel bad about death overall, to quote an ancient chinese scholar: "How do you know it is so bad to be dead?" To us it seems like a terrible thing, but rather, it seems to be more of a gateway to something else, for better or for worse...in the long run, 70-100 years is a mere blink of an eye, an eternity as a soul seems more imperative... Regardless, death will come when it will, like a thief in the night, there's nothing you can do but savor what you have now while it lasts. Don't worry about what's to come, enjoy life, you only have one shot at it...Terrible deaths are there to remind us of how little time we have left to enjoy ourselves, a wake up call to expand our horizons and live for both the now and the here to come. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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lol, never thout of that. Once your dead, you don't care or know anything. And you will never know anything or care about anything ever again. That is, unless you go to heaven or heck... It makes me wonder where I will go after I die... |