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remember Rachel? it turnes out that she already has a boyfreind...she lied about her school too...she did all that stuff, she said she loved me...as a joke. then her freind im's me with all these names and (get this) their bra sizes, and asks me if i wanted to meet any of them...that was at 11pm last night. ive been crying nonstop sience then, i didn't get any sleep last night...and my eyes are scrachy from crying so much. so ive come to a conclusion...everyone says that "oh don't worry, you will find someone"...i won't, plain and simple. all girls want to do is play my already fragile heart...and im sick of it. Girls dont care about love, they care about playing there stupid games and laughing as i cry...it is just like she said last night. "no one could love you." so i give up, thats it... Rin, im sorry, i truly am, but your little spark of hope that you gave me died with the setting sun...ill never get it back...for one day, i felt like i was loved, like i mattered, like life mattered...as with most things regarding love, i was wrong...  |
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*Tears* It is hearbreaking to read your post this morning and I don't know what to say. There are girls who are cruel just for the sake of doing it. Still not all girls are that way.I am not going to say don't worry however Nightmare don't give up because a girl who mislead you. I can't write anymore. *tears* *huggles* for Night  |
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thanks rin...but it doesn't help much if you remeber this isnt the first time a girl did this to me...its the third. i would love to believe you ehen you say "all girls are not that way"...i really would...but i can't i look at the world today...with the 3 inches of snow on the ground...and it makes me cry, because i know that today, some lonely girl will commnit suicide, some guy will rape his girlfriend and get her pregnant, and countless hearts will be broken today because of girls and guys like Rachel...that is my life, lonely...so yes Rin, i really do want to believe you, but i cant...i cant let myself be open to that kind of attack again. my defences are weak, though, in a week or so, another girl who is just looking for ammusment will tell me that she loves me...and ill be stupid enought to believ her and this will all happen again. alwayse chasing after that on girl who everyone says exists...but really doesnt. thanks for the huggles, rin...i only wish i gould get one for real, and dont cry too much for me, insted, go hug Ranger and talk to him and tell him how much you love him... |
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by night_link
on 2005-11-26 14:48:27 (edited 2005-11-26 14:48:56)
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I was enjoying reading all about you getting date until I got to what happened after nightmare. Don't plan to get revenge or anything on this Rachel... it probably won't help and make things worse. The best that can happen is just pay more attention on what happens. Meaning that some girl may be interested in you but you need to look from another view at maybe what does she really want: your feelings or some time for her fun. I know that isn't what every girl or woman thinks but what many think. Nowadays, material and fun are what a lot of men and women are really after until they've had their fill for a while. To improve your defenses nightmare, you need to understand things that are really what they are, not what they seem. I don't really understand how to explain it to you but then again maybe I don't have to. You know from past experience how things ended up, maybe there is some similarities these kind of people share so that you can avoid. I'm sorry if I'm not making too much sense. My fingers are twitching too much because of a burn I got. Whatever happens, don't give up on anything. That includes finding someone who really intends to share your feelings. I got my myspace kinda ready. I was hoping to see yours and anyone's for a long time. I don't have any pics yet because I don't have a camera yet. But here it is: http://www.myspace.com/young_kai I better stop for now on the subject before Gendou posts about myspace... |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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This isn't entirely bad, Nightmare. The fact that your parents trusted you enough to let you go on a date surprised me as much as the fact the you got a date as well.  |
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she only said she would go out withg me to torment me...so thats not supprising...and my patrents never knew, i never told them. i just gopt back form Kevin's wedding...Taylor looked so beautiful! she remindes me of Alyssa...only blond and like 10 years older. i hope they have an excelent life together. remember how i said that i was lateborn in the whole sceme of things? well Kevin is 29....and im the next youngest. at 17(well in 3 days 17)and that offically makes me the next in line to be married...man my family will be waiting along time... |
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I'm very sorry to interrupt, but I could not help but noticing your sad tale. It is dispicable that someone would do something like that to you nightmare, but it is equally wrong of you to denounce ALL of the opposite sex. Remember that the only reason people hurt others is to mask their own pain. Just imagine, deep down, the girl who hurt you is tormented, unsure, and likely to become a teen statistic in something negative. never give up! Life does not end if a girl burns you, she will win only if you let her. Forget her, her friends, and anyone associated with her. Move on, but never forget the lesson learned: That you can never completely trust anyone but yourself. Always be cautious and keep your hopes moderate, never high. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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You never told your parents...? Oh well, there guys my boost of confidence to you X_X Yes, ROQ, I never thought of that, but it's really true, isn't it... People only do bad things to you if you let them, people hurting others because they are hurt... It's suddenly like a light bulb turned on in my head! And... uh... Nightmare, why are you a pessimist? |
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i dont think that nightmare chooses to be a pessimist. most people who are like that is because 99% of the time they have been let down, lie to, rejected, and hurt. im really sorry that you have gone throught that nightmare, but like you said, i wont be that last. i know that may sound harsh but its the truth. and i hast happened just to you. im 2 years older then you, and im still in the same situation. well i was anyways. after all the times i said i gave up, i finally do give up. im just gonna let things flow own their on. no hopes, no dreams, no desires to accomplish anything. not gonna go out of my way just to please someone. i have accepted everything that has happened. im not just gonna there living the same thing over and over. im doing things for myself now. if people like it, good, and if they dont, i could care less. and again, im just rambling on and not makings sense. i think what im trying to say is that if you really give up, the just do it. give up on all hope completely and you wont feel anything anymore. you will be in a carefree bliss. dont know if i saying it right. but you wont feel anything anymore cuz you wont care. i think im only making sense to myself, i doubt anyone understood my rambling. oh well. im gonna stop now. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-26 22:39:44 (edited 2005-11-26 22:46:05)
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What? You're giving up? ...That means... We've failed... No, we haven't failed yet! Get back in there! There's stuff to be done, and you're gonna need to care to get those done. Take it from me, I know. Stay in there, don't give up, and eventually you'll lead a happy life. Just think, for every bad thing that's happened to you, it'll eventually happen to you but in the complete opposite and good way. Stay with us, dude! See, it usually snows a week or two before thanksgiving around here, but it hasn't snowed one bit, and today it was so warm that I was out in a T-shirt and I was perfectly warm. And now, at 11:44 PM, there's a few inches of snow outside, and more is coming. I love snow ^_^ See, I didn't just give up because there was no snow yet. I knew that eventually there was gonna be snow outside, and it finally came. It may take a while, but you'll find happiness. Well, unless you die early (don't kill yourself please?). |
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dont worry, im not going anywhere. im not gonna kill myself. if i die i die if i dont then i dont, i dont care about it anymore. i was just simply saying that i dont care what happens. im gonna have a happy life, not feeling anything makes me happy. you used snow as an example. you say you knew it was gonna fall sooner or later. but in reality you were just hoping it would snow. so if that would have been me. i would have care less if it snowed or not. i like snow but if it snow good and if then it doesnt. (i doubt i made any sense again.) |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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I wasn't hoping it would snow, I knew it was gonna snow. I just didn't know when, which made it all the funner. And how does not caring about anything make you happy? It would seem a miserable life to me, not caring about anything. If you don't care about anything, then you don't vare if you're happy, if you're not happy then you're sad, but you wouldn't care because you don't care... It seems sad to me... And I might be backing up all of my files, and then wiping my hard drive sometime soon... My computer's found too many problems, and now it goes slow... It'll take a lot of work though, and I'm not too fond of work... X_X |
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I'm not sure what the orginal post of question was here, but the way I see depression is something that is very real, almost tangible, and truely can lock onto someones heart, not to sound melodramatic of course, but it can seriously feel like a weight. No matter what the source (many people argue about that one) the only way to be free from it is too make a concsious effort. It doesn't go away, and if one was to hope it would, then it might subside for a time only to have the black embodiment of discrouagement and pain rise up again. It can be a battle, but it can always be beaten. I always thought it was funny... we play games or watch movies or anime. The hero always fights and struggles, usually there are impossible odds, or dangers too numerous to number. Some like to idolize them and say to ourselves," Boy I want to do that" or rather "If I could fight and put all my strength on the line to save someone/something/humanity/etc... I really hope I could" Let me testify, there is no anime, or RPG or anything that has a trial or a test of courage any greater than that to overcome true depression. That's why so few really do it. Most live in it, or wait till their life changes alittle for the better and tries to forget about it. In my opinion, if one had actually beaten it, actually fought (literally) to overcome such a suffocating blanket as depression or self-hate, then they could be numbered among any hero, or warrior from any anime or game they can find. :)
"You don't need a reason to help people" -- Zidane Tribal
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Ooh, Finnis has some 1337 skills. I never thought of it that way, but it's true. I'm learning more and more about depression jsut being being here ^_^ Something else I realized recently is that depression can come from telling lies to yourself. Like if you say "I'm not gonna eat any sugar today", then actually do it. If you don't do it even though you said you would, it'll make you feel worthless because you can't even keep your promises. So, just keep all of your promises, to yourself and others, okey dokey? |
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@Finnis, Great response, and what I'm about to stay is very stupid, but... You posted your response at 4:44:44 pm. Cool, huh? (awkward silence...) Sorry... |
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@Finnis, right now,i'm giving you a round of applause >.< that's one touching but true speech... |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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It appears the the depression thread is getting new viewers all the time... ^_^ Oh, and this is too funny... It's a blonde joke that is funny, but it's even funnier when my little sister joined in. There was a blonde who was sick of all the blonde jokes and people making fun of her for being a blonde, so she dyed her hair and did everything she could to de-blonde herself. Eventually, she was driving down a road when she came across a sheep herder crossing the road with his sheep. The blonde just stared at the cute little lambs and sheep, and hopped out of her car. She asked the herder that if she could guess the exact number of sheep he had, he would let her have one. He agreed, and the blonde guessed 337. The herder was amazed, for he owned exactly 337 sheep, and he had never had someone guess the exact amount of his sheep. So, he let the blonde take a sheep, and she was cuddling and loving the little thing. Then the herder asked, "If I guess the natural color of your hair, will you give my dog back?" The funniest part of this is that when my little sister heard this, she said "What dog?" Just thought I'd share that... lol |
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man this sucks...as i get closer to my birthday, i keep feeling more depressed about it...i hope i can keep it together during school on thuesday... ya, your right welcome all to my little corner of the internet. i dont want to sound stupiud...but i dont get it sachel... Finnis: you know..i made that same statment "back in the day" when i first started the original depression thread..your right ROQ...i LOVE your signature..Bleach is the best! but your correct, i really shouldn't condem all women...i really like the comapny of girls...they are really interesting (dont get any ideas, you KNOW im not like THAT!) i really hope you are right, though...and welcome! Kira has a good point, but its a bit deepet than that. Ketsuki...your idea is good, but you will find that it is hard not to care about things... |
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@ Sachiel, I don't completely get it either, so here's a better joke. Not being sure of this joke is even appropriate, I shall censor it with a (). The 5 bad things about being a (sausage): 1. You're always bald, 2. There's a hole in your head, 3.Your neighbors are nuts, 4. The guy behind you's an asshole, and 5. everytime you get excited, you throw up and faint. Hope you like it! @nightmare, thanks for the compliment! Remember, birthdays are a chance to get free stuff! Can't beat that, right? I mean, another year gone by, has it really been without any positives? No moments that made you smile? No times when all worries were behind you, if only for a second? Isn't that reason enough to be somewhat happy? When at school, remember, where it counts (inside) you are MUCH, INFINITELY better than they are! Find solice and peace in your mind. Insult them and envision their obese, unemployed futures mentally. This way, not only can you find humor in a bad situation, but you can also eliminate any anger or sadness...right? Hope it helps! |