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by night_link
on 2005-10-10 21:48:10 (edited 2005-10-10 21:48:29)
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| I'm sorry the situation keeps changing ketsuki. As for your question, I would say you cannot say what the person can be. Who knows, maybe later the bond between you two will grow stronger than you first thought. I know still that if I had to go with someone that I felt was only a friend to or is only a friend to me, I would still love that person as much as I would the other. Hope everything changes for the better ketsuki. |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-10 21:43:35
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Umm... I'm not sure... I want to say "The one that loves you", because it's possible to develop feelings to return, but then your thoughts will stray back to the one you love... Both :P  |
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you know what, I will do that from now on. And it just ramdomly logs me out of the internet. There is no purpose in life, I cant find one. ok. Me and kistu aren’t back at all. It just some fucked up thing were we are friends but yet we are both very aware of the fact that I like her. If I had enough balls to ask her out on a date I would, I would kiss her too, but im to chicken. And my ex already know about us. I don’t really care about it, its just that now the whole school knows, thatnks to her and who ever told her, which I think it was kitsu but my ex wouldn’t tell me who it was that told her. Who cares, I just didn’t want the whole school to know until we got things straight between us. I need a car, I really, really, really, really need a car. Would you go for someone who loves you but for you she's only a friend or would you rather go for someone you love but for her you're only a friend? can anyone answer this.  |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-10 12:39:34
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I've wondered what the purpose of life is, and I've reached a conclusion; you do not "lose" when you die. death is simply when your Gameboy runs out of batteries. At which point, if more people are happy that you died than are sad that you died, you've not done well in life. So, my mission is to make as many people happy as I can, so that when I die, I can die without thinking "Oh, that person will be so happy that I'm out of his/her life..." Also, ketsuki, would it be easier to type out what you'll say in a text document, so that when you computer logs off (do you mean log off the internet or your account?), you won't lose anything? |
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i had typed alot, but my computer logged me off before posting. it pisses me of when that happens. i mostly get depressed at night, i get depressed during the day alot, but there is not a night when i wonder what is the purpose of it all. why am i here. and many more questions. so i live like there is no tomorrow. enjoy today, cuz there might not be a tomorrow, well most of the time i try to. i had typed alot about kitsu-chan and i was gonna retype it, but my mom say i gots to get off right now. (she will kill me if i dont.) so i will do it some other time. until then take care everyone "We cannot...we cannot go back to the past, no matter how hard we try. No matter how wonderful it was, the past is nothing but the past" |
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jomunga: well i first learned about the nightmare form the Magic the Gathering card of the same name, it is a very powerful card, so i liked it...i found out the legiond behind it while looking through my Dungions & Dragons Monster Manual (3.0 rules) and there it was, page 141, my flaming black beauty! So i read the bio and memorised the legind. it is a great creature, very strong (str 18, for those familiar with D&D) jet black stallion with flaming hooves and dark red eyes. 100% pure old fashind home grown EVIL! only the most evil charicters can ride them. (they reduce the heat on the area of ther backs so the rider doe not get burned...unless it does not wish to be ridden...heh)they are born in swamps, can fly, can turn invisable and project there minds into the mind of another, (causing nightmares) i just love them! Sachiel: i almost killed myself, but Alyssa stopped me...you know, i think the only reason that i have not commited suicide is the fact that if i died, she would be sad... Doraemon: i train with my quarterstalf...but mostly i like to meditate, but i do not get may chances with my mother yelling all the time...ugh but i broke my quarterstalf yesterday at camp, it splintered off and cut my hand pritty bad...the blood was so beautiful...so i need to find another stalf...and my confidance has been shot to hell by the shotgun known as parents... |
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nightmare, You don't have to go outside to be active. I got an exercise routine from the school library and started training in the isolation of my room whenever my parents grounded me. Most of the time that was the only physical activity I got when I was younger. Working out that way made me stronger and helped me develop confidence.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-09 12:37:07
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I changed who I am... about 2 years ago, I had a knife and was ready to kill myself, but I didn't. I kept on going, and now, through many many things, I am a happy person. Kinda like with drugs and cigarettes. I did it, so can you. |
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Nightmare where did you learn about the nightmare(horse). I learned about it from playing a might&magic game, but I dont know the tale or story behind it, or where it originated from.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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well, im back...a few cuts and a burn, but im alive. S-a-c-h-i-e-l: I like your signature...the fact that my guardian angle is always with me is very comforting...and it is very difficult to change who you are. åƒé³¥ãŠãƒãƒ“ : welcome! I am glad you are here! no, i will not change my name, thank you very much. The flaming black nightmare is a very beautiful horse...deadly, but beautiful. I am amased that all you need to do is pray to God and you feel better. to me, praying for others makes me more depressed because i think about all thoes unfortunate poeple that you mentiond...both thos i know and thoes i do not know.. but welcome, and i am happy to hear your imput! ketsuki: you and i are more alike than i thought kirisuto_kyo: you sound like my teacher Fr. McErnan...i like that stand on God Lady rin: I wish i could be active, i wish i could go out and do things...but i am practically chained to this house...so it is difficult, i have no dobut that that is one of the factors of my depresion, but it is one that i cannot avoid right now. thats all folks! |
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mi-chan i wish i could deal with something like that so easily like you. i would probably have killed myself by now. dude and your the same age as me. lady rin, i havent, in any ways. we were just friends and i told her i like her and that was it. i know its stupid, but im shy around girls i like, really really like. if i didnt care about her it would be easy for me to make moves on her. but i do care about her and thats what makes it hard. i have though many times of kissing her, but never have gone through with it.*hits self* talking about my problems do help me not be as depressed, but i rather keep most of them locked inside me. that way my friends and family wont know that im depreesed and i can keep on pretending like everthing is alright. |
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by åƒé³¥ãŠãƒãƒ“
on 2005-10-08 00:25:02
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I'm actually not as strong as I look. Everytime my heart aches, I asked myself "Is it my time already?" I'm scared. I really don't want to die so young. But then, my parents and brothers, sisters and friends, they seemed to worry more about me. Even my boss, He asked me "Hey, how's your blood pressure today?" He was also shock when he heard that my blood pressure roses up to 180/130 when my heart aches. He told me again "you're so young, should take care of your body more and don't get so depress. See now you're only 19 yrs, that's mean if you're lucky you'll eventually have to be on medications for the rest of your life" I know, everyone is concern and worry about me and how could I let them know that I'm really depress bcoz of this, thus, I seek for counseling from my bible studies tutor. She would visit me once in a week. She even shared with me pictures of some of our brothers and sisters staying in a small village in Bangladesh. They were there to do social works. One of the sisters visited me last week and shared abt her life and death in Bangladesh. I know I should be grateful and stay to the fullest and most important I don't want anyone to worry about me anymore. Even my boyfriend, I think he seems kinda upset knowing that I had a heart problem. We've not spoken to each other for quite sometimes already...~_~ If he plans to break off with me, I guess I'll convert and becomes a nun instead :P just joking. There's plenty of trees in the forest ;P sou desu ne, mi-chan power up!! ^_^ All the best to you all ^_^ mi-chan
馬鹿ã¯æ»ãªãªãゃ直らãªã„。
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by night_link
on 2005-10-07 22:31:28 (edited 2005-10-07 22:33:10)
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Well, there is still hope I found somewhere somehow by someone despite all the times I wanted to fall. I used to blame myself for looking on the bright side of things too much but that's before. I hope everything goes well everyone because somehow things end well (for me at least). |
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S-a-c-h-i-e-l you have an interesting way of putting things. however all of that has been said many times. I do bettr by stuffing them with Ollliebery pie. Ketsuki have you kissed her? I mean a loving kiss not a sexual one. Both of us understand about depression, and talking about it is one way of dealing with it. However oyu also have to get out and do something. Please don't sit around. force your self to be active in something else. I can't stand it when Ranger's Cooped up for days. he gets the same way as a lot you do. It was really bad in Sept since he was only working one day a week. It's better nowe that tourist season has started. Kirisuto, He is a She.  |
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by kirisuto_kyo
on 2005-10-07 21:17:26 (edited 2005-10-07 21:18:09)
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haha, i think i said something in this forum already. well lately i've been a little depressed about school. i had to drop physics and AP english cuz it was too complicated and i couldn't take it. the class i don't miss is physics, but i really liked AP english. it's just that i sucked at answering the prompt for in-class essays, which is like, 55% of my grade. i'm also doing poorly in math, a subject i always struggled with. uggghhhh, i wish i didn't have to do all this. on another subject: yes, God is suppose to be a God of love and that's a common question everyone has, why He lets bad things happen. He doesn't control it because He wants to give us the freedom of making our own decisions. heck, if He controlled everything then we'd all just be useless pawns in some world. but He wanted us to experience life with choices to make and learn from them. i pray to God when i get depressed. i feel a little better when i can talk to someone and just let it all out. it's nice to know that at least someone's always listening to me ramble on about my problems. 
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not to offend you, but im not so big on god. my whole family is catholic, but me. i pretend to be just so i wont have to deal with their bitching. i pretend to be something im not in front of my family. but thats not that poin. i know that god is supposed to be a god of love, but how can he lets all this horrible things happen to kids(kids who get raped and stuff) . he is supposed to love them, yet he doesnt stop it. he is supposed to be almighty and shit but he does nothing about it. so thats why i dont believe all the bullshit that church tries to put in our heads. im sry to hear about you condition. but by your words you seem to be a strong person. and i wish you gets better. please enjoy your life to the fullest. have no regrets. im also a pessimist, but i enjoy life the best i can,its just that at the end of the day i wonder wat all this is for, what is the point of it. and i get depress. so i dont worry about the future, i live life one day at a time. if there is a tomorrow for me, i will see it, and if not ill be happy that i have no regrets in the choices i have made in my life. and thanks to everyone here, i gots the courage to tell kitsu-chan how i felt, it may have affected our friendship and all but i dont regret it. im happy i did. and i forgot what i was saying, sorry. i just dont have much of an attention span. |
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by åƒé³¥ãŠãƒãƒ“
on 2005-10-07 06:29:08 (edited 2005-10-07 06:36:26)
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I prayed to God whenever I've got depress. Praying to god to give me strength to overcome my own weakness. The greatest weakness is in your heart and not your mind. Thus the only thing I can do is to let my mind overrule my heart. Have to weight the pros and cons. No point of crying over a spilled milk. The past are memories and a strength to keep us to become a stronger person. No point of sitting there and say 'I'm like this. Just let me be like this, forever' At the end of the day, regretting that you've not enjoy to the fullest. Imagine, outside the world, those terrible ppl don't even have the chance to see their future. Perhaps if you see this flash animation, you'll feel that you're being lucky to be able to live coz some ppl don't even have a chance to see the world and not to mention sharing their feelings with others. It's so sad T_T that why, must not let yourself suffer. Phew, it's been so long since i've poured out. Just recently I was admitted to hospital, doc said that I had heart problem *forget what term the doc says - starts with Arrhy..something something* My parents and friends are worry dead about me. Their supports had meant alot to me. I'm not going to give up my wonderful life becoz of this. I should even enjoy myself to the fullest. Maybe someday, some of you that I know might say "Eh? Where's mi-chan?" But still my names will alwz be here in this forum ^_^I want to smile everyday, I want to be happy all day long coz I dunno what is there for tommorrow but right now, I've got many friends here and there, my important family that alwz stood by my side. If I carry on being depress, it'll only worsen my situation and make those who care for me even more worried. Finally,take a step out and look at the brighter side: What? It's rainign there? Ano ne, take up the umbrella and wait till the rain stops. Then you'll see sunshine after the rain and a beautiful rainbow ^_^ All the best to you, oh don't call urself nightmare anymore, call urself 'sweetdreams' Know another thing, mi-chan wanted to become a mangaka n right now I'm still working hard to earn more money to fullfill my dream. Japan, here I come ^_^ wait for me ^_^ Ara, mi-chan almost forgot about the link. http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/22661479/ To anyone who still have doubts abt their lifes. May god bless you all and guide you all to see a better point of view in lifes. Ja mata ne, mi-chan
馬鹿ã¯æ»ãªãªãゃ直らãªã„。
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-07 05:55:18
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The deeper the wound, the better it is to heal it... |
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it is hard to change from a pesimist to an optimistic person...
smile smile...
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by S-a-c-h-i-e-l
on 2005-10-07 04:58:32
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Well, if what's making you sad is being a pessimist, then don't be one. |