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i hate it how you say such irresponsible thing.. i feel so terrible..i dont know how you feel as being mighty as a brother for a sister and would wanted a sister to follow you up~this is much terrible thought i have ever ever feel so mad about you never know how a sister have to bear with especially as a little sister you dont know that we have to suffer soo much bear soo much pain because you big brother you know that by means born into the smallest doesnt mean we really get the love from family instead everything that we made just to cheer up the family devastated because you guys think us as stupid and no brain!(you know this is the saddest thing that we have ever been going through) and if you are the big bro,you would never know how a lil sis got to feel..ever since being born into 2nd,lil sis got to live under big bro's shadow..they feel so desperate..so hard to find their own way to go on..and it's all thanks to mr.big bro! you never appreciate your lil sis and yet you hate her..and what..we didnt get anything wrong..you just get annoyed so easily that you never wanted to share your feelings and thoughts to us..thinking that we are too dumb to understand..you just never sit down and tell us how you feel.. ALL YOU BIG BRO DOES JUST KEEP SHOUTING SHUT UP AND ABUSE US FOR NOTHING JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE ANNOYED OR ANYTHING.. you never know you get alot of attention from people..from cousins..from families.. and what about us..lil sis?you NEVER notice that we get abandoned aside from the other people.. the only thing we get to have some attention is to stick with the brother... but in the end..big bro get more and alot than lil sis and all lil sis is trying to put all shredded heart aside and then trying to make big bro and family happy... you never know..how it feels..you dont in fact! ......anyway...i'm sorry for being rude but i just don't know why you guys won't considerate on each other's position..we try to think your position too but the way you big bro treats us just make us feel so tired and very mad but mostly sad..when big bro abuse lil sis,you would NEVER NEVER know that...behind the cries and the tears we are flowing is not because we feel hurt...is because we are sad that you are making yourself feel so anonymous to us and we feel the hate from you You need to know about one thing ever:no matter what you do,your sis would never hate you!even the way she does saying that she hates you and would never want to see you but that's just the way she wants to avoid you- because we lil sis feels like we are not good to become your sis and hope that by avoiding is the best choice to make you feel happy BUT YOU JUST DONT UNDERSTAND... WHY ON EARTH MUST LEARN TO HATE!!!why not opening your heart and learn to love..? WHY NOT JUST MAKE US REALISE we are wrong instead of making us sad and hurt and dump us inside the confusion.. WHY..how could man be so cruel and self-center.. why... |
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I'm having really mixed feelings right now. Not felt like this propably ever, I'm not sure if im depressed or what but I'm not feeling too happy this morning. And I'm not even 100% sure why I'm like this...too much things going on in my head. ..edit: I'm okay now :D I just had really weird 24h what comes to my mental state :P |
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@Adeline Thanks for your openness, you're partly right for you have a point. It's alright to be rude sometimes to people who don't know anything at all concerning what you feel. I know my mistakes, I don't know if she know her mistakes, and by the way I'm the youngest of my family. It was the first time I burst my anger out of the blue, and you know why? I kept that hatred for so long and tried to comprehend the situation from the past so I back off my thoughts for awhile. However as long as I linger this resentment the mistakes comes again, then I do the same thing again-->be quiet, calm ,obvservative, continuously bothered, looking for the light of this certain situation and eradicate the present hatred I felt, but not all that hatred melts instantly some of them remains, a remnants of suspicion, and I don't disregard them I just keep them hanging, waiting for a proper reason to reconcile it--or worst by my own fault worsen what I feel. With this expression I shared you'll probably think that I am a person not fond of talking face to face with a person I hated most, a person who can't move on, a person who can't accept his own faults, a person who can't let go what bothers him most, a person afraid of reconciliation, a person who in turn is also numb, a person who don't opt to rectify the damage done. But I do hope so you could consider what I feel, for I am human, but I don't use this as an excuse. I also consider the benefits and goodness my sister did to me and that made me confused for awhile concerning my hatred. And I know cooling the apprehensions I felt needs time and courage, and I do need that. I hope you guys could give me that. There's no need for me to tell you an anecdote of my situation...but I really appreciate for opening your part. And one more thing adeline maybe next time you could fix you sentences and observe proper capitalization, commas, periods and paragraphs. It gives me a bit of pain reading your response, but anyway thanks for the opportunity of sharing, I appreciate that much.        |
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Whats up with your siblings Adeline and Sanoube? I am the youngest of 4 kids. 2 older sisters and an older brother. I know how you feel with them. Siblings suck.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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As for me im the youngest and i got a bro and a sis..They are mighty adults now ..but back then when i jas just a kid, aghh constant bullies. But i don't care about'em. 
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Adeline, I guess I was born lucky... I am the middle of three sons. I was only the youngest for a few years before my little brother was born. My brothers and I did not get along well while we were young either. I used to think my older brother hated me. Everyday he would take things of mine because he was bigger and he could. He didn't respect me until I started fighting back and showing him I wasn't scared of him. The he hated me because my parents always saw me as the mature and responsible one. For that reason we didn't connect for a long time. Sometimes it takes a long time for siblings to start being civil with each other. Sometimes it never happens. I know people who still don't talk to their siblings because of stuff that happened when they were kids. We used to fight our own battles and deal with life on our own until life became too much to bare by ourselves. I just know that my brothers and I only really started learning to depend on each other after my mom left us behind. After that I guess we bonded because we had to. Now we're closer than we could ever be. The both of them are civilian contractors in Iraq and I email them everyday I can because I know that any time I talk with them could be the last time. I guess what I am trying to say is, even though things are bad sometimes and siblings may say and do things that are selfish, irresponsible, and yeah, pretty stupid, they are still your blood and you have to love them unless they hurt you physically (or take some sick pleasure out of psychologically torturing you). Sometimes you have to be the bigger person and love people despite their shortcomings. Sanoube, It's not healthy to hold in anger like that. Eventually you either become embittered and take your frustrations out on people you don't mean to or you explode on people and make yourself look crazy, not to mention the actual health risks associated with always holding in anger.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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Dear Adele hun, I know the majority of people would say that being the youngest/younger sibling in the family means you are lucky, means you get more attention, and some of the younger siblings are accused of being spoiled brat. But sometimes the story never actually went that way. Sometimes things are just harder than what it looks. I know, growing up under the shadows of your older siblings is such a painful thing to bear with.You never really get the attention or compliments from your family for what efforts you made. instead, most parents would say: "Look at your brother/sister. s/he managed to get that scholarship bla bla this bla bla that. Why can't you be like him/her? I want you to be successful like him/her." I don't know if your parents say that, but from that sentence, we can clearly see that, if you follow it, as in, trying so hard to be like your elder sibling, it means, you are simply not being yourself. From what i can see, the pressure you are dealing with comes from your brother most, and not majorly from your parents, if I'm not mistaken. And your bro looks down on you, hate you, and refuse to tell the reason why. From your words,is your brother being abusive in a mental or physical way? I can imagine the pain being bullied by your elder bro, because, I do, (*coughcough* >.>) bully my younger bro. He is not a biological child, his family is very close to mine, our family grows up together since we are neighbours and i consider him as my lil bro. My bro is the eldest son in his family, but the youngest in my family. so he gets the equal pressure of being first and last. From what i can see, he enjoys being teased by me as a last child, than having a pressure from being the 1st. He is quite abusive like your bro to his real younger sisters, but in my family, i tease him a lot. He oftenly push, hit or physically abuse his younger sister and refuse to tell them why, even if he's only 8 years old. I can feel his sister's pain. she rarely hits him back. what she did was to cry and sulk. I am seeing from two different perspectives here. 1-from an elder sibling point of view, 2-from the younger. Most probably, the reason why your brother love to abuse you is because of jealousy. i know you said, he gets the attention from families and cousins. And i assume that your parents want him to become your role model. I try imagining the time when you are born after him. Yes, you get all the special attention and thus, making him feel left out. So probably, he tried to achieve something to get your parent's attention. He accomplish it and gets the attention from family and cousins. But yet, he still feel the jealousy. We don't know what your brother have been going trough. As the 1st son, he is actually bearing much much more responsiblity than you ever think. Probably the reason why he feels the jealousy from you is because, you are a younger child, and you are a girl. SO the family takes care of your more, for safety and stuff, in this criminal seasons in Malaysia as you can see. An eldest son was expected to 'berdikari' or being independent on his own. And, he is the 1st candidate to replace your dad's place as the Family's head. He might feel the jealousy, since you bear none of this responsibility. Childhood experiences might lead to hatred in the adult days if it's not solved out properly. He is expected to be the role model of his younger siblings, having the family to tell him to do this to do that. By bullying his siblings, he can feel superior, for having someone to follow what they say. Try to put yourself in his shoes. Try to think again, what makes him hate you this bad. Big bro's will almost never express their problems to you, for they think that younger siblings are just 'spoiled brats who doesn't care for a bit'. However, this doesn't mean he can treat you abusively as an elder son. I know the pain of growing up from your sibling's shadow. I know what it feels when you have to hold back your anger to your bro because you love him so much, and didnt want to make him feel bad. But honey, sometimes being quiet doesn't mean it would solve things. If your bro is being abusive, in a mental or physical way, when it gets to the point where you simply can't hold back any longer, it's best to discuss it with your parents. DOn't just tell them that your brother bullies you, try to express your feeling, and try to give possible future result of how this thing could affect your life. If your parents push you to be successful like your brother, i think it's good if you don't simply do what they say. Like I said, if you follow your bro's step, this means that, you're becoming him, not yourself. However, try to achieve success in studies in your own way, and don't look up to your bro just because he's more successful than you. Prove to your parents that, your success doesn't come from the shadows of your bro, but from the efforts you make. YOU live your own life, therefore, there is no reason why you should follow somebody else's step to victory. If your bro abuses you once again, try to shout questions to him like "What's your problem with me? Why do you keep hurting me? DO i hurt you?" or other possible questions. If his answers are: "shut up" "nothing" "because i'm your bro", then try to say possible reasons of why he hates you like: "because ur jealous of me? because you think i'm weak?" and stuff. well, if a bro teases me, this is what I would say: "You think you're releasing your pressure by pressuring and pressuring me more and more to make you feel superior? Think not because I'm not bothered by your words. Instead, as a younger child, I'm gonna use my powers to go against you and making you feel more pressured than what you are right now!" That is, what I would say, of course. Oh and you don't have to say it xD Fighting is not the best thing to solve problems. And hating doesn't heal. Sit down together and discuss is the best way. You are 16 years old, 2 more years until you can be independent and choose the road you want for your life. Express your feeling to your bro, and don't keep the sadness all by yourself. Yes, siblings often fight, but later in life, when you have no other place to turn to, you'll realize how important they are to you. All I can say is, the best of luck. Sorry for the long post, guys. ^~^  |
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Sanoube,kei,doraemon and hikky~ Thank you for the post.. I'm just trying to express in my point of view as a youngest sinbling... Sanoube~i would try my best for the pharagraphs and commas and all those ~ m(_ _)m i'm sorry for giving so much trouble |
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Actually I was about to express something here, but to think again, I still have my patience. I'll just see how things work out for me. ~You don't have to give a response. I just need somewhere to write these out. [edit]: i change my mind. I might just forget this bad feeling of mine in the next day. I'm kewl as long as you see me in chat. Posting something long for Adele makes me forget what i'm dealing with, for now. I'm holding on as far as i can go. That's all. ~ |
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Most of the time people just say 'sorry' without meaning it...  |
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| heres my problem... i hav recently became a fan of Lee Jun Ki n gets really depressed when i found out he likes a girl he worked with... i write his name on my hand everyday, cry when he cries in dramas... n get really worked up when my frens insult him... plz help.. i think im mad... wads te problem with me ? ... btw, i spent a bomb on his merchandise... haha... |
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Guess you have confuse between love and admire~or the other way round i could say~ You get into your world and love a person~that never know you (i understand your feeling..) Please do not get depress just because he likes the girl he has worked with.Instead,loving doesn't mean you had to have him by your side.. If you love him,you would want him get his happiness right? I would agree if you would love him much as you want him to love you much too right? The only way to express your love is by release your hand and let him love the person he loves.. (anyway..loving is by means giving happiness,and doesn't mean you had to have him) If he likes the girl he worked with,i would really hope and suggest that you would let him find his happiness and wish him the best,and not like those anti-fan,trying to do something that you could have hurt him. (don't say i don't know what is your feeling,and that i don't know~of course i know how is the feeling because i've giving my heart to someone in my first sight and get in love with that person till now eventhough i can't meet the person,i still wish that person forever a happy one~eventhough we can't be couple~i would want that person to be really really happy..to be really really happy..to get every happiness that person wants..and to get love with someone~of course i would hope it's me..but i would really give my all and wish for a good ending for that person's love..and now i'm crazy at the person and i don't think i would forever loving anyone than that person..) but just hope that..your feeling for that idol away~it would take just few days..or weeks~ just believe me..everything is going fine.. If you still feel hurts and get crazy,try not to think about him..try to do anything else instead of him at your sight Wish you a happy day~no more harsh feeling and craziness by your side...hope you happy |
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| ...he..help...my parents are swearing almost everyday....why cant they just get a divorce n get off with sqabbling n quarrelin almost everyday... mom says she wanna get a divorce but its against the religion n dad wanna get a divorce but without my mom, guess he cant live on . (God my ears hurt..T_T) "DAMN CUT IT OUT !!" <-- wad i always wanted to say... (btw , i REALLY love ur reply to my last problem... it rox~!! ) |
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O.O Yuki i never thought you had so much problems considering your attitude in the chat. Im shocked. Anyway, we as a child to them just cannot interfere with their problems. :/
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um...i got a lots of problem.when my parents shout at me i just keep quiet,feeling angry n sad...no matter what i say they dun belive me n sometimes i feel that they dun love me at all they only love my big brother cause he's so perfect...n i could never be like him...i'm the oposite of him.when i'm sad or angry i cry alonly in my room or write it in a piece of paper n throw it...sometimes i cut myself,tell the person who i can trust...or tlak to my cat...i'm not a positive person...i always think that even if i die no one would even know...how can i be a happy person?  |
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my first post here...and my first advise for mel. okay... to tell ya the truth. i have the same problem as you. my mom always compare me to my bro. saying that he always get bursary and stuffs, but i ignore them. okay maybe its hard for you to ignore. u can try looking up to your bro, but i doubt u want to do that. so i suggest just do whatever u want. live ur own life. dont care what they say about ur bro, unless its something good or something like tat. his ex-teacher taught me now, and when she first came and taught me, she said eh u (my bro's name) brother is it. so i said yes. then after a couple of months, my attitude was completely different from my brother. she will keep saying.." eh your brother is not like that one u know." i was like " can you stop comparing to my bro" in my mind. coz shes a teacher, i respect her so i didnt counter. after a long time, i finally countered her by saying stop comparing me to my bro. he and i are two different people, and of course different attitude. after that, she kept quite and stop comparing animores. my parents too compared alot of times, and so i said . "whatever he wants to do , let him do it. im another different person, so i do things my own way. " they too very rarely compare me to him after that. of coruse they did once in a while, but i ignored them. as to keeping quiet while ur parents scolding u, well, of course u keep quiet. unless u did nothing wrong, then u should counter them. if they don't believe you? well, up to them. they are your PARENTS. they should place trust in their children. but hmm...most parents dont just shout at their children unless you did something very wrong, which i doubt u did. they would just scold u , but not till the extent of shouting. *shrugs* guess thats my advice and my own problems, but ignore my problems people. i dont really have problems right now. :D   |
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Yuki: Don't worry~you are not the one that has the problem~My parents always swearing and i hate how they are doing it infront of us.. But to think of it..vulgar language is an express for their feelings..(well..goverment didn't say that using the vulgar language will get a prison entering or get fine for saying those language..) Anyway~if you parents are going to divorce,it's time for you to do something.As you know,love is something that can't force to have it~we can't do anything if someone wants to have divorce on it~ But then..you can do something so that they have the feeling back.I mean like trying to find back their old fond memories..sometimes those pictures help too~and then those romances..maybe they would get back together..rethink the whole memories..just because of the one picture.. About the vulgar language,you can try to have a regulation for your home.Like if someone is doing swearing or something,you said.."To prevent any more 'bad smell(or whatever),if you say any vulgar language,you had to get fine or something(you deal it..) Somehow..i think it works.. Oh ya..or when they are swearing,you can keep saying..'hey!not in front of me'..or put your hands in front of them lightly and say..'hello~calm down(smile to them)..what have you say..can you repeat again in front of me,in front of my eyes..?' If they concern you and love you,they would calm down and would say nothing and walk away.. Or not just have a big laugh..(laugh as much as you could) until they notice you while swearing.. if they ask the reason you smile,just say(if your parents are educated) 'i just don't believe that my parents are so well educated,and yet done something that has bring down their status' OR 'don't you think it's funny that when you keep swearing...you reminds me of those obaasan(i mean refers to those people that is down status,you name it) that keeps on doing those,making people hate them more..you guys just like them!' i hope it works~ |
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Ah~ I've messed up my sleeping schedule and forgot to post this .__. Dear Yukimi: A...actually Adele has said most what i would say, so I'm just gonna post some lil thoughts of mine XD. I can see the relation of your problem consisting your 1st and 2nd post. Altho it might be a 2 different thing, probably it kinda starts from the same source. You love Junki so much, yes that's very obvious. You tend to adore him and give as much love you could have for him. When you found out he likes the girl, you became crushed. Well this is not what i would exactly say as 'love' but like adele said, it's more to admire. The main reason why u became depressed was not because he doesn't have a crush on you, but the idea he was falling in love to that girl makes you think that you will 'lose' him. Correct me if i'm wrong :P Like what Adele said: he deserve to have a life of his own. I can imagine the jealousy you feel when one day your idol gets married with another girl, and the idea that 'he belongs to that girl' is slightly uncomfortable. But this is reality. Try imagining urself in his shoes. I used to have a big crush on Sanosuke Sagara and i had a heartbreak when i know he has a crush on another girl in Kenshin ;w; I had heartbreaks for months before I can said to myself: "Gawsh Hikky, you need a boyfriend! D:" xDDD There's nothing wrong to fangirl someone. I'm sure this love towards JUnki will slowly fade away once you've gotten a place to pour all your love to: example: a boyfriend ;P About you parents: i know how it feels to have your parents screaming to each other. It makes you think "If they hate each other why the heaven did they get married in the 1st place?" Yeah, times passes by and lots of things can happen in 10 years time (or more) as a child, we can't force them to be together for the sake for ourself. We can't force 2 people who didnt love each other to stay together. The idea might sound harsh, but yes, this is the reality :P I know your parents is on the verge of divorcing(i'm sorry for that) and they can't think wheather to do it or not. And most probably soon, they will ask your opinion about divorce. This is why you need to be prepared early for situation like this. I know you can't stand this and u want it to end. But at the same time ur hoping things would get much better. You could sit down and talk to your parent's and discuss, with no screaming and cursing. If your parents are throwing words to each other, you just need to be calm and act 'matured'. or maybe sarcastically say something like "lol, i thought i'm the one who was suppose to be sreaming like a childish girl. Now look who's screaming..." Probably sarcasm is the best way to tell your parents if the normal sweet talks just wouldn't work. SHow them that they are not acting matured at all by cursing and stuffs. And if you want to say "cut it out stop!" bla bla, you could just say it out loud. this is what i would say if my parents fight: "If you love me, then STOP ALREADY, ASAP!" xD that's just random bcuz my parents never really fight. As a daughter you actually have the power to make this stop, because parents will do anything for their child. However, don't meddle too much with adult stuff, because you'll feel the burdon on ur shoulder once u get involved with these topics. And i guess your love to Junki starts from the lacks of love(perhaps) from your parent. Probably you can't show the love to someone, and u have a big urge to pour it out. So it seems like you admires Junki and love him too lot.now that you might 'lose' him, you feel like you have no place to pour the love. That's just my opinions. SOrry if i wouldn't be much help since I'm sleepy when i wrote this :O. Here's a short message for you: "Love yourself more before you love somebody else ;) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dear Melanie: Gawsh, keeping your feelings to yourself is totally HAZARDOUS!!! (a.k.a. poisonous) please, don't hurt yourself, your soul is already injured, and don't try to hurt your physical x_____x i know the reason u cut urself is most perhaps that u feel invisible in ur family. Please don't think about dying when you can do something to change it x___x bcuz once ur dead, there's absolutely NOTHING you can do to change things. hear me? NOTHING!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I will edit this later since I can't open my eyes anymore x____x gomen. |
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Yukimi, sometimes it's hard for people to let go. They don't realize the extent of the damage they cause themselves and others when they fight in front their kids. Right now both of your parents are being super selfish. It's been my experience that when people are lashing out at each other, they are doing it to express themselves because of an inability to communicate in any other way. I am sure your parents are feeling their own individual pains and they don't know how to work through them. They are so wrapped up in themselves and their own issues right now that they don't seem to care who they hurt. My parents had problems but they at least made an effort to not fight in front of us. If divorce is not an option, then maybe it would be best for them to get help to work things out since they feel they are "stuck together" otherwise the two of them are going to build up a lot of resentment toward each other later while staying together. As far as your beyond fangirl attachment to Lee Jun Ki, maybe it would be best if you toned it down. Hikky is right. No one is saying you should give up on crushing on your favorite celebrity, but a crush should just be a crush. There should not be hurt feelings when the object of your crush (who has no idea you are out there and how much you love them) decides to announce their intentions to have a love life. melanie, I used to feel like my dad hated me. Not because I wasn't like him or my brothers... The military screwed up his physical so his records used say that his blood type was AB and my blood type was O- so for a long time I don't think my dad thought I was not his son but no one ever told me that while I was a kid. I was always treated differently. When my brothers had birthdays they would get parties and presents from everyone. On my birthday I would never get anything. When the chores had to be done I got stuck doing most of them but I never complained. I thought it was my fault and that I had done something wrong for him to hate me so much. It caused problems for my mom so for a long time I felt like my existence was just tolerated by my family. I thought that if I died that no one would have cared or missed me. When I was ten I took my bike out in front of some cars trying to kill myself and I got hit but it didn't kill me. My parents still think it was an accident. It wasn't until my dad had an accident later that year that we found out his record was screwed up. After that things changed a little but I guess he felt guilty because he still wouldn't talk to me for a few years. The combined effects of this life with my mom leaving us after I was falsely accused of a crime made me a maladjusted, distrusting, bitter, and angry person for a long time. When I met my wife I guess a part of me was still like that. I decided that I didn't want to go through life being that person anymore and I learned that only I can change who I am. Eventually you have to decide what type of person you want to be. Overcoming depression is not a change that happens overnight and I can not guarantee that you will find what makes you happy but I know the first step for me was attempting to take control of my life by changing the things about myself that I could control like holding in my anger. If you need to just talk to people there is always someone here. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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I used to always tolerate this, but I just can't now. Almost everyday, a teacher (or two) scolds my whole class. Not surprising, given the bad attitude of my classmates (not that I never do a bad thing in class either, but I've never gone as far as throwing a frisbee when the principal is in front of our class.). Although I'd always been able to tolerate it, it sure doesn't feel nice being scolded everytime. So, I tried improving; actually doing homework, revising, coming to classes on time, submitting things on time, etc. But this seems to have no effect, seeing how the teachers still scold the class often since my other classmates won't change. Last Monday, I felt that I've had enough. Even though I'm rarely the person the teachers scold, they scold the rest of the class within my presence, making me feel that I'm one of the scolded. It's starting to make me feel that my efforts are useless to prevent the scolding. No matter how good of a student I've become, if my classmates are still like that, useless. Trying to change my classmates? Futile. Even the teachers are now labeling our class as the worst one in the whole school, and I feel that I'll still be counted as "one of the worst students" even though I'm not a bad one.   |