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Blogs are not interactive, forums are. Life does not suck as you so quaintly put it. Kazuki don't hate yourself. Friendship, especially a very close one, is is the same as being in love. Nothing should be able to come between a close friendship. Not a boy you don't like or your friend's moving around the world. I've known Wendy for 15 years, she was the first person I met when we moved here. We have a very close intimate relationship you may infer what you wish :) and we love each other. We are as close as sibs, no we are closer. We have both made the other angry and we have had fights. Wendy even made a mistake that hurt all of us still our friendship survives because of how strong it is. Seki is right as well. Keeping your life and your emotions bottled up can easily drive you up the wall. It can get very bad. I know about that one since Ranger and I have been throught it together when his emotions borke the dam.  |
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seki, you have a blog??? i have a xanga! hee!
nya........... hehe.
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by kazuki_kawaii
on 2005-09-10 06:37:57
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I forgot! Thanks for all of you who reacted to the "thing"... I didn't realize that there were many. Sorry...  |
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by kazuki_kawaii
on 2005-09-10 06:30:56
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LUCIAN: Actually, I was talking with R, my best guy friend, earlier... And, he told me something (don't ask) and made me realize something really important. Maybe I was just really hurt that I didn't take the time to see things through... And, well... Maybe L does deserve all the problems she's facing (other than me) right now because of jerk-dude... But, still I won't completely abandon her... But, I don't want to tell her that yet coz I'm still hurt you know. That one can't be denied. I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW. By the way, thanks for your concern. Oh yeah... Have I mentioned to you guyz that I have a really bad experience with an old friend. It made overprotective with the friends I had after her... Well... I was more like obsessed. I just can't let go. But, I'm REALLY REALLY trying hard to change! |
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i don't believe that some crybabies still want to stay alive ... they should have died many times before their real death. only strong-hearted men that will continue to live. the weak ones, even their bodies still works, they are just the same as walking corpes. just say life is hell ..., i don't really care. if life is truly hell, i will change it into my own paradise. i see billions of people starve, those who don't have anything to eat, don't have any money, don't have any cars and driving licence, those who suffer khwarsiorkor, or marasmus, those who have to sell their bodies just get some money to spend on food, they are far better than some crybabies i just happened to know. what a pity .... it's your right if you hate me because i write this post, just open your eyes to the world .... it seems that living in a fat and rich country make one's mind twisting
God's in his heaven. All's right with the world.
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Well Sai, yeah, we all know life sucks but hey it's better if you talk about it wif pplz. Feels better if you let it out. I do it on my blog although no one really goes and look at it except a few pplz i know. Keeping in negative stuff inside yourself can make you go ...... nuts? dont mind if I do!.... |
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Ok let me start with a story. In this story we have our main character,he is 45 years old and has never had his license, he has AIDS, he has a drug problem, he has an extensive rap sheet (going back to when he was a kid). He was put into a foster home when he was young for litterally destroying his house. He also goes to church every sunday, he almost always has a smile on his face, any story he tells, even if its a bad one from his past he turns into a very funny story, and he loves his family very much DESPITE his childhood conflicts. our main character died 3 years ago from july 19 from his AIDS. My uncle(our main character) was one of the greatest men I know. Now on to what I have to say. Ok, I'm done being the nice guy, I don't care if this input is appreciated. You guys may not have had any enlightenment from me, but I've had a hell of a lot from you. You guys helped me realize why I don't like America. It's full of people who look at their own existence and say "#$%^ it". Yeah, life sucks, that will never change. EVER. you have to accept this if you're ever gonna truly live. most of this that I hear is household problems. Well all you have to do is wait it out until you get out of the house. Get a job where you can get some descent money, get a house, and live life from there how you want, not how someone else wants. BTW before you have ideas of flaming(BTW I don't care if you do) I have't had a pleasure cruise either, I'm 20 years old, I don't have a G/F, I don't have my license, I have an idiotic parent, I have other physical problems(some things don't work like they should) and I have to take care of 3 younger siblings while my non-stupid parent goes out to bring in a paycheck, I cook, I clean, I help with homework, and I've been doing so since I was 14. report me, I don't care, but maybe someone will save them selves from this well of despair everyone has dug. I'll leave you with these two sayings "Hey, at least I'm not on fire" "Only the strong survive."
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Well, to play the devil's advocate so to speak, Kazuki, even if your best bud didnt tell you abt her bf, so what? You are her best bud but her own life belongs to herself only, whether she feels like telling you or not is still up to her. It's not that she looks at you any less but that maybe she didnt know how to break it to you since she probably remember the promise you two made. You are her friend, not the one to whom she owes her life. But I do understand when friends tell you things at the end of a long queue. I find out things only from other friends who was good enough to tell me. I had a situ where everyone went to a game lan center but didnt invite me. When one of them didnt have an account there, they had the nerve to phone me and ask for my one. |
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| well then, I guess nejigirl said something I forgot to tell. Just have a big Conversation with her about what happened. Im sure everything will turn out ok. |
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hmm... well, yeah, i do think that it would have been nice for your friend to be honest about this relationship from its start {because even if she is only texting the guy, it can still be an emotional relationship}, and it would've been nice for both of you to exchange views and thoughts on why you wouldn't want her to be involved and whatnot, but then again.... A) that is highly idealistic. B) this has never been or ever will be a perfect world. let's be honest? hehe. SO! I think you should definetly talk to her about it, because when neither of the people in a fight talk to eachother they begin to make assumptions, and that's simply horrid. give her a chance to voice why she's into this guy. if they have something that's worthwhile, and if he seems okay, maybe they should try going out. I know it's scary when your friends begin to go out, because I know that when that happened I was afraid of being left behind. however, once i told them i was reassured, and now i know that they'll be here for me forever. and i'll always be there for them. actually, most of them broke up with their guys because they were kinda moody and actually one of them thought he was a werewolf, but that's aside from the point. hang in there, and i really hope everything turns out okay. <3
nya........... hehe.
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Kazuki, I understand you, if a close friend of mine betrayed my trust, I could break our friendship... but it also depends on what kind of she friend is, and how much did she betray you... If your friend is close to you and you think you will be able to trust her from now on, then maybe you should ask her why she chose some guy over your friendship, and try to repair your trust and friendship...or maybe give her a little time to think about she did to you. If she doesn't understand why she hurt you or she isn't sorry for what she did, then maybe it's best if you stop being friends. If you think you can't trust her again ever, then it's better for you to stop being friends. A real friendship needs to have trust... If it doesn't have then it's not. And Jomunga, one shouldn't always show forgiveness to someone that hurts you, it's in situations like these where you can see who your true friends are. |
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Kazuki, your talking about love here. Promises to others and yourself have a way of being broken when your in love. Love clouds your vision and your senses to you are out of control. My promise with others girls I went to school with was to save ourselves for marriage. It didn't work out that way. Don't lose a friendship over a boy regardless of who he is. For all you know he is the best thing to happen to her at the moment. If this is a good relationship you should give it your support and get to know her BF. If it's not, then it shall fail and your GF is going need someone there for her. I was going to make a post, however in answering Kazuki I changed my mind. Maybe later. |
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Kazuki, I would be worried about your friend at this point. Is the guy she is dating a nice guy or not? Is he pick-up artist or does he actually plan on being a good boyfriend? Get angry at her after you get the details down. Maybe you were the last to know because she was affraid that you would get angry and kick her out. You did. Its all right to be angry but show a little forgiveness.  Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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doh. once again epitomises how we humans choose to lead a complicated life when we can have a simpler one.
Veni, Vidi, Vici.
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by kazuki_kawaii
on 2005-09-09 06:13:47 (edited 2005-09-09 06:15:26)
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Thank goodness there's thread like this! I need someone to bear with me... What I'm about to type is happening this very moment. It started two days ago. Well, my best bud and I broke up. No, she's not my girlfriend. What I meant was, she and I broke our friendship. It's because she broke a promise... She's having a boyfriend. A little background about our group. We're five, 4 girls (M, A, my best bud, L and me) and a guy (R) *gay turned guy*. M isn't really close to us. A is one of the campus crush. R is a math wiz. My best bud's a clown. And, I am an obsessed friend. I hate it when I feel like our group's falling apart. One time, A told L and I that she has a boyfriend. We didn't mind. In a way, it's expected for her to have something like that going on knowing that she's one of the school's prettiest faces. But, after that, L and I made a promise... We won't have boyfriends... Well, at least not while we're still in high school. Before our classes ended, she told us that she's texting a guy from the last section. I was against it the moment I found out who the guy was! She and A told me that she's developing a crush on that idiot during summer. She told A first so that A could help her tell me about it. They knew that I'm not going to like it. But, when she called me that night, and started talking about her having a crush, I thought it was pretty obvious that she was referring to HIM. I told her that I already know what she's about to say. She begged me not to be mad. I didn't. But, I told her that I would never forgive her if that guy ever becomes her bf. She was like "No way!" and "Yuck! Never!!!" and "Over my dead body!†But, a few days ago, I borrowed her cellphone during lunch to text my mom. Her Inbox was filled with that guy's messages. I read one of the messages and noticed that the guy's calling her "hon" which was, without a doubt, short for the word "honey" *it's disgusting, I know*. I returned her her celly and gave her an I-know-your-secret look. She then gave out her "panic" laugh *she always does that when I figure out her secrets that she doesn't want me to know*. She followed me inside my classroom. She was really nervous. By the way, L and I are not classmates, we belong to different sections; but the guy's my classmate. I asked her whether the guy's officially her boyfriend or he's still courting her. She told me that he's still courting her *through text, mind you!*. That's a relief, I thought. Then, she added "...soon". What the?! I then asked her when the guy started courting her. She was hesitant at first. Then, she answered with a panicked giggle, "June". I stared at her. I was really angry. Then, I yelled at her and told her to leave. I even told her that I'm going to KILL her, which I really felt like doing that time. I mean, come on! I'm her best friend and yet, I'm the last one to know about it! The girl we used to hate found out about it weeks, probably even months, before I found it out! She didn't even tell me whether she was planning or not to tell me about that "stupidity"! The next day, during lunch *again! a lot of things happen during lunch breaks*, she came to our room, she asked whether I'm mad or something. Duh?! Isn't it obvious?! Then, I reminded her about the promise, then I told her that since she's having a boyfriend, she's out. She was quick, as if she already thought about it, and replied "okay", then, she walked out. Then, earlier today, during lunch *again! told ya!*, she came in to tell me that A wants me to know that she already have a bf... something that I already know. I said, "it’s okay". I even whispered, "like I care...". She then looked at me and asked me why I'm okay with A having a boyfriend and yet, I'm against her. I didn't answer. She walked out... again. Then, I whispered to my friend, T, the only person outside the "circle" who knows about what's going on between L and me, things like "go away" and "like I care". That's pretty much it. I know you guys will side with my friend just like everybody else. I'm pretty much aware why that is. |
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It's a good thing that seki cleared that up. I am NOT easy. I was barely talking from experience. oki? 
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| Wow Lucian, u sound a bit like me. But I dont consider myself a goth though. Since I'm into Jedi Realism, I consider myself somewhere between a Shadow Jedi and a Dark Jedi. |
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Dear god Lucian. I didnt even read your post yet, but wow. How fast can you type? As fast as you think or speak? Plus not many mistakes either. Jomunga eats your avatars. |
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by The Chosen One
on 2005-09-08 17:27:11
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life is beautiful, wonderful, sunshine!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
"I will not back down, cause that is my way of the ninja!"
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Good advice from jomunga and shiriu! That's basically what I was trying to say, but they managed to sum it up a lot better than I did.  |