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wow, happy birthday kai! you know we all listen! jomunga, i HATE fakers! fake goths are soo stupid! (trust me, when you are the genuine article, you can tell in an instant!) side note: my dad pulled me aside a few days ago and told me that he was cool with me being a goth..."as long as you don't do anything stupid like get piercings or a tatoo or something...besides, i think you look good in black." that is a reliefe. my mother is still mad at me....ugh  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-06 16:49:40
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At least we know that your dad likes you, more or less. Heh, Nightmare is the only goth I've known about, except for a my friend's girlfriend, and she was probably a fake one. No black clothes, no nothing.  |
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by night_link
on 2005-11-06 17:10:12
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i was gonna post on how bad my night was last night, but i was to drunk and i have a hangover right now. but couldnt possibly feel any worse then i did last night. like i said earlier, she was being all cute so i would go to the dance, but once i got there all she said "hey" and then ignored me for qutie a while, so i didnt feel like standing in the middle of the gym whit everyone around me just ignoring me so i went to a corner and sat on the floor for about an hour, then the whole group was walking by and kitsu-chan gave me a look like wtf so i got up and just walked around, the whole time she was dancing with everyone except me, and someone called her a dancing slut, i got mad at the guy who told her that even though it was true i wasnt gonna allow anyone call her a slut. it wasnt till the end that she danced twice with me. and there was this moment that i wish would have lasted forever, but nothing ever does. it was a slow dance and she strated dancing with some guy that was there, but then she walked up to me and started dancing with me, she was too hyper and was moving to fast for the song: me:"you are going to fast slow down" Kitsu-chan:"i can't" me:"you are too hyper, arent you?" both of us laughed me:"just follow me" so i grabed her close to me and slowed the pace down, and for about a minute or two we danced the way it was supposed to be, and just for that moment i felt like i was in heaven, i held her close to me and she was holding me too, i felt so happy, like i said nothing last forever, after that it was back to the crazyness and me being ignored. the danced ended really early, it was over at 11 and i just chilled outside waiting for her to leave and when her ride got there she just walked off with out saying a word. i felt horrible the whole time except for that moment. i was pissed too, cuz at the door they took my cigarretts and they said they were gonna give them back at the end, but when i asked at the end the lady there said no, that they had lied to me, it was a half a pack too, so i just walked to a different gas stations, but none where open, while walking i kinda bumped into a guy that was feeling the same way as me, so i got in his car and we whent to look for a open gas station, we found one and i bought a pack of newports, he bought a six of smiroff ice and two bottles of bacardi lime. we drove back to a park and sat on the hood of the car and drunk all our sorrows away. we talked about everything that was worng in our life and when we were out i told him if he could drive me back home and he did, when i got home it was 3. so i just when to bed, and didnt get up till like 5 today, with a hang over. and just feeling the same sadness. jomunga: i loved being her brother, and i treat her like a sister, but every day that goes by the pain becomes stronger, and i know her happiness should be mine, but how can i feel happy when i know it not me making her happy. it just hurts to damn much. i know that this was a long post and im sorry, but just felt like telling you all how it all when down. |
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Ketsuki, does Kitsu watch anime at all? I think this Kitsu lacks values, and is plagued by following societies current valueless crowd. Show her some anime that would get her to start thinking, something that would make her think twice about dancing with just any man. I think Ketsuki shows his emotion to much. Going into the corner and siting on the floor for an hour, very unappealing. Kitsu is acting all hyper and trying to have fun. You arent very fun. Do things that would add to the fun, do things that you think she would like, impress her. Make it seems like your the best guy there. I have no clue, think of your own things. If you want Kitsu you have to be able to appeal to her, be her ideal boyfriend. Get tips from her friends maybe? Gah, dont ask me Ive never been in love. Whatever, just try a different approach, thats probaly the best you can do right now. I have never been to a dance, dont ask me for advice there either. Nightmare that is the best news ive ever heard from you about your parents.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-07 01:39:19
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Dang, every time I get an answer to a question someone asks (which is like, once a year X_X), someone else answers it... Not enough brains...Spawn more brain cells. You require more vespene brains... I can think of too many of those things... Okay, okay, I must be smart smart now... Dangit, another immature moment... Well, I guess that's good, because I should be me, not be me trying to be someone else... >_< Insomnia is bad for me... It's 2:30 and I'm not a bit tired... Maybe I should play a game... Now I'm just typing my thoughts. That's not answering people's questions. I must answer questions... But I don't know of any... Okay, okay, okay... *ahem* Kai, do you know what was wrong with your post? I found nothing wrong with it, and if it IS bad, then that Japanese-character-guy-with-a-LOTR-sig should have his sick-sick siggy removed... You know, that "Horn of Gondor" one... And I'm rambling... I must sleep, but I'm too awake... Without sleep, there are no dreams, without dreams we fall apart... ...Is it really okay to be ourselves? Or should we be ourselves only if others like it? I know that 'yourself' is very vague, and it can change as much as you want it to, but if being yourself harms no one, should you be yourself? Or be someone else? |
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ketsuki...um...how old are you? you say you got drunk...but you seem a little young to be drinking. i have never even had a beer or anything...i know i am too much of a "goody too shoes" but i am kinda forced into it! |
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by night_link
on 2005-11-07 15:30:46 (edited 2005-11-07 15:31:23)
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jomunga: kitsu-chan does watch anime, alot, way more then me. but she is obsessed with yaoi, but if its real guys she gets disgusted. its sort of confusing. she wasnt dancing with just any guy, she was dancing with any guy or girl. she loves to dance, alot. and i dont know if i really know her anymore, but it still hurts. yes, i know i show my emotions to much, but i cant help it, thats just how i am, im run by emotions and not reason. Im not a very fun guy, maybe you are right, i might not be as fun as they are, and that might be because of my depression or maybe not, it could also be cuz they are a bunch of kids and i have grown to fast for my own good. and to try to e the perfect boyfriend, that i will not do, i will be me at all times in front of her, cuz i want her to know who i am, the words she once told me are always in my head, and i always wonder if im seeing the person behind the mask or the mask. so yeah. i actually like to dance, but i only know how to dance bachata, punta, reggetton (notice that all are spanish music and the dance was all english music). and also to see everyone with their own lil group made me miss my old friends, the ones that always stuck around me when i lived in NC. but since i moved i lost contact with them. and everyone's move on, everyone but me. im always stuck in the same place all the time. nightmare: im happy about your dad, sorry i didnt say it earlier, but i was still drowning in pain, i think i still am and if i am, then im to the point that its all just blah. im 19. yes, i didnt not buy it, the dude i ran into did, i used to be a goody too shoes, but i was pushed to the edge, and fell. so now there is only this fucked-up person you see here. life really sucks, dont it? |
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ketsuki I think I can understand how you feel. When I left South Carolina I left everyone behind for my wife including my friends and family. I thought all I needed was her. I tried going out and making new friends but no one seemed to match up to the friends I had in South Carolina because the people here are so different. I spent a good number of years alone before I figured out I was trying to find people to take their place instead of looking for good caring people just to be around. I wasted a lot of opportunities with people that liked me because I didn't give them a chance. I guess I was afraid they would replace my friends and a part of me wanted things to be the way they were before and I thought there was no way the new people could have lived up to those types of expectations. At some point you may have to get out and make new friends where you are. All you can do is let people see you for who you are and let them decide if they want to be around you. You'll decide when that time is right for you but when that time comes don't be afraid to let people befriend you like I was.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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ugh, i feel so worthless right now. this girl that i know (shes liek 12) set me up on IM with this other girl that had just broken up with her boyfriend, shes like 17....we talked for about 10 minutes and then she said i sounded nerdy (i do thalk that way) and she said i sounded desperate just becuase i said that a girls mind is more important than her body! so now im really sad...i feel like shit. i worte her a lengthy appology and goodbye, but i dont think she got it. oh well |
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Don't apologize! You were honest and said what was on your mind. If anything she missed out. 'sides you don't want a chick on the rebound anyway. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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nightmare, join the people who feel wothless club, im in it. i agree and disagree with doraemon at the same time. you should appologize to her, she was the one being mean, but i can understand why she was mean, she just broke up, and it still hurts her, maybe she didnt want to be hooked up, i know this cuz my friend abmer is going through the same thing, and she doesnt want to be hooked up, even though her bf of 3 years got a girl after a week of the break up. and she is suffering cuz of that asshole. but even if she was in a situation like amber, she had no right to treat you like that, and she missed out on a great guy. by the way, how old are you nightmare? doreamon, im not affraid of replacing my old friends, the thing is that everywhere i go everyone has their own lil group, and they have know each other for a long time, so they have history, and me,i would have nothing with them. they talk about things that happened and i have no clue what they are talking about. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-07 19:20:00
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I have a feeling that any moment now someone's gonna ask for my age, too. So, I'm 15. :P Ketsuki, you say that you always act like yourself, and show your yourself, but isn't that what Kitsu-chan is doing? She likes to dance, so she dances. It may hurt, but she's doing the same thing you do. Being herself. And I agree with you about the boyfriend/girlfriend thing, Ketsuki. |
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what i meant by saying that i dont know if i see the person behind the mask or the mask it self, i didnt mean simple stuff like dancing, i actually like her when she dances, its just that she got around on the dance floor to much, but thats just how she is. what i meant was her frienship towards me, she never answered a question i asked her after a coment she made when she was feeling depressed. she said that she was fake, that everything about her was fake, that her friends did know who she really was, and i asked her if i knew the real kitsu-chan, if our friendship was fake took, and there was no response from her, ever, and those words are the ones that are always stuck in my headin my head, and everytime she calls me brother, or says to do something for her it makes me wonder if she really cares about me as a brother, or if its just the mask and the real her would give a crap about me. and it makes me sad. really sad to know that i mean nothing to her. T-T |
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ketsuki You should give yourself a chance to make your own history with them. You can't avoid people for the rest of your days because you don't have a history with them and as far as nightmare is concerned, it's not his fault if she didn't want to be hooked up. She should have said so in the beginning. I don't think he should have to apologize for that. Especially considering the way she treated him. Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
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Ehhh... The thing between Ketsuki and Kitsu is soo confusing... You said she didn't tell you her answer... Maybe you could slowly and subtley lead up to asking the question, and when the time is right, ask her, but carefully. Don't want to push her over the edge, neh? |
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i'm not sure if i wanted to write here at first but after reading all 218 entries in the thread,i thought to myself'maybe i should write something that i haven't told any of my friends about down'.(took me weeks to decide that i should write this down) *fufufufufufufu* but enuff bout me,other's have it badly than me from what i read.all i could say is dun give up hope.cya Kay~(^^;~) |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-11-08 11:45:07
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Oh, man! I feel bad for someone else too! >_< My emotion points are rinning low... Not enough emo-points...Mine more emo-points. Bloody Moon (Takes too long for me to find the characters ^_^;), that's a serious problem. Maybe... It's that you simply aren't happy. If you aren't, then I suggest you find out what makes you happy. Heh, people think I'm 12 or 13, and I'm 15... lol |
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ketsuki...join the worthless club? i FOUNDED the worthless club. im 16...i seem to type that every few days or so...i really don't mind blood moon, i am glad that you decided to post...you should try and read the other thread as well! as for your problem...i really dont see the problem in it! not smiling is cool...i personally hate smiling (like for pictures) it makes me look stupid and unnatural... |