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People over 21 who like anime? Well, just on this site there's Seki, Lady Rin, desertranger, and another guy whose name I forgot who was 26. Gendou is 21, and I don't think he'll stop liking it on his next bithday. People I know in Real Life--hmmm, this one's harder. But there are still some people. One of my friend's mother's likes anime (her favorite one is InuYasha). Also, one of my mom's friends--who believe it or not is over 50--also likes anime. She hasn't seen much beyond most of the Miyazaki movies and I think a few others, but she likes what she has seen so far. Slowly but surely, anime is taking over the world :P I wonder, what will all our kids like that we totally hate? Lucian: I'm not quite sure what you're talking about. In your posts on the forum you seem to be a normal enough person... I look forward to further explanation.  |
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Well, since Nightmare and Nejigirl told their story about their parents problem I thought I would share some of mine. I'm sure everyone got something to complain about their parents, but my parents really get on my nerves. My dad now cooks the dinner mostly. I was watching stuff on my comp when he said dinner is ready. I know he said that twice but I wasnt that hungry so I thought I would eat later. Then my dad just get pissed off saying I dont go out to eat immediately. I mean, what's the difference with eating now and later? He makes this excuse saying that if i eat later i would be too lazy to cover the food afterwards. I mean, all he needed to say was "if you are going to eat later, you have to cover the food up yourself" it would be that simple but no, he denies it but I can tell he just want everyone in the house to obey every one of his command. And if someone doesnt obey his commands he gets pissed off. He's one of those typical Chinese fathers who believes that his family have to obey his commands. And I dislike my mother coz she's a bloody hypocrite. In an argument, I would tell her to shut up when I didnt like where the argument was going. She tells me dont tell her to shut up coz she's the mother. But when the argument doesnt go her way, she tells ME to shut up. That is totally unfair. Why do I have to shut up and she doesnt? Is being older means that you are above the rules you made? She also complains when I argue for too long. But when she starts my mother can go on and on for an hour or more. And after a while, she can sometimes start the same line of argument again. So why is aint I allowed to tell her to shut up and go on and on while it's ok when she does the exactly the same thing? One other thing that both of them do, they told me when i was in primary school that a person shouldnt threaten others but what do they do? they threaten me. Sometimes they would threaten to hit me if i dont obey their commands or threaten to take away this and that if I dont obey their command. C'MON!! As a parent you have the duty to uphold what you tell your kids to do. But these parents of mine have this double standards where it's not alright for ME to do something while it's perfectly alright for THEM to do it just because they give birth to me. And by the way, did I ASKED to be given birth to? NO!! I REALLY REALLY dislike my parents. IF i had enough money I would move out of this godforsaken home and live by myself or share with a few friends. But unfortunately, as everything else in my life, I dont have the money to pay for the weekly rent plus food costs, plus other costs. I already suffer enough in other areas of my life so why must I suffer here too?! One's home is SUPPOSED to be the place to go back to feel comforted. But NOT for ME! Nothing has ever gone my way, NOTHING! I just want some understanding from people, is that so much? Is it too much to ask that I be given a corner of my life where my bad luck WONT touch?! I said it once, I will say it again, I HATE MY LIFE! I HATE THIS WORLD!! AND I COULDNT CARE LESS IF MY LIFE ENDED RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW!! |
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This sounds alot like Nightmare's problem. Check back to see if any of the tips we gave to Nightmare would help you.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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seki: don't even bother with the masks...they just shield you from people...let the mask down...trust me, you'll be alot better off! yes, your problem is alot like mine...my attitude latly hasn't been good. see, everything is starting to fall into its proper place, and i don't like what i see...Live sucks, i wish i was never born, and i just want to die... Lucian: i didn't even know what half of that ment... goth: once again, you probe how alike we are...my parents think ill become a drug addict or get a girl pregnant if they let me go to the ice cream shop...no, i will NOT enjoy the weekend...because its another weekend that i have to live...maybe i SHOULD get hooked on acid or heroin of Weed...(im joking, id never be THAT stupid) today, my mom flipped out because i used a marker to paint my fingernails black...HOWEVER, she bought me my first pait of jeans in 7 years!!! (she bought me blue jeans...and i bought some black ones out of my own pocket.) could she be turning nice on me? no. i have also decided that on November 29th 2006 at 1:35pm (18th birthday) i am moving out of the house to live with my friends...i just cannot stand them...  |
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Nightmare: you should definately do that, move out as soon as you can. There are a number of reasons... First, once you move out and are away from their control they will see that you will not immediately become a juvenile delinquent without them around to "protect" (smother) you. Second, if they really do care about you (and you've said that they do, they've just got a messed up way of showing it) then they will miss you and be willing to make concessions to get you to move back (if you have any interest in moving back) Third, if I'm wrong or if you don't want to move back, you could stay at you're friend's place until you can find a job and afford a place of your own. |
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I haven't read through the whole thread but I kind of have the jist of things. I'm just thankful that I've never had to go through what most of you have gone through, I was lucky rnough to have my parents get a divorce before things got too rough. The only advice I can give is that suicide is not the answer, it is not an option. I wish i could be on the same level as you guys so I could understand much better but what I lack in experience I make up for in my value for human life. I would mourn anyone here should their life be taken by homocide or suicide. If you feel like you want to die, please watch the music "Hold on" by Good Charlotte. I watched it in the middle of class and nearly broke down into tears, I didn't know any of the people there or anything. Please don't ever consider anyhting of the sorts.
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| I'm not sure if it is a good thing for me to let go of my mask for now Nightmare. The mask I put on shows to other people that I have no problems wif life, no trouble and all that. But really, inside me, I feel like I wanna either to yell/scream like mad, cry like there's no tomorrow, or want to just smash anything or everything that I see. If I took of my masks then that's what people around me would have to face. I think I should spare most people from that side of me. |
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if it makes anyone feel better, i worked very hard over the summer and got paid 6.75!!!!! >.< seki, i know how you feel, because a mask is something that i use to protect myself whenever i'm around other people, sometimes including those close to me... but you need to express yourself, even if it comes in mood swings or something, because otherwise you might express it in ways that can harm yourself, and that would be horrible and would get me upset, so don't do that because we all care for you. also: if you find someone who loves you, they'll love you with your faults and assets... they would accept that side of you. there will be no need for a mask... whatsoever. hang in there until you can find someone to love you! and if not..... don't get mad, don't get revenge, simply get ahead. improve yourself and focus on becoming stronger, and if you pledge your heart to it you will see change.... and that will inspire you to hold on..... that said, know that we are here for you... by the way, if anyone on this thread wants to talk to me, my s.n. is sorrykitsune (on AIM). talking helps, as long as it's someone you trust, because otherwise it just blows. hehe. and yeah, Sai, i know how you pent-up and frustrated you feel due to the financial dependance you have upon your parents... so many people around me see college as freedom from their parents; one false move and they won't pay your next tuition bill.... it's sickening, really... and yeah, i cried during that music video too... it spoke to me.. and gave me inspiration to keep going... there's other music like that too, music's always been a center for me.... but if i listen to anything by Switchfoot i get really, really depressed... so, yeah. heh. and nightmare, hang in there. my family's kinda well-off {well, my dad is, and my mom married him for money, he was tricked sort of}, and so they buy me things to compensate for an actual relationship.... i have givenchy clothes and nice shoes, but not parents that i can talk to....
nya........... hehe.
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ok, first off, im really pissed...just to let you know... oldcrow: excelent reasons! ill be sure to print thows out and site them... Sai: you imput is appriciated. The first time i watched "Hold On" i just didn't care...because guess what? it DOES NOT get better...and suicide is just an easy way out. suck it up and take it like a man. (or woman). personally, i thought it was kinda funny. but the camra man was on something...and the acustics sucked...all thoes people crying about dead people ruined a perfictly good song. needless to say, i despise that song and i dispise good charlot for making it! the only bands i like are, MCR (My Chemical Romance), Evanescence, Guns'n Roses, and Linkin park. Seki: i can understand how you feel, but i have to agree with nejigirl...you have to let people see the real you...have you ever heard "everybody's fool" by evanescence? (or watched the music video?) do you really want to end up like that? BTW if you havent seen it, its on www.evanescence.com nejigirl: my aim is nightmare0588 we should talk sometime!!! now then, my dad and i had a talk last night...(it was more of a fistfight than a talk) and he convinced me that grades are the OPLY thing that matters untill im out of collage. soo.... #1 i am abandoning all the things i like including but not limmited to...anime, Magic, Warhammer 40000, red vs blue, reading, video games, TV, and movies. #2 i am compleatly and utterly givving up my search for a girlgriend on the grounds that A. dad says that "women will only destract you from your studies" and B. my "type" of woman died out over 800 years ago. there simple is NO woman on this planet that can love a man for who he is. #3 I have come to realise that true happyness does not exist. it is an illusion created by the human mind to shield itself from the harshness of the world. so i am throwing it out the window. ill never be happy, so why even try? #4 i am abandoning all my friends on the grounds that they will just pull me down and screw me over in the end. i need friends to survive, so im getting rid of them. #5 i have lost all hope regarding life. note tht i will NOT commit suicide, as it is an easy way out. but i am activly seaking death in ANY form... please note that i am EXTREEMLY mad right now and i will probibly take most of this stuff back in a few days...but untill then...i realy dont care about ANYTHING except school |
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Nightmare, I sincerely hope that you do take that back soon! If you stick to your guns on this then you'll end up ruining your life by giving up everything that you care about. Don't let your dad convince you to abandon everything except school, this is just another example of your parents trying to control you and make into their version of the "perfect child." Don't let them do it! |
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nejigirl: Im sorry for how i acted on IM, as you said, i can be stubborn sometimes...im sorry if i made you angry. i have a habbit of doing that sometimes. im really not sure what i think anymore. ok, this is how i see it...my life sucks. i try to help others, but the world screws me because i do good. but i want to get noticed, so i talk about my problems to people. people give me pity. i like bing pityed. so i keep talking about it. MY GOD im such a horrible person.............im truly sorry for all the trouble i have caused all of you. i promise i wont talk about my problems any more. they are my problems, I should be the one to deal with them...im sorry...i wont bother you anymore. farewell my friends, nightmare |
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don't do that..... that's just in a sense giving up as well. just focus on other things. i'm not cheery because i think the world is good, i'm cheery because my attitude makes it good... keep talking. don't be dramatic. simply be honest with yourself or something...
nya........... hehe.
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Nightmare...don't worry, you haven't been causing any of us any trouble. If it helps you to talk about your problems, then you should talk to us. After all, you're not forcing yourself on anyone, if we didn't care then we wouldn't respond to this thread. |
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well, thanks guys...and i herby recend my earlyer stuff...i dont think i could make it without anime... |
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. . . hehe.
nya........... hehe.
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Ahhh, I though Nightmare was gonna leave us. Without Nightmare this thread with over 1000 views and 100 replies wouldnt be here. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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| is it me or isnt this thread the most popular in gendou?! |
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Well, I let my mask down at home but I got the reception I expected. Everyone in my family just tell me to shut the hell up and stop banging the walls. And that if I'm gonna yell, cry, or hit something go do it outside (err.. it's in the middle of the night, where can I go outside?). Anyways Nightmare, glad u didnt give up on those things u said. Not good in trying to cast all these things away. Like you said you probably couldnt live wif out anime coz it's one of the things that give you some sort of joy in your life, wif out them, yu will actually feel like you wanna die. I tried doing that too but I found out it's impossible, once you got out of your shell, there is no going back. |
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*sits down and hugs seki* don't worry about it, it'll be okay. and this is a pretty fricking popular thread, i must say. i'm always afraid of my threads flopping. lol.
nya........... hehe.
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| gee, thanks nejigirl (no sarcasm intended, in case people 'hears' any sarcastic undertone). |