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by Chick-yasha
on 2005-09-30 20:11:59
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Has any of you heard form Nightmare? I was going to call him, but he never reply my email. I just email him agian. I don't want to call him w/out him knowing... But this is the first time since this thread was started & we got to emailing each other, that he hasn't emailed back w/in 24 hours w/out telling first if he is going to be gone somewhere for a day or soo... So anyone know anything? Besides whats on the forum...I'm kind of worried. I'm in AL & he is in MI. & for some reason he can't call me, very odd cense my great aunt is in MI & she can call us. Please email me if you know anything... I'll be checking my emails until my online is turned off...Thank You.
Never date a guy stranger than you. If so, make sure he's loaded.
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um... if you say she is my girl it makes me think that you mean like as in girlfreind. she isnt my girlfriend, just a girl who is like my best friend, who i really care about. and that i like. but she doesnt like me like that. but im am happy the our friendship didnt change. we are still the same friends as before, i think. i dont know, im confused. i have bad feelings now. like something is wrong. and i gots a pain in my chest. the sameone i had before. it sucks.  |
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by zparticus27
on 2005-09-30 17:38:23
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really nightmare grounded for a year? is there such a punishment? i mean really? c'mon no parent would do that especially if all you did is get a c(thats like a 70% grade right?)maybe they'll forget about it ...eventually...i remember failing bio back at high school and my mom just went at it! she kept on naging about how stupid i was or how i was corrupted by my friends etc...and the punishment was suppose to be n o allowance for the entire summer school, i was banned from the t.v room, i was prohibited from using the computer or playing video games, i was like a discarded after thought...my parents didnt even talk to me for almost 2 weeks, no conversation just the usually "do this and that" but after that my mom gave in...maybe she forgot or maybe she saw my bio grade was improving... anyway parents may do things like this or to what they did to you but in the end your their son(your a boy right?)and they'll eventually realize that they were to much... i mean they all went from kid to adult...just hang in there man or talk to them...you never know what might happen next... hey ketsuki glad to know you got things working out with your girl!good luck to you! |
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you all dont know how happy i am. i been talking to kitsu-chan. we are still friends. and thank god or who ever that the topic of me liking her has come up. and i hope it never does again. now im happy that i told her how i feel cuz i got that out my chest, and im glad we are still friends. it all worked out like you all said it would. thanks everyone |
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hey, its the middle its 3 pm. just got back from work and got on line, and i noticed that kitsu-chan was on, and i was tempted to aim her, so i did. it feel awkward to me even though we arent see each other, and we said hey and chatted about 4 or 5 lines and then nothing. i know she gots other people to talk to that she hasnt talked to in a while, cuz of the huricanes and for the last month we talked alot, until i told her i liked her. i dont know, but i feel wierd. so yeah. what do i do? |
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your very welcome! and of course tifa is hotter than the game...the movie is CGed man i have been in a really crappy mood all week...like i just really dont care anymore...my mom is grounding me for a year (not for the rest of the year...a whole year...like till october 14th 2006 (the punishment starts once i get my report card on october 14th) just because i got one C on my reprt card (she doesent even care about the honor role, or the fact that i am having the best year ever in my other classes (all A's, one B...and one C) i mean, i suppose i can live with it for a while, but a birthday spent alone in my room? a christmas without any presents? a spring break loked in my room? an entire summer with nothing to do? i do not know how i am going to get through it...or if i will get through it. |
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by zparticus27
on 2005-09-30 07:39:13
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hey nightmare just wanna say that youre right the ff7 movie rocked! cant stop watching the movie...and tifa is way hotter than she was in the game...so is yuffie! |
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yes, i will have to agree with ranger, a fight is a fight...but bringing a gun si kinda cheep....but i suppose if it is to save your life, THEN it would be acceptable...and if you catch shit from Rin...just take it! at least you have someone! but, hey, at least you spek the truth. and ya, emotions are reall....trust me on this one |
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by night_link
on 2005-09-29 21:24:57
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T.B., it's ok. I thought it could make a good poem anyways (I mean that in a good way). Feelings and emotions are real aren't they? I don't know a true definition of that so I can't say so. Real... I want to say real is dreams that are both happy and sad... but even I'm not sure what that means. I don't want to spend too much time thinking about it later. |
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i dont like fights, but if i have to i will. obsessions are not always destructive, most of the time they are, but not always. can anyone tell me how to get rid of temptation. the only way i know is to give in. once you give in your temtation goes away but most of the times it leaves you with guilt. its been a week since i lasted talked to kitsu, like i posted yesterday, she was on and never said hey. school will resume on monday, oct. 3. i dont know if im gonna be able to see her. on sunday i will try to talk to her if she hasnt called me by then. and if i get no answer. i might not stay the whole day. i want to talk to all my friends, but most of them i met through her and i wont be able to face them until this thing is cleared up. i said i was gonna give up, but unfortunately my brain and my feelings never listen to me. so yeah. and to all of you who wonder what happened between me and my stepfather, he has not said a thing about kicking me out. i wont talk to him. and i hope he doesnt ask for anything cuz he is gonna get a big no. unless my mom forces me to (sad isnt it, my mom still has control of me. most spanish moms have control of their kids until they die, and some of then they still do after dead, i dont know how, but they do.) anyway, back to kitsu, it still hurts like hell. and i dont think the pain will go away any time soon. the only way i know to get rid of it is to get high, but i dont want to cuz i promised her that i would do it anymore, even though promises are meant to be broken, and she knows that how i think but she still made me promise, well it wasnt as much of a promise, it was more like i was being threaten by her to quit. its all very confusing, im so confused that i dont know wat is real or not. |
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To Jomunga and Old man Kai: I couldn't think of anything to express myself well yesterday. I'm sorry if I was a little too abstract. What I meant was that obsessions are destructive to people (drugs are the most commonly touted). Letting your obsessions control you is a form of slavery in invisible yet tight chains. Damnation comes to those who are really attached to life or things. I don't know if this is a major principle of some religions(Buddhism and Hinduism come to mind) but it makes a lot of logical sense. These were just ideas that I was toying with and found a perhaps illogical place in this thread. However, I felt like posting it anyway... It was really late in the night where I live when I posted that. -TB |
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Getting off topic, created new thread, see you there.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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The unspoken rules of fighting you speak of arent rules but rather a code one or a least I lay for my self. If some1 demands a 1 on 1 fight ok, but my goal is to not win but to win with style. So I dont give shoots to the groin or bite. I always try to encorporate 1 kick in a fight, but most are over before I can, so I usually just stomp on them. I go into fights usually for fun, but its only fun if abide by a code and the fight doesnt turn into a game of survival. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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Never take a knife to a gun fight, in fact if its a gun fight just run your ass off. If been lucky enough to never encounter a gun. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by desertranger
on 2005-09-29 15:22:46 (edited 2005-09-29 15:25:01)
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Lucian said Todays fights aren't real fights... Any fight is a real fight. I've been enough of 'em to know. there are no rules to fighting and only one goal. To win. If there are rules it isn't fighting. I don't like losing so I have a technique that will ensure I win until I can no longer stand. Even then if I can lift my arm I'm not gonna lose. So I don't care how many martial arts you know or how good you are you'll never get close enough to use 'em since my technique is using a Barretta 8045 better than anybody I know. Don't forget. Never take a knife to a fight, take a gun. If you have a gun and you pull it, don't hesitate... Shoot! I'm gonna catch shit from Rin on this one. |
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well, i don't know much about fights...never been in a real fight myself. i have been in TONS of spars...but spars are alot more civilised than just basic street fights. spars have rules and stuff. so i really cant help. id say just avoid fights whenever possible... |
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I was reading some of the comments here and some of it reminds me of my own youth. I spent a good portion of my life hating everything and myself for being different from everyone else. I was fighting at school, not because I wanted to, but because I had to. I grew up in DODDS schools around the world hopping from one ghetto air force base to another. This didn't allow me to keep up with the times so while everyone else was living in the present, I was always stuck in the past. Every day people would try to beat me up because I was the new guy. I wore hand me down clothes from my older brother, I wasn't wearing the right shoes, or because I spoke differently from the other black kids. They'd tell me I was begging for it. My dad's CO had a son named Walter that was a notorious bully when I was living in Delaware. One day that boy and four of his buddies beat me to the point where I couldn't move and then after they were done they urinated on me while I laid there bleeding on the ground. He told me if I ever told on them that his dad would make my dad's life a living hell. I came home one afternoon after not fighting back and my dad told me I had to have enough respect for myself not to let kids do it to me anymore. He made me realize that I always had the choice and that running away wasn't always an option. I made it a point after that to never lose a fight again, not to slime like that. Three days after my talk with my dad Walter and one of his friends came after me while I was walking home from school. Before he could even say a word I hit him in the mouth as hard as I could. It scraped up my knuckles good but I knocked out three of his teeth. His buddy got scared and ran off so I started pounding on Walter and by God if a man wasn't walking by I probably would have killed him and not given a damn. Walter made good on his promise, his dad treated my dad like shit and gave him crappy assignments but my dad never complained. People didn't bother me after that but it was strictly out of fear. The tradeoff wasn't worth it. The few people that did talk to me before considered me volitile and everyone avoided me like the plague until I moved to Germany. But that's another long and depressing story. As I got older I got over a lot of my issues. Hell, I'd forgotten some of my worst life experiences until I saw things on TV or in the paper that made the old feelings resurface. The point I guess I'm trying to make whether it helps or not is that even though the times seem tough now we all get older and we eventually get over these pains. Life ain't easy for some of us but we don't have to let the weight of the world sink us. If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to drop me a line.  Good? Bad? I'm the guy with the gun. - Ash, Army of Darkness |
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Go eat a hamburger or something. Yes I know its figurative, or maybe you are just hungry? Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by night_link
on 2005-09-28 21:43:18
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| Damned and hunger? What is it you're looking for here? I understand a little bit about yourself T.B., but what is it you want? |
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Hunger is the way of the damned.... I am hungry.... Therefore, I am damned.... I have too much hunger to let go of life.... I hate/love myself too much (desire for change, complacency).... Life and Death mean nothing since Death is undefined.... I hunger for food, for thoughts, for experiences, and for more hunger.... Control of body and mind is necessary to remove hunger.... I want to move but I stay tied to a rock in the sea.... Specifics: I am purposeless without any distinguishing element.... Friends I have in plenty, but all of them shallow.... There... I have expressed myself to some small degree.... -TB |