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heh, happyness. thats a good one! |
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We need to try for our goals... Rin, I hope you and Ranger reach eternal hapiness. |
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that's good. the best is all you can do sometimes, i suppose. hang in there, everyone!
nya........... hehe.
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At one time it was survival for Ranger and I. I think that's probably the reason he wrote those books in the first place. Only we found it wasn't enough just to survive. We wanted to live to find happiness to put survival on a backshelf. It took a major change in our lifestyle, in everything we did. Today we are happy for the most part although Rangers mental health is a problem sometimes. We try. We do our best. ![]() |
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by night_link
on 2005-09-18 20:48:18
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I finally understood what andreyev wanted to say and was going to yell at him maybe, but he already left... oh well... Something happened recently though to me. My father was in a really dangerous mood after some Chinese wine. This wasn't the first time though. But this time, he started picking on my younger siblings for the stupidest thing like answering back or something. Finally when he was yanking them, I yelled out "#@%! off! Let her go!!" in Chinese. It didn't end there though, he focused on me then. He taunted me and asked whether I was ready to fight, but I said I would handle the situation from now on and that's what's set. I wanted to fight then and get rid of all the confusion I was having. Things like how sometimes your parents aren't right and sometimes you have to stand up even when you might have to stand alone. Now, everything's just without communication between me and my dad. I said that I knew a better way to handle the situation and that I would handle it. It's not a pretty picture from my mind, but there are worse that don't have anything to do with me, which I'm thankful at times. Your comment nejigirl made me want to share so at least you're not the only one with that kind of problems. Hmm... survial first and happiness second... I still think that in a way that survival first, other people's happiness, and whatever until mine is last. But isn't it funny how sometimes you want to worry about someone else or yourself first and the other person says the opposite? |
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some very good definitions. i think that the "trial by fire" is what this thread focuses on. i suck at physical chalenges...but i like to think that my wits and will are in good shape. good for you nejigirl, im glad you have commited to survival...if you try to survive AND be happy, you will go insainbecause you must focus on one or the other...im glad you choose to live on... by the way, did you tell your father about the wine? that is pritty bad. i hope everything turns out ok...i am sure it will |
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i found a complete unopened wine bottle in my mother's purse, and i suspect that she was going to consume it herself, and alone. *feels afraid of uncertainty* and as for survival... i've been taught to survive first and be happy second. that's what i do. and not to look back, either.
nya........... hehe.
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Ranger teaches trail safety and survival. This is from one of his books. Survival on an intellectual level can be thought of as a series of trials to your being successful and making it out alive. • Being thrown to the wolves a test your wits, skills and knowledge. How do you beat the odds that are quickly stacking up against you in a hostile environment? • Running the gauntlet; the physical trial. How long can you keep going? That really depends on your heath and physical condition when you start of your trial. It is not necessary to have great physical strength to run the gauntlet. • Trial by fire, a test of your will, courage and heart. This is where you face your challenge inside, take control and do what needs to be done to ensure your safe return. This is also where you face your demons and conquer them. These are not only lessons for survival but for life as well. I am very pleased that you passed your trial. I am very happy to hear that you felt my prayers helped. ![]() |
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well first off, i would like to tell you all that i passed my Ordeal and made it into the Order of the Arrow, Migisi Opawgan Lodge 162!!! the Order of the Arrow is an eleat national honors society for boy scouts...im so happy. and i think i must thank Lady Rin for her prayer to the four winds...sence the Order is a Native American society, (Migisi Opawgan means "eagle with Peace Pipe" in Native American) i feel that her prayer helped give me the strength i needed to get through my Ordeal. (that is what its called, no joke) and so i thank you for it! i am so glad that Ranger is feeling better. being a Bomb/Nav can be quite a hare rasing experience, considering that the bombers need to rely on escorts for defense...and there is no theripy like killing simulated godless commie terrorist bastards... ahh, the movies...i can imagen how that must be like...*grumbles* zparticus: i downloded it off of Bit Comet... |
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by zparticus27
on 2005-09-18 03:40:11
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man!where did you see it? cant wait for the dvd!thanks for the info man! hey seki...saw your pic on a thread!hehehehe who's the chick man? btw...this is probably one of the most popular threads in gendou!keep it up! |
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Ranger was a BombNav. wile he is pilot trained and rated he was never a command pilot, the person who actually flies. Howeverr the Bomb/Nav has a number of jobs to do and is the aircraft commander.He sits inthe right hand seat or in the back seat. When we fly today I usually take the right seat and he's in the left, the command pilot. That means I'm the A/C commander. *giggles* Ranger is doing much better this morning. He saw his therapist and is now in his flite sim killing simulated godless commie terrorist bastards. We're going to take Wendy my best friend and the three of us are going to go to the drive-in movies tonight, that always makes him feel better. This is sort of like a community event at the drive-in. ![]() |
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well first off, i just wanted to tell you all that i will be leaving for a campout tonight and i wont be back untill sunday morning...just saying that incase any of you decides to worry about me or something... Lady_Rin: *takes cookie* You are so very welcome, the curse of the warrior is something that is absolutly dreadful, i must say that you are a very strong willed woman to be able to comfort Ranger like you do. I thank you for your prayers as well! i have always loved Native American prayers...i find them to be very beautiful. That is a very beautiful story about the ribbins...i have no doubt that they proteced him and still do. Being a pilot can be a very dangerious busness. (was he a dogfighter, or a bomber pilot, or a cargo pilot?) It sounds like you have a very beautiful tradition going...one based out of love, the best kind! Heh, look, right...see there inlieys the problem, i cannot look, i am not alowed out of this house, remember? basically, im kinda screwed in that regard. damn parents... but i look wherever i can, but it does not look to promising, all the girls around here are all sluts and whores. i really do not think there is a girl for me...but i suppose i will keep looking anyway. and thank you for the tea! Kei: the quote is "when you are in pain, you can still sleep eventually, but if you cause pain to others, you will never find rest." but i do not think that is the case here...not totally, anyway. ranger has probibly seen some pritty horrible things...i cannot imagen how hard it would be too see your best friends plane get shot to hell, or having a buddy die in your arms...I know I would be tormntedd by the look on his face...i really do feel sorry for him, he is a good man, at least he has a good woman to comfort him! andreyev: SEE YA! zparticus: oh ya, it lives up to ALL the hype...yep it finishes it off really nicly. (there IS , however, a way to add on still...you will find that out.) and *slap* ugh...well no, they scaped down Tifa's "jugs" because any normal woman would never be able to stand with "jugs" that huge! she still is very beautiful, though, and still packs quite a punch...(this one guy picks a fight with her and she sends him through the wall of Aries's church...all because he stepped on the flowers...heh) you know, it is interesting, both Tifa, and Cloud have red ribbins tied aroud there left arms. |
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by zparticus27
on 2005-09-16 05:33:05
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man i really cant wait for final fantasy 7:advent children... hope it gets here in the philippines...hey nightmare tell me one thing...does it really live up to the hype?does it really finish the whole ff7 saga? and does tifa still have the same size jugs?...hehehehehehehhehehehehe |
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i will leave this thread. This doesn't suit me at all. thank you.
God's in his heaven. All's right with the world.
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But I do hope Ranger will cheer up soon. |
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It's like what they said in FMA (at least i think it was from FMA), when you kill, you can never sleep easy again. Forgot the exact quote. |
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Hey Rin, have seen the anime Air. The wrist ribbon thing just reminded me of that anime. It was good despite the ending. |
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*Enter Lady Rin with a plate of cookies and a pot of tea* Nightmare thank you very much for you kind words. Ranger's depression comes from war, stress and living with death and destruction for too many years, that is one thing warriors suffer from. I have lived with this for a long time and I care for him as best I can when he's this way. I have seen Ranger cry, I've seen hom break down completely and we both know it's good for him. somewhere here is a thread on relationshis I started that flopped in there I say that life is a sharing and dependence. I share this with him like everything else in our lives. Thank you for your prayers and for you I shall return I shall burn sage and say prayers to the four winds for you with my friday prayers. It is a custom of the Native Americans that is a part of our lives along with Friday candles. The white ribbons started when we met, on that first mrning together. As he left took the ribbons from my hair and he said he was going to keep it for luck when he was flying. over the years I continurd that. when he would go into harms way I would put a white ribbon into the pocket of his flight suit hoping in my heart they wold somehow protect him.He returned every one to me. some of them quite dirty. I still have four of tem. One covered in hydraulic fluid and three others stained with his blood. When we had children I started tying them around their wrists and then started doing the same for him. I have done that since Ya was born, she's the oldest and she now does that to Talia my granddaughter who is a year old. It is some of my love for my family, a piece they can carry with them. We know we have a special relationship since we only know two other couples, who are very old friends, and who are the same the same way. Nightmare if you look you shall one day find someone to comfort and that person in return shall comfort you. uncorrected ![]() |
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Nightmare's last post made me laugh. Not in a comical matter, but it made me wonder what the hell we were all just arguing about. Sometimes you just know when to start baking some more cookies, but since I can't bake or even cook, I'll just open up a package of pocky and listen to the most fluffy and happy music in my arsenal. |
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andreyev if it really is such a pain in the ass to see people around here, then don't come. why would we even bother to make an effort to make a thread about you? we'll just ignore you. till you cry for more attention. don't throw sand in our eyes please.
Veni, Vidi, Vici.
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