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Crystal thinks like me. Yeah Ketsuki enough with these half assed confessions, make sure you say the word "love" and mean it too.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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i know it is hard to make up your mind, but just believe in yourself, and pick one try the girl who wouldnt spend your money too much in shopping ^.^
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never be sad, the past is the past, think upon the future as of today, and be happy for what you have now. |
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or maybe you find out neither are any good, no one ever said your first love has to be the one you spend the rest of ur life with-.- id say try someone else unless u are stuborn and wont give up on either-.-'
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by desertranger
on 2005-11-15 13:16:37
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Rin said, "She's waiting for you to say something one way or another". Actually that's not true, I'm putting words in her mouth. Alright Ketsuki, what's it gonna be yes or no? Right or wrong, win or lose you have to do this otherwise you're just gonna continue to tear yourself apart.  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-15 14:09:51
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When Ketsuki reads this, he'll be like "HOT DANG! I'm in a little pool of denial or something like that... I must get out of it, talk to Kitsu, do this, do that, and I hopefully won't get into a huge rant of why everyone's wrong and leave gendou.com."  |
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Ranger, you stole the words right from ym mouth "your in love doumb shit!' ya, believe it or not, thats love dude...caring for someone very deeply. Like Alyssa...i care about her very much. so i love her very much...even though i know that we will never be together, i still care for her very deeply and she is never far away from my heart. i had to do this exact thing with Alyssa...i told her how i felt and she threw it back at me...but then she realised what i was saying and how i felt and then everything was fine (at least i hope everything is fine between us...) we decided that our friendship was still very important and we were still very close...so we both agreed that we consider each other brother and sister...(we are both only children) and that is how it stands and it works great! at least i think its great...sometimes i wonder if she cares about me as much as i care about her... my parents are yelling at me again....i really hate it when they swear at me...i suppose everyone's patrents swear a little...but with a combination with everything else...it just makes me feel so lonely...thats why im here. it still hurts, though. |
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“If you really dont love Kitsu, then get off her back. I dont see how Kitsu would want someone who doesnt love her, is constantly depressing, is no fun, overly emotional, and smokes (bad habit, go get rid of it.) I mean if you dont love her then what do you have to offer?†jomunga,that’s the thing, I have nothing to offer, even if I loved her, what could I possibly give her, nothing, I have nothing I can offer her, I wish I could give her everything, but guess what, I cant. Thanks for smacking me. And im not sure I want to use the word “love†cuz what if it scares her away. I don’t want that to happen. “You dumb shit! - Your in love! . You agonize over her all the time. Moon silly, can't sleep because your thoughts are of her. Sounds like love to me. Get off your ass, get up some courage and tell her "Kitsu, I love you". Your problem is your a teen and teens are afraid of rejection. Screw that shit, I've been rejected a lot. I don't like it either. Only you are just sitting there pissing and moaning about it. You don't acomplish anything just sittin there and creating one problem after another. Don't create problems, find solutions. 3 step solution to Kitsu. 1. Go visit cute Kitsu. 2. Take sweet Kitsu in your arms and give her a hug, stroke her back and hair. 3. Kiss her and say with everything you can put behind it and say, "Kitsu I love you". Then kiss her again and say "Kitsu I love you". “ ranger, I feel insulted, (just kidding). So maybe I love her, but I tell her. I been rejected before, many times, I once asked on of my friends out and she said “eww, no.†I don’t think you can be any more rejected. Im not afraid of her saying she doesn’t love me, it would be a great load off my chest if she did, what I don’t want is her to stop talking to me cuz I love her. I only have one thing to say about the 3 step solution, I would if I had a car (we live a lil bit far from each other), and if she would let me kiss her. Rukia, a step closer to manhood, I don’t think I want manhood, life is just fine the way it is. Crystal, I do get really sad, and its not that I like it, but I have to live with it, its part of my problem, I have MDD. I used to take meds for it, but they worked for about a week and then stopped having an effect on me, they actually made it worse, so I stopped taking them. So yeah , I can get really sad, but I will get over it. “try the girl who wouldnt spend your money too much in shopping ^.^†ha, I think kitsu would spend my money shopping, or she would make me by her yoai mangas, lots of them. But I wouldn’t mind, she is beautiful when she is in her own little world. I can be stubborn sometimes, and I probably wont give up on her till one of us moves away. And you are right, you don’t have to spend the rest of your life with your first love, kitsu-chan isn’t my first love. Nightmare, I though you had deeper feeling for Alyssa, but never comented on it cuz I didn’t want to bring up any unpleasant feeling for you. But now that you talked about it, I see I was right. And if anything I think I would like for things to go the same way between me and kitsu-chan if they don’t go the way I hope for. “sometimes i wonder if she cares about me as much as i care about her...†I wonder the same things about kitsu-chan. Also, im sorry that your parents yell at you, I also hate it when my mom does it. Everyone, I know I say I don’t believe in love, but I do, its just that I don’t want to, love hurts. I was in love before, she tried to break up many times, but I always fought for us to stay together, but eventually it got to the point that my heart was torn into pieces and gave up, since then I have fooled myself, I convinced myself that love is only an illusion of the mind. I was also convincing myself that what I felt for mi lihn was only an illusion of my mind, that I created that feeling so I wouldn’t be alone, and I was strating to believe it, till I got smacked. *laughs* I been feeling like shit, last night I was cutting my are arm, and through out the whole night, I keep thinking about slicing my wrist, but im weak, I couldn’t even bring myself to do it, my arm has cuts, but there is nothing on my wirst, my depression has kicked in really bad, today, walking from school to my house, I could barely hold my tears, I was wishing to die, it started during the weekend, and it scalated though out this whole time, but thanks to you all, I think its gone now, after reading all the post I felt a lot better. Thanks *gives everyone a hug* HOLLY SHIT, THIS IS ANOTHER LONG POST. |
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sounds like yer starting to get better and NO!!dun slice off that wrist!!!i hate the sight of blood... everyone here is right behind ya.now that ya know yer in love,do something about it |
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i love the site of blood, and im planning on doing something about it. i think i will take her to the movies, if she lets me |
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hmm movies...haven't been to one in a while.so if she lets ya take her to the movies,which movie will ya'll be watching cause there's not much good movies these days... |
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i know there arent many good movies, i want to take her to a scary movie, she likes them and so do i (although i get scared easily i still love scary moives). |
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I don't know what to say anymore. I've tried.  Ketsuki win or lose, love is worth fighting for. The harder you say you don't believe, the more you do so what you say about your not believing in love has no meaning. You have nothing to offer her? How about yourself? What did Ranger have to offer me when we met? All he owned was a fast car, a beat up not even flyable airplane and a piece of land in the desert with a burned out house on it. He gave me himself that's all. His love and understanding and after being rejected by my family that was all I had.After I knew him that was all I wanted. There is time for material wealth. I've also rejected a lot of boys, all of them excpet for one. Some of them came back because they wouldn't take no for an answer I don'tknow about the others. I still have guys try to pick me up at the Alamo; marines, tourists and bikers. Some are the same ones week after week, most of them even know I'm married. Love does hurt. It hurts so much I can't bear to be parted from Ranger, look how I get when he goes out of town. When he's depressed I'm beside myself not being able to help. When he's sick, injured and in pain I hurt inside knowing there is nothing I can do except to be there, to give to him my body and soul; to do what I have to even if it hurts. It works the other way as well, all I want from Ranger is Ranger, nothing more. I would also like to know what does cutting yourself acomplish? What is it good for, absolutely nothing. Do it often and long enough and people will ignore your cry for help, then when you need help there shall be none; and Ketsuki, you need help now. I was rejected by my family, thrown out forever I never had a chance to say goodbye to my mother. Kitsu is only a girl and there are a lot more out there if she rejects you. You can always get another girl, I can't get another family. The thing is you'll never find out because your mooning over Kitsu and you won't do anything about it. There is only one right answer and you know what that is. All the others are wrong. I'm sorry, but frankly I think you need a good kick in the ass by someone to knock some sense into you. *stomps foot* *leaves slaming door*  |
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A double post. I'm entitled. I received a letter from my brother Harry today saying my father died three weeks ago. I do not want not to hear any sympathy or condolences for him, he was mean, spiteful and filled with hate. I was mentally abused and his torture still invades my sleep. I'm glad he's dead, may he rot in hell. What makes me depressed and why I need to be reassured right now by Ranger is they never told me about my mothers passing in 2003 unitl this year but made damned well sure I knew about his dying. I was also mentioned in his will. There is a a large amount of money for me, enough to live comfortably for the rest of our lives. To collect it I have to divorce Ranger and return home with my children. I may also collect on Rangers passing and I shall never collect it under either of those terms. The hate he and Harry shared still touches me in knowing I'm still rejected by my family. Of all of them only Gwen speaks to me. I need reassurance today, I havn't needed any for a long time only I need to know I'm not rejected by my husband, children, and friends real and virtual. Goodnight |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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lol, Rin, even when you're angry I can't tell, because it seems like you're always happy and cutesy. lol... May I ask why you hate your family so much? If it's too personal, then ignore me. I hate it when people try to dig way down deep inside me. I love those little sound files you put in.... lol!! I agree with almost everything said on this thread recently... Everyone seem so joined together in this fight against depression it brings a tear to my eye *wipes eye* |
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Sachiel go read the love vs hate thread for info on why Rin hates her Dad. And hooray he is dead, I hated him from just the stories. Finally Ketsuki's long awaited reply. And its just as I suspected it to be. Sigh. I have no clue what to say. "Stop being depressed Ketsuki!" Thats the best I could think of for now. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Uh, I can't find it... Do you know precisely where it is? |
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Type "love vs. hate" in the search. that works. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by yuakara_99
on 2005-11-16 01:52:37
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dying?who is? |
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Here it is S-a-c-h-i-e-l I suggest you read the entire thread however what you want is on Page 0. I sent an email to my brother, this is the first time I have contacted him since I got married. I told him what I thought and how I felt. I also told him that if he tries to visit like he said in his letter I'll have Ranger drag him into the middle desert and leave him there. I had an email from my Gwen, younger sister, this morning and she says Harry is madder than she has ever seen him before and Jane, older sister, is very depressed and on medication. Harry's raging and threatening to come here and settle things only there's nothing to settle. This whole thing is insane, it makes no sense at all. Why now after all this time. I haven't felt this kind of anger and helplessness in years. S-a-c-h-i-e-l wrote lol, Rin, even when you're angry I can't tell, because it seems like you're always happy and cutesy. Everybody says that, work, school, everywhere. "Gee! Rin your so cute when your angry (or frustrated)". I do stomp my feet I also slam doors and throw pillows. Ranger says I look just like that ava when I'm angry. I also don't stay angry long. I've seen people angry all day. Still, I would like to know how being angry is cute? Confession: Range has re-enforced all of the doors in the house because I slam them. He has to replace maybe one a year, usually the bedroom door. |