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on 2007-02-20 10:23:46 (edited 2007-02-20 10:29:35)
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~its been one year since i joined this site..and yeah.. i have met many friends..although im a little bit old of this..coz im 21..it never changes the fact..that on this site..becoz of this site..i have met the girl that i have been dreaming of for many years.. but..lets jsut say ive got dump..hurts..really hurts..pain almost unbearable..everytime i sleep..everytime i wake up..i always did remember her..and everytime i did..something cold i could feel in my itchy deepy heart!>.< i havent forgotten her..one year of waiting..one year of loneliness..one year of craving..yeah..i want to see her one more time..talk to her one more time..ask her why did she do that..embrace her like i always did..stare at her when she's not looking..caressing her smooth long hair as if she didnt notice..hold her hand while were playing gunbound..and ragnarok!^__^ talk about many mangas..talk about the latest singles of our fav rock bands..laugh with her..cry with her..be with her.. one more time! so patiently i wait..that someday..she'll post here again..that someday i maybe able to talk with her thru posting.. and it really hurts..coz in that one year..she also has fallen in love many times..and failed.. i want to shout at her and say this words to her face to face that I .. that i .. will love her 4ever..and ever..and ever.. >.< reading her blogs..its the only way i could have news to wats happening to her..but this month's blogs and last month..was really painful.. ~~~~ im gonna use a sentence that i found amusing..found it in one of my friend's Sig actually.. Being forgotten is worse than death.. creepy..  |
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I'm kinda depressed since I still have to go to school even with a bad back and slight fever...so much pain and migrain...TT__TT  |
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You know whenever romantic troubles come up I always feel overwhelmed at the emotions that it manifests. I do not have much experience in the romance area because all of the relationships I've been in up to now we're ruined because of some of my less than understanding qualities. And I have to say that I truly regret being so foolish. Pain, it spawns in many forms and stems into so many other problems. I have run practically the entire gambit of this peculiar emotion but I do not regret what I learned from it. Physical pain, I happen to be a sucker for this type of pain. Know that is only temporary. Your body will ever repair itself in one way or another. Physical pain heals with time, you need only to wait it out. Eat a bit of food, take a few ibuprofen, and drink a cup of coffee. You'll feel right as rain. The pain of a love that never was. That is one I know all too well. It is something you must cope with and may never be able to put into perspective. The only thing you can do is express your feelings. It is much better than letting all of your emotions bounce against your insides until they tear you apart from within. Then it will be all upon the person you care for to decide to accept or reject you. Even if you are rejected, be happy to know that you have been set free of the chains that bound you to that person. It has been my belief for many years that a bitter or unhappy ending is better than the perpetual emptiness of never knowing. If you cannot engage that person in order to show your feelings than it is better to let it go. It will hurt a whole lot. The kind of pain that will go through and through you and it will create scars that are everlasting on your heart. But to stare upon the past for an eternity is to lay waste to the bright future that lay ahead. Know that in this moment you are far from where you began and not even close to where you are going. The hardest part of holding on is letting it go. Just wait until the next sunrise because everyday is a new day. Be thankful for every breath you take and never take it for granted. |
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Life's like a game of monopoly, we all land on chance or the "?" but what we get from them is different. Sometimes we get things from other people, or just things to ourselves, but we can also be thrown in jail. Technically we can remain in there forever, but some of us have abilities that let us get out early and others are just plain lucky. The chances are high the will we get screwed over but that doesn't mean we have to stay that way. If we don't try we will be stuck in there forever, but there's always a chance that we can get out the next time our turn comes up. It's also not what we do in that hole it's what we do outside that really matters. You can buy all the cheap-lots and build them up or you go straight for the jugular and buy out the big ones. Either way you can be successful, but you have to buy something to win in the end. Sure you can get along without buying anything but you're either spending all your time in jail or you got really lucky and land on no properties. I also doesn't matter if your the shoe or the cannon (you could even be the rope from clue it doesn't matter), you still play with the same dice as everyone else. People think that if do something special like thrown them up or straight drop them that they'll get what they want, but the dice don't care what you do to them they still roll and show a number. The only thing that matters in the end is that you roll. If that made no sense, good. It's not supposed to now. It will when you do the things mentioned. |
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@rey: i'm sorry about what happened to you... @dark: wish you'll get well soon... @wolf: you are right... @d-ninja: nice put... |
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on 2007-02-20 21:03:35 (edited 2007-02-21 02:06:03)
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@Rey:I've feel that before and I know how mch painful that u have to take because of her.U've to wake up!Wake up.U cant stand there and wait for her.This is a reality.For her,u're nothing.U dont have to wait for her.U must build a new life and start to forget all those stuff.Love comes with painful.We cant deny that thing although u dont want feel it.Come on.U can be her friend.Best friends or best friends forever. @Dark:lol.Just be patient.Dont study too much.Sometimes u need to take a deep breathe.Relax and cool.Maybe u need some time to relax and calm down.No need to rush.Enjoy ur life!lol @Wolf:I agree with u!! @D-Ninja:U are the man that really can help us no matter what.:D |
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on 2007-02-23 23:15:19 (edited 2007-02-23 23:17:36)
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Some people believe everything happens for a reason. Some don't. Whether they do or don't is none of my concern. Nevertheless, I feel there's nothing wrong at letting things go. Yes, at first it doesn't seem right, but we're young and sometimes can't really understand everything there is in life no matter how mch we deny it. I don't want to sound like I'm just repeating what everyone else says, but there isn't that much to it. Life is chess. There are sacrifices and gains we learn so we can play better again. There's many ways to translate that. One way is saying you can't be a good player when you first start; sometimes people only have one relationship and both people are very happy with each other, sometimes people have to try again until they've found what they were looking for. Don't be afraid to let go of what you at one time had held so dear to you. You do grow up from practicing so. I had to make the same decision once and I didn't regret letting go because I felt like I understood more afterwards and ade me wanna live to see another day. I used to hear an African story about a hunter who was killed in the jungle by a jaguar, but nobody cnoticed when he didn't return. Until his newborn son asked where his father was, then his other sons began to wonder too and look for him. They found his body and brought it back to life. During a festival, the father had made a handsome cowtail switch and wouild give it to the son that helped bring him back the most. It was the newborn son, for a man is not truly dead, until he is forgotten. |
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@wolf You make me feel even more sad and depress T___T yes you are right, oneself happiness or sadness decide by himself/herself... argghh what am I talking about >>___<< mmm mochitsuke ore...  |
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guess the new depression thread is out eh..very nice timing.. haiz... "living is death as death is living.. good is bad as bad is good.." that is so true..i cant feel andy excitment when do something i use to like.. i use to like hanging out.. but i seems to hate it now..and i prefer to ba alone than few a group.. ._. im weird.. 
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I know that I do very little cheering up when it comes to this thread. I focus more on coping with the situations and handling it in, what I view to be, a rational and healthy way. It has been one of my longstanding beliefs that life will not and should not always be happy. Saddness and depression are the emotions that give me perspective on life. It is these emotions that allow me to appreciate happiness when it crosses my path and live my life contently. Scars are a constant reminder of the heartache and pain we have endured through our life. If it were not for the pain, confusion, and anger how could we ever learn from these dilemmas? How could we ever show others the way to avoid them? If we were to escape these trials by fire without injury then I beleive we would not distinguish them from any ordinary moment in our life. I'm still smiling as the day goes by. Does anyone know the reason why? |
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it is because you want to see everyone is happy.you don't want to tell them what did you feel because you don't want them sad.seeing them happy will make you happy although you are crying in your heart.you are afraid because you think you're going to ruin their life with your problems. you tried to smile.try to forget all those memories but you can't do it.why?I also don't know.when you try to smile,everything that happened yesterday,you're already forgotten about it.for you,smile will make anyone happy including yourself.smile can hide anything that happens in yourself and nobody will know about it.with smile also,you can cheer everyone and yourself in a bored day. sometimes,we have to dissapointed ourselves when you want to see everyone is happy. @shinji:you aren't weird.i've been through that before.perhaps,you need some time to be alone since you like to hang out. don't think about it so much.when u can't enjoy what are u doing something that u use to like,it is because you are worry about something.yes,the statement is true but u can't make it as a barrier.don't worry be happy. =) *i don't know if i'm helping u guys now* |
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First time I've ever been to this thread so I hope I'm doing this right. Ever since I started working this older lady (In her 50's by now I think) would get at me when I mess up, and it would be over little things(refilling the ice when its 7/8's full or stocking up napkins when only one or two have been taken). I normaly did them without question, because She would tell everyone on duty otherwise. well one of the managers got wind of her "problems" and now she treats me horribly, she cut my hours in half and told the other workers to fuss me if I ever stopped for any reason. I've been thinking of quitting but I really need the money, and most other places that will allow a 15 year old to work are full. =/ I just hate coming home every saturday and sunday pissed at my co-workers and manager. Another thing bothering me is that I can't seem to find what I'm good at =/, don't know if anyone else had this problem. some of my friends from school went to an event for Enginering Careers, I began to wonder what I wanted to do in about 6 years, and what I should take in college in about 2 years. I relized I didn't specialize in anything. I love art classes and I really want to be in the animation field, however most of the other students in the class (seniors) would get at me for not drawing "realisticaly" (if thats what you call a bunch of paint splots on a board) and did things more anime and manga related, I didn't let it get to me but they keep picking at me over it and I've begun to rethink my life.  |
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Wolf, perhaps it's merely that you've subconsciously found something your mind can wrap around to feel good. Or you're having a good time, that is possible right. Mars, there is no "wrong way" to do this thread. Jobs at your age are few and rarely enjoyed just don't let it become a pattern for later in your life. This links in with what you're saying about the uncertainty of your future. You'd be lucky to find anyone who knew exactly what they wanted to do when they were 15. Just do what you like and then find a job doing that and you'll be home free for the rest of your life. The thing you need to do is find something that you enjoy doing and do it. Not letting people get at you is another thing that's important, just brushing people aside and not letting purposeful stabs do any damage is a skill that everyone can work on. The best thing to do is just walk your own path and let it take you where it may. After-all it's your path and no-one can or will walk it. |
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| i feel depressed cuz i can't feel love from the relationship anymore... T_T |
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@Mars:u've never been wrong when u entered this thread unless u dont have any problem.(ehe?lol) at this age,u should be enjoying your life.it is because u have to concentrate to your studies not work.at this time,u'll be depressed because u've to work and meet people who can make u annoying at them.u'll be hating them and that'll make u cant enjoy ur work.if u really want to work,i suggest u not to care about them.just go on with your duty and try to enjoy it. just enjoy what do u have and what do u like to do.dont care what does people did to u. @Narcissus:dont worry,dear.one day,u'll feel it forever.believe me,everyone including u will feel it. *i guess i'm not helping..?..:X* |
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Most of the questions I pose are rhetorical and are only meant to get everyone thinking in a direction that would help them understand themselves. Esther I was surprised at your response to my post because it is actually very close to what I feel. Though it is less of a mask and more of an ambiguous gesture. DNinja you are right that when I reminisce I tend to smile a lot because no matter what the circumstances were I still look back on my past with a sort of fondness. Most of my time is spent out of direct contact with people which leads to my normal sour and frustrated disposition. To elaborate, I am the angry-looking guy you don't want to sit next to on the train. It's kind of like I am a stranger in my own life. The friends I have known for a very long time asked me why I changed so much. The reason we aren't so close anymore is because I did change. I think it's because when I was younger, I was so sure of myself. I did everything without thought, buffer, or recourse and that was just me. The dumbass who picked fights with everyone and tried to fly by jamming sticks into the ground. I would try to spend less time within my own head but, outside of sports, I am not a very out-going and confident person anymore. I think things through so much so that I miss my opportunity to do anything at all. I guess this is a just a testament on how hard it is to break the chain. Have I lost my mind or found it? I lost a lot of time in these strange days and I can't even tell what time it is anymore. I can't ever seem to make the right decisions but somehow I always find the right things to say. It amazes me I help anyone at all. Maybe I should try to be both the person I was and the person I am now? Maybe they have a lot to learn from each other. All I do know is that there hasn't been a morning since highschool ended where I haven't stared at the person in the mirror wondering who the hell he is. |
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hi, i`m new comer in this thread. i just want to chat and tell my feeling cause from this morning i can`t stand it. today, i feel depreeeeesed caused one bad teacher in my campus. because of those jerk give blank point in one of my test, i can`t write scription for final graduation. shit! althrough i don`t like it, i must wait second round in december.... so long.... my other friends will write in july and they can go away in december.... hua.... but, but, in that test i get A point, you know? i cry (what mistakes i do?) and i sad and other teacher can`t do nothing about that. why there is a jerk teacher in my campus? stupid, bad, @@***8^^^%%5..... hhh, thanks, i feel little better.
hitsu is so cool!
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im new..but im quite depressed today..i just learned that the guy i like(who like my bestfriend) and the guy that likes me( the guy i dumped..the HEARTBREAKING WAY) this bestfriend of mine..was real shy and polite before i got to that school..so..i learned that they see me as a bad influence to my friend..but seriously...they shouldn't just go judge me..BEHIND MY BACK...AGH!  |
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what if i feel depressed because there is nothing to be depressed about but depression itself? nothing depresses like depression. or rather, i simply am depressed. and nothing shall change because of that. continuity does not detach itself voluntarily, nor does my existence cease temporarily. and i continue through each day as if in an eternity, spare only by moments whereby i live the lives i see within each anime i watch. but you see, such depression is unimportant. it is unnecessary, useless, pointless. one cannot even complain about such without sounding absurd. and it is thus that i am trapped in what i do, what i am. in ones thoughts, all that remains is depression, nothing more. why? why am i depressed? i do not know. perhaps it is, as i have stated earlier, nothing more than the absurdity or routine. but yet it is peace that we all seek. the achiever seeks peace from the need to achieve, by achieving more. the artist, by means of expression. the greedy, through greed. and yet at the end of it, peace is naught but boredom, and melancholy. what i need, clearly, is a haruhi.   |